KIN NOTES

PART ONE

A Skeleton Key to Qim Tunes

FANFARE TO THE SUN

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep, pretty darling do not cry
and I will sing a lullabye.
Golden slumbers fill your eyes!
Smiles awake you when you rise!

“Golden Slumbers” (Lennon, McCartney)

INVOCATION

. . . and the stressful constraint and the ordeal of the pit and they shall be refined by them to become the elect of righteousness . . . because of His loving-kindness. For the age of wickedness is complete and all injustice has passed away. For the time of righteousness has come and the earth is full with the knowledge and praise of God.

4Q215, f2 (Dead Sea Scrolls)

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed . . . [A]nd he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.

Romans 8:18

As of now, I announce to you new things, Well-guarded secrets you did not know . . .I am bringing my victory close; It shall not be far, And my triumph shall not be delayed.

Isaiah 48:6


I feel like letting my Freakflag fly!

“Almost Cut My Hair” (David Crosby)

These commentaries, called Kin Notes, are speculations on the intact document Qim Tunes, available at

QIM TUNES - ORIGINAL DOCUMENT

Kin Notes, begun in 2001, was originally addressed to Tom Smith as personal correspondence, and grew in discovery. The “Socratic” format sometimes is retained.

My interjections to Qim Tunes appear below in boldface italics.

These Notes are speculations that in no way represent “official interpretations” of Qim Tunes -- as no such thing does or could exist. Despite the fact that, like Tom Smith, I have construed some parts of Qim Tunes personalistically, such guesses are not a proprietary claim on the Tunes’ “Truth” – or on any truth, even lower-case -- but mostly me scratching my noggin and muttering out loud . . . in public!

I no longer think of the Tunes as a “document,” but more as a concert-in-the-round, a bio-plasmate, a liquid gem that’s much larger, and much more important, than any personalistic interpretation or intention. For a moment the River of Time has been stilled before us in glittering refraction, its diamond-crests frozen that we might glimpse its make, and perhaps its maker.

So:

Readers are strongly urged to read and experience the intact, unannotated Qim Tunes via the above link, to form their own opinions (lest my blathering spoil your Cruise!)

Enjoy the outing!

~ the common tator~

QIM TUNES

BY:
Tom: Tom Smith (Jed) - Facilitator - 46 years old
Brent: (Centinel) 45
Nick: (Weiner) 26
Geoff: (JoJo) 24
Adrian: 31
Jerome: 28

DEDICATIONS

To: All That Is
To: The Innocent, Disabled, Persecuted and Poor of Humanity
To: "The Boys" and Jesus Christ; To The Apostle Thomas, Buddha, Abraham, Mohammed, and Satchidanada
To: Jimi Hendrix and The 60’s Generation
To: Nicole and Zachary, Richard and Esie Smith, Doug and Kathy, The Supparritts Family, Tom Perry, Dee Kiker and Bud Hosmer
To: Stendahal, Hugo, Soren Kierkegaard, Tolstoy, Whitman, Theroux, Chekov, Dostoevsky, Jack London, Jack Keroac, Lenny Bruce and John Barth
To: The MMPI, Harry Sack Sullivan, Karl Menninger and ICF
To: Chatauqua, Plato’s Theory of Knowledge and the World Wide Web
To: Rejoicing!

FORWARD

I always believed there was a power or intelligence greater than myself that was operating in my life, but since there was no way of knowing what God was, I avoided any speculation about Him. I thought that by being honest and good to other people, my debt to the Divinity would be satisfied. As my life progressed (I’m 48), I took comfort that I expanded on that duty in my work of service the past 25 years to the most disabled. But I also fell short.
I never expected in my lifetime to know who God was as a physical entity. If God was a physical being, it could only be something not of this planet. And then in 1993 and 1994 while I was doing my ten dollar an hour job and using a new communication technique with my clients, I slowly realized that I was talking to God’s "agents". I wrote the whole conversation down. This book is that narrative, and due to the nature of the experience, my own testimonial.
It’s natural to have a defensive reaction to this idea. The idea of "God" has connotations that affect deeply the emotions of believers and non believers. A few laughs never hurt anyone. But ridicule and derision are another matter. This was a sincere effort on my part and these are real people I was responsible for. If you believe this is an exercise of my over active immagination, that’s OK. In that case I hope you enjoy what you think is my creativity. And if you believe that they are saying these things, but that I influenced them in some way or misinterpreted what they were saying, that’s OK too. I hope when others present their material, my effort will gain more respect. For those of you who just aren’t interested, as one of my boys in the narrative said, "books are your first line of deception". But I think he would agree that this one is special. I have no doubts that they said all this to me. Something they did in Part II puts all doubts to rest.
My hope and belief is that this is the beginning of the prophesied millenium of peace and harmony. They indicated that we’ll know in less than ten years and that they knew this time was coming in 3,525 B.C. I’ll be surprised if it doesn’t happen.


INTRODUCTION

Five out of every 10,000 humans are born with Autism. There are presently almost 2 million Autistics in the world today. The condition is probably genetic and has therefore been a part of the human population for thousands, maybe millions, of years.
Autism was first identified by Kanner in the 1940’s. It’s a distinct syndrome from retardation and mental illness, but to a layman it appears to be either or both. The difference is that they appear to be mentally somewhere else. They respond very little or not at all to people; repeat words or phrases or are totally mute; and rhythmically "stim" on objects. These symptoms vary relative to the "severity" of the condition. Some Autistics that are considered "high functioning" can communicate in sentences in a limited fashion. "Low functioning" Autistics need total care because their motor abilities are severely deficient.
This document is the product of "low functioning" Autistics. Some had occasional incontinence, all had severe communication problems, and some needed help in moving from place to place. I’ll describe them more specifically later.
The method of Facilitated Communication (FC) was first used with Cerebral Palsy patients starting 20 years ago. Cerebral Palsey is clearly a motor (movement) disorder. It’s a disease that can strike people later in life and cause them to lose their motor abilities. Talking, being a motor ability, was also lost. Since we associate the ability to communicate with intelligence, it was assumed that they also lost their intellectual abilities. As our understanding of brain functioning progressed in this century, it became evident that the loss of communication didn’t necessarily translate to a loss of awareness or intelligence.
In the 80’s an Australian woman, Rosemary Crossley, had been working with Cerebral Palsy patients and using FC when she was exposed to an Autistic population. She noticed that they had similar motor problems and tried to FC with them. It worked.

I first heard of Facilitated Communication in April of ‘92. It was presented at a staff meeting by our supervisor, Guy Mecham, as a communication technique that we could possibly use with the six Autistic clients in our care. My response was that this sounded like another intervention that wouldn’t work. In my twenty five years of working with Autistics, I’ve witnessed many well meaning but misguided attempts to help them. The thought also occurred to me that someone might come along and make ridiculous claims about them using FC. The method required that the staff hold the pointing hand of the client, put pressure back on his hand while the client pushed his pointing finger toward a letterboard thereby spelling out words and talking.
In hindsight, my reaction was unusually skeptical considering my past attitudes toward Autistics. Two years before this, before I ever heard of FC, I had enough faith in the intelligence of one of my Autistic clients (Brent), that I put a typewriter in front of him hoping he would type a message to me. Herein lies the dilemna of FC. Could I believe what another person using FC claimed these people were saying?
Due in part to my skepticism, FC wasn’t tried in the residential unit that I was working at. This was one of the few times that my skepticism carried the day in treatment team meetings. We had previously been presented with even more ridiculous treatment modalities that we weren’t given a choice about. But FC was used at the vocational program because of a supervisor who encouraged its use and Nick’s (an autistic) one to one staff, Jim McCune, who tried FC for five months before getting results.
It was the moment that I read what he produced with Nick that I believed there was a possibility that this was working. The document was a running conversation of a few pages between Jim and Nick. It not only sounded like Nick’s personality (I had worked with Nick for three years before this), but it seemed unlikely that Jim could have made this up, consciously or unconsciously. Other staff members who read it felt the same way, and we all tried our hand at it after convincing our supervisor and going through training. This was in the summer of ‘92.
Part of the training was to read all the literature on FC. The most damning was the twenty or more double blind studies. In these studies, the staff and client would sit together to FC at a table. A wall would run perpendicular to them from the table to 20 feet away. At the far end on either side of the wall there would be a board where pictures could be tacked on. The client couldn’t see the picture that the facilitator saw and the facilitator couldn’t see what the client saw. Whenever the pictures were different, the client would answer through FC only what the facilitator saw. This happened close to 100% of the time, indicating that the Facilitator was talking and not the client. That this should happen 100% of the time was unusual in this kind of experiment.
Supporters of FC hypothesized that the testing situation was the culprit; that the clients may be experiencing nervousness, becoming careless and going with the facilitators impulses. This argument played into the skeptics hands by acknowledging that there is Facilitator influence over what is being produced.
There have been some scientific studies that have validated FC. But the preponderance of scientific evidence indicates a lack of validity. Then again, there can be an argument made that the truth or validity of anything we say is at least philosophically suspect. Autistics, especially low functioning ones, have learned to live without communicating. And when they do communicate, they may not be interested in some of the things that we’re interested in.
There’s plenty of evidence, besides the thousands of parents and caretakers who know they’re talking through FC, that should give pause to the most religiously skeptical person. There are many Autistics who have gone from full hand support FC to no support. There are two Autistics who have emerged from the disorder, have recieved advanced degrees and written books about the experience. Both state how their perception and ways of knowing were very different than ours. As with Autistic Savants, like Dustin Hoffman’s character in Rain Man, their ways of knowing and perceiving were much more advanced than ours and science has no explanation for it.
Both FC’s believers and skeptics have made serious mistakes that have harmed others, blocked a reasoned investigation of the process and under utilized FC’s therapeutic value. It began when FC’s supporters insisted on its validity in areas of sexual allegations. Even with speaking clients these accusations are often suspect. You can believe someone is talking and not have to believe what they are saying. Why would they lie about something like this or other things? If more of us were talking to them and trying to learn more, maybe then we could find out. That’s what I did in this project.
Because of the debacle over the sexual allegations, the skeptics have over reacted. One Australian researcher stated at the end of his study that was published by the Journal of Autism and Developmental Disorders, that FC was as dangerous as giving a patient psychiatric medications that didn’t need them. In other words, FC is as dangerous as poison. FC is essentially holding a persons hand and thinking that they are aware and intelligent. Dangerous stuff. It’s not valid, so what we think they are saying can’t hurt anyone. Many skeptics in the professional community have successfully banned FC from some institutions on the grounds that it is unethical. These scientific skeptics are the same group that used cattle prods on this population 15 years ago as a tool for Aversive Therapy. My employer thought that the spiritual content of my FC’s was dangerous enough to ease my fanny out of a job. But as one of my boys said, "The nemesis furthers the goal". I have many other anecdotes about believers and skeptics silly reactions over FC. These people are intelligent and caring enough to be more reasonable in time. It has only been five years since FC became widely used.
Three staff were FCing before I started. They were young and very excited about being part of such an important discovery. I was reading their work and still seeing consistency with the personalities of these guys I had known for so long. Alot of it seemed self serving in a kiss-up sort of way, but still consistent with what I thought their personalities to be.
I began to FC in August ‘92. Nicole Jansen, a fellow worker and my apartment mate at the time, would come home and swear that one of the clients had read her mind. The client would spell out in detail what she did after work and what some of her thoughts were. She would tell me about this in confidence and I was excited about it too, but my position was, "so what, it doesn’t keep them from acting like idiots". My job was to help them to be more like us and to meet their needs. Implications of their mind reading would not occur to me until a year later when I also experienced it. Two other staff were also reporting similar experiences and in the comming year we would also hear reports of it nationally.
In October of ‘92, our supervisor (Mecham), mandated that the staff not talk to the clients about mind reading until further notice. His rationale was that it was making the staff hysterical and affecting their jobs. ( This wasn’t true. One of the staff had a drug problem and was missing alot of work.) He also mandated that we no longer share our work with each other - we couldn’t discuss what our clients were saying even if they gave their permission. This was the beginning of a series of decisions that would discourage the use of FC, and two years later, kill it.
I was ambivalent about the validity of the FC I was getting in the first three or four months. I had a scientific orientation and knew there was a distinct possibility that I might be influencing the direction of their hand. But more importantly, I was getting sophisticated language and ideas from them that just didn’t gell with how they appeared. The only way I could check out whether I was influencing the direction of their hand was at the point where I drew their hand back, let up on the pressure, and see what direction they started in. I was convinced that they were initiating. But there was one client in particular I had no doubts about. That was Nick. He was consistently and clearly spelling the words out. I often wondered why he needed to have me hold his hand. I would see why whenever he insisted on making a period at the end of a sentence. I would hold the board up without holding his hand while he tried to hit the period. It took all his concentration and he always hit right above it. He couldn’t hit the inch square box it was in.
By November or December ‘92, I was convinced that they were talking. Now my problem was to see if they could shed light on the difficulty with the double blind studies. But I didn’t want to get into that until I got to know them better and the dynamics of this rather unusual way of communicating. I used FC to be "chummy". I quickly discovered that there were alot of problems and pitfalls inherent in the process. For example. When I first started to FC, I would sit next to a client I had known for 3 years and not be able to think of a question. This was my first opportunity to talk with someone who had never talked before, plus I had a real emotional attachment to them. Because of their behavioral limitations due to Autism, there was no visual or audio feedback that is customary when talking to normal people. I overcame that problem after a few months.
The next problem was how to be fair. The Facilitator controls the when and what of the conversation. The clients do have some control over the "what". I’d ask them what activity they’d want to do and they would start talking about something else, or not talk at all. So in this manner they can influence the "what". It was clear from the beginning that they weren’t interested in using this method for getting their needs met. Put yourself in their shoes. Suppose you couldn’t talk and people thought you were an idiot all your life. Caretakers were always guessing at what your needs were. You appreciated the effort, but they were often wrong. You were inured to hardship and may have even prided yourself at your ability to endure it, while everyone else was running around getting all their needs met and still bitching about life. Maybe because of your condition and hardships, you were able to develop some extra abilities to deal with your torturous life. Now this sweet young caretaker wants to know whether you want peas or carrots for dinner. And if you don’t spell it out, you’re an idiot. Then if you spell out later to another staff that you read minds, the staff has to say to the client, " I’m sorry, I can’t talk about that or I’ll get fired".
These guys have alot to say, but it may not be what we want to hear. They would frequently insult me. I’d get an attitude and walk away. Then it would occur to me that this is not fair. Maybe they had more to say and my "attitude" would be just a misunderstanding. So I’d go back, and sure enough, it was a misunderstanding or something more appropriate in the context of what they were allowed to say after that.
By April ‘93, five of my Autistic clients were talking to me through FC. The other staff who were FCing had gone on to other jobs and the new staff were not being trained and then told they needed to complete training before they could start FCing. There was one other staff FCing, but not very often. I was using any spare time I could get to continue the conversation. Now I was asking them what the problem was with the double blind study. They consistently said it was by choice, they didn’t want FC validated, and they were "hiding". This made no sense to me.
By the summer of ‘93, I was starting to get resistance from the staff and my supervisor. Maybe they thought I could do something more useful than sit next to a client, hold his hand and pretend he was talking. The conversational FC would usually take 5 to 10 minutes though sometimes it could take up to 30 minutes. I would write 3 or 4 words down at a time because that was all I was able to remember accureately. While I was doing this, the staff was chatting with each other or watching TV. Don’t get me wrong, we had good staff and they were working hard and doing a good job. A certain amount of relaxation was necessary to maintain a natural environment. Some of the staff may have believed in FC and were jealous that I was doing it. Maybe they were afraid I’d use what the clients were saying to undermine them. I knew that I was in a bad spot. I met with Dick Drake, my boss’ boss, to air these concerns and asked for my wages to be doubled. He said that wouldn’t be possible, but that Seaton Hall (the institution) "supports FC". If so they sure had a funny way of showing it.
I almost quit at this point, but decided to hang in there alittle longer. If these guys were hiding, and they wouldn’t say why, it wasn’t my problem. A month later they started telling me why. Before that, Adrian( one of the Autistics ) said, "You are doing well at trying to understand us, but you miss the main point". I said, "What’s the `main point’"? He said, "Your not ready to hear it now, but soon you will be".
When I got the "main point" and started to write down all my FC’s, I also started getting enough resistance from the supervisor and some staff to know my days were numbered. I worked extra hard to take care of my normal responsibilities so that I could finish the job. By Christmas, I felt I had enough material to take this outside of Seaton Hall. I insisted on the truth, which made me a "Secret Sharer" of sorts, with responsibilities toward them. But I wasn’t working for them only, we were working for the truth.

The following facilitated quotes are by an autistic, that were in "Movin On", by Donellan and Leary 1993 (leading researchers and publishers in the field of Autism)
"As the truth about our diversity of gifts becomes known to more people we can begin to join the others."
"The significant change will occur when people realize what we can teach".
The below is a direct quote from the researchers Donnellan and Haskew:
"Communicators (Fcing Autistics)refer to talking with God, to the power of prayer, the need for love in the spirit of agape, and to the consolation they gain from religious expression. Again and again facilitators learn of amazingly rich spiritual lives.
"A man (Autistic) told us, `Religion is where you can hear angels sing.’
Communicators report about angels who function as protectors, and tell us that life beyond the grave awaits us all. There are reports, too, of darker spiritual forces at work as well. For many facilitators the ramifications of their communicators spiritual lives prove profoundly moving, and sometimes frightening. It ranks with the possibility of mind reading as being the most disturbing discovery of FC."
This next quote is from an Autistic who was FC’d with in front of an audience of FC supporters with Douglas Biklin (FC’s national promoter) presiding. This was in the Frontline documentary.
"And please encourage us and Doug to be able to become a part of your world and get the hell out of our world."

Qim Tunes is mostly “basement business” . . . ashes work

. . . full-canary mining down the rabbit-hole collective freefall of the modern West

Hi Ho! Hi Ho! it’s off to work we go!!

with typical ambiguity, the autistic interviewee’s statement can also be read as a request simply to help remove the “hellish” or imprisoning muteness of the “autistic world” – or, as a general challenge against malevolent “planetary powers”

these Boys joke around a lot -- they like to tease and have fun

but most of the Qim Tunes is serious business

From Donna William’s book "Nobody Nowhere". Miss Williams was Autistic in her youth, but came out of it in late teenage years. This book describes her experience as an Autistic.

"At school strange things were happening. I would have daydreams in which I was watching children I knew. I would see them doing the most trivial things: peeling potatoes over the sink, getting themselves a peanut butter sandwich before going to bed. Such daydreams were like films in which I’d see a sequence of everyday events that really didn’t relate in anyway to myself. I began to test the truth of these daydreams, approaching the friends I’d seen in them and asking them to give a step by step detailed picture of what they were doing at the time I had the daydream.
Amazingly, to the finest detail, I would find I had been right. This was nothing I controlled, it simply came into my head, but it frightened me."

All these quotes, except the Frontline quote, I read for the first time in May ‘94, toward the end of my conversation with these guys. I’m sure there are many more quotes that would corroborate what I got, but institutions won’t allow outsiders to see the material.

The title "Qim Tunes" was suggested by Geoff, one of the Autistic communicators. Qim stands for "Quotes I Am" and "tunes" are described in the dialog. ( Note 1/96. He didn’t actually say "Q" stood for quotes. I assumed it because we were using the word "quotes" alot in referring to this document. In my religious reading recently I came across another meaning for "Q" that, knowing these guys, they more likely had intended, especially considering the way the conversation went. Scholars of the New Testament hypothesize that there was a document of wisdom sayings attributed to Jesus that was circulatng before the gospels were written and that were used in the writing of certain Gospels. It’s called the "Q" document, Q being derived from the German word "quelle" meaning the source. )

The body of the narrative is typed directly from my original notes. The shorter bracketed notes were made as I was doing this. The longer bracketed notes were made when I first typed up the whole first Part in Oct.’94. Notes in parenthesis are from Feb. ‘96. All other notes are dated. This time layer of notes I felt was impotant to show my evolving perspective and interpretation of the material.


PART I

RAPTURE

I took the liberty of dividing this book into three parts and naming them. I hope the boys approve. I chose the Revelation subdivisions without being aware they came from Revelations. I did know it represented some end of the age eschatology. The reason I chose it was my fondness for the word rapture. I read the Book of Revelation and other religious materials since the completion of the project and have been amazed at the appropriatenss of these subdivisions. I’m so pleased with them that Chapters in this book will henceforth be Seals.
I didn’t begin writing all my FC’s down until October ‘93, a year after I began Fcing. After I discovered their mind reading abilities and started investigating it, I thought it was too important not to record. I also hoped that the discussion would be entertaining enough for others to read and thereby help the boys to begin to be understood. I knew that was a tall order considering the controversy over FC and this idea of mind reading, but it had to start somewhere. My main fear was that someone else was doing the same sort of investigation somewhere, and I’d be a Johnny come lately. But if it wasn’t interesting to read than it would be for naught anyway. After the first month of writing everything down, I read through what I had and was pleased. By the second or third month I was very pleased. Part I covers the first two and a half months (early October ‘93 through mid December ‘93). Part II and III are approximately four months of material each.
Friends who have read this have wanted to know more about the mechanics of Facilitation. Each client has a different style, much the same way as in verbal communication. Brent liked to go fast and fly on "Gossimer Wings" as he put it in Part II.

unusual word, “gossamer” -- same one I used yesterday in an e-mail to you, before first tackling these Tunes

hoo boy, here we go . . .

that didn’t take long, did it?

there’s this from Rudolph Steiner’s lecture, “The Michael Inspiration”:

Mankind, throughout its evolutionary history, has always been guided by impulses from the spiritual world. Those who could see so far found these impulses written as it were in brazen letters in a spiritual light, indicating the direction they should take. What is thus found in the spiritual world might be compared with the signposts of the physical world; not those that have just a pointing hand perhaps, and the name of some place or other, but signposts on which is expressed in powerful words — or at least in powerfully sounding words — what changes are due to take place in human thinking, feeling, willing. I am speaking of spiritual signposts. Such directions in the spiritual world, however, are usually drawn up for human beings in a remarkable manner, and have been so in all epochs — namely, in a kind of riddle-language.


This was the least validating style of the group for me. But it gave me a feel for what telepathy is like. Though he preferred that fast style, he could at times go slow and hit the letters in the most validating way. Because his style was fast, I would often ask him to repeat a letter when I wasn’t sure, and increase the pressure back on his hand. This was all done rapidly and it was tricky. I also asked him more frequently to verify what he just said ( more on that later ). Though he was the most difficult, he also was the most willing, so I ended up talking to him more than the others. There are some other reasons that I talked to him more. He was the oldest of the group at forty five years of age. His nickname was Centinel, the keeper of the gate or secrets. I sensed a leadership role that he played with the group and I had reason to believe that the information he gave was more reliable. He was totally mute except for being able to parrot a word on demand. There was a stoicism and concientiousness about him. He has curly blond hair and sensitive blue eyes and looked the way one would imagine God to look if God was one of us.

In talking about Brent’s style I mentioned feeling "Validated". This idea of self validation was very important and effected greatly how I went about this. Us facilitators were under alot of pressure from the skeptics so we in turn put pressure on ourselves and the clients to FC in a validating fashion. For me that not only included mechanics, but also not being able to anticipate what they were going to say. They accomodated me in that area often by using surprise or unexpected words or phrases. With the mechanics, I would ask them to repeat frequently, vary the pressure back on their hand, change rhythm or just break off.
The next client who’s "style" I will talk about is Nick. Now Brent may have looked like God, but in the politics of the institution and dorm, Nick was God. He had a famous parent who was active in the national Autism organization and helped raise money for the institution. Nick also had the most difficult behaviors to deal with, and he managed to dominate the place with those behaviors. He had extreme repetitive verbal and motor behaviors. He’d get stuck alot so to speak. There was frequent tantrums and aggressive behavior. He was only aggressive in proportunate response to others aggression towards him. He was truly a magnificent non violent warrior. He was also very good looking and in the best athletic condition of anyone I’d ever known. His eyes were fascinating. They were emerald green and his pupils would be either totally dilated or contracted. He talked by repeating words or phrases but relative to the context it was nonsense. He was able to answer yes or no and say "I want to talk" reliably in the context of FC.

Nick and Brent were the two leaders initially in this conversation, though the others gained prominence as time went on. Nick made an interesting statement in September ‘93. He said that in this conversation he functioned for me as the "encoder" and Brent functioned as the "decoder". I assumed he was referring to the contrast in validity between their styles, but it might mean more. Brent was the most consistant and forthright across facilitators and over time about their unusual abilities. But for self validation, Nick was my anchor.

Adrian’s FC style was more careful and cautious. But his behavior was that of a joker. He liked making people laugh. Instead of careful and cautious, maybe shy is a better way to describe his FC style. He would let me know he wanted to talk sometimes by just hanging around me more than usual. Then I would ask him verbally if he wanted to talk. He could say yes or no reliably. The mechanics of Fcing with him was more eye to eye interactive than with the others. He was playful and testy with the process. So I just played along and persisted until he was done.

I need to stress here this idea of FC being more than just linguistically interactive. Like I said, Adrian was "playful" and "testy" during the process which would cause eye contact and gestural interaction between us. All the other guys had other dynamics in the process which would initiate other forms of interaction. Nick’s "fidgetiness", and Brent’s "fast pace" would cause me to interact in physical ways within the conversational context of FC. So they were getting much of the plethora of interaction and attention that the rest of us get in a conversation.

Now we come to Geoff. He was the youngest of the group at 24 years old, though Nick and Jerome weren’t much older. Geoff was easygoing and affable. He was the artist of the group and looked the part with dark hair and a moustache. I just enjoyed sitting next to him whether we were Fcing or not. He would laugh and do his funny stereotypal gestures to try to get a laugh or to get some attention. But he was all business when it came to FC. He more frequently responded emotionally to the content of our conversation by pounding the table or with smiles and glances. With the mechanics, a steady rhythm and light pressure would do, but at times of uncertainty I would increase the pressure and change rhythm.

I saved Jerome for last because he talked the least in the document, but like the others, contributed equally and was equally

appreciated. Jerome is a gentle giant. At a large 6’2" he’s imposing, but because he has Spinal Bifida, he’s as gentle as a eunich.

When FC started in the dorm and all the young staff were running from Autistic to Autistic competing to get the most notches in

their FC belts, I was sitting next to Jerome and trying to use the method to teach him how to spell. I really liked Jerome and felt

sorry for him. While I was doing that on Jerome’s left side (hand), another staff who FC’d came over to his right hand and Jerome spelled out to him the reinforcer that I was using with him. I had potato chips in front of him and was using them as a carrot to get

him to spell. I’m sure he was aggravated as he spelled out to the other staff, "I want floppy shit" (potato chips).It was the most

exciting moment of my career. He could not only spell, he could swear creatively! When I went to his right hand afterwards,

he started Fcing with me. They were all right handed.

It was difficult Fcing with Jerome, because most of the time he would space out by putting his head back and turn it back and forth repeatedly. Because of his condition he just seemed to need to do that frequently. So when I FC’d with him, I’d shake his hand occasionally to try to get his attention back to the board. It was time consuming, so most of his quotes are brief.

I have a touching anecdote about Jerome and this FC business. One evening we went to the Starling Bookstore and ran into a taxi driver who daily drove Jerome to his work activities center. The taxi driver told us that he had a dream about Jerome where he and Jerome were talking together. Jerome can’t talk. He also can’t hear (but he hears some things somehow). Fortunately, I had my FC board (it’s a clipboard with a sheet of paper taped to the back of it that has large alphabet letters), and Jerome responded on the board, "I had the same dream".
None of these guys can talk, but some of them can repeat phrases or laugh and make noises, thereby interacting in a limited way. As I said Adrian is a joker. He could repeat words or phrases in different vocal tones that would make the staff laugh. He would twirl himself around, get dizzy and stagger around causing the staff to crack up (the staff didn’t encouarage this routine too often for obvious reasons). The only word I ever heard Geoff say was my name. He would occasionally beckon me in a humorous way saying "Tommy". He would also laugh and make certain noises to get people’s attention. Nick would occasionally laugh appropriately at the staff. This would occur when staff were talking about some dilemma in their lives, and then the laugh would be of a sarcastic variety. Jerome and Brent were the only ones who didn’t interact. But here is where FC produced a visual miracle for me.

I had known Brent for fifteen years, but only worked directly with him these three previous years. All these guys were exceptionally good looking, but Brent had this curly sandy hair and sensitive blue eyes. He never responded to anything unless fearful and then he responded by running away. He would parrot a word if asked to, but he was mute otherwise. Before FC hit, I would sometimes talk heart to heart with him because I sensed that he was intelligent. I did that with all of them, but especially with Brent. I never got a hint of a response. During the last year of facilitation, Brent started smiling and laughing. This may not seem like much to someone who hasn’t experienced it, but to me it was a miracle. Before he couldn’t even maintain eye contact, now he’s looking me straight in the eyes with a big open smile and all of a sudden he’s a normal person who’s all there. He has a variety of intelligent and sarcastic smiles and laughs that are appropriate to what’s going on.

Last July I decided that I had to resign in order to cash in on my annuity. I had been working on call for a year after I left the dorm where I did this project. I wasn’t being called to work so I needed money. I had to quit to get the money. In Part I, I made a sarcastic remark to Brent about getting severence pay. On July 7, 1995, I went to the institution to resign. I was walking from my car thinking about that talk with Brent about the severence pay and feeling guilty that I was actually on my way to get it. With that thought in my mind, I turned the corner of the building and the first thing I see is Brent looking me straight in the face with a big smile.

Any interpretations I make of what they say in this document are not necessarily endorsed by them. They frequently upbraided me when I attempted that with other people while this was being produced. They have intentionally allowed room for a variety of interpretations. I recorded their words as accurately as I could. I have read the typed narrative numerous times, and though there may be typos in the notes, there are no typos in the narrative.

The formatting is unusual in Seal I. I tried to fix it unsuccessfully, but I’ve come to like it this way because it’s appropriately unusual and dramatic. Most of the punctuation in the narrative I did, except for exclamation and question marks.
I did this on the run. It’s a very difficult line of work and we were doing a class job. Most of the quotes took 5 to 10 minutes, longer ones took up to half an hour. They always were given the choice to talk. With all choices or verifications of what they were telling me, I had them spell out "yes" and "no" instead of the one stop ports that were on the letterboard marked and . Because of the absolute nature of those responses, there were misunderstandings on my part as to their truthfulness. I tried to be fair and rotate through the group, but that was difficult at times. I did make an effort at consistency by reviewing the last few comments before starting to FC with the next guy. There was also a practical problem with that and I did it less than half the time. I recorded all FC’s on forms made up especially for FC. For confidentiality, I’d fold them up after a session and put them in my back pocket. Running to get the FC board, unfolding the paper, putting it on a clipboard, and then searching for a pen, were all very time consuming. I stored each days FC’s in my car and reviewed them monthly. When I sat down to FC with them, I’d first ask if they wanted to talk. It wasn’t unusual for them to say no. If they responded affirmatively, I would then ask if they wanted to say something. If not, I would then try to think of something to talk about or ask a question that was on my mind when I initially came to them to talk. The consistency of the narrative was mostly their doing. If I was willing to learn they were willing to teach me one step at a time.

I mention some personal problems and difficulties I was having while doing this project, but they were inconsequential compared to the absolute joy and excitement their revelations and love gave me. If you listen very closely and give them the benefit of a doubt, you’ll feel it too.

All names, except mine, and some place names have been changed. The institution I worked for threatened to sue me if I published this. They knew people would be interested. Reputation and image are very important when your responsible for helpless people. My disregard for both shouldn’t be allowed to reflect on the excellent work they do.

My apologies for my clumsiness at writing. I’m a pretty good speller though. I didn’t use the spell check. Maybe someday someone will help me smooth it out.


SEAL I

ADRIAN STEIN - LETTER TO HIS MOTHER, JOY STEIN

Aug. ‘93 Adrian: Dear Joy,
I’m excited about coming home. Since our last meeting It has occurred to me that home is where the heart is. Joy is the sweetest otter in the world.

this is an imprimatur, the formal binding of a seal, cleverly disguised

an invocation, a ceremony – a prayer before breaking Earth with a tool

or striking Her with rod-of-mouth!

this “letter” is an “oratorial” opening to Qim Tunes and, as in the ancient world, an imprimatur or cylinder seal was a kind of “royal sanction” (and these artifacts are now modern windows into the past)

Adrian’s “letter home” suggests a Psalmist prelude, an“orchestral conduction,” as in Psalm 68’s opening:

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm. A song.

Adrian implies not only greetings to his personal mother, but to his “sweet joy” -- Earth, this world, “mother”

otters are closely related to seals, and thus “otter” puns the imprimatur

likewise, “otters” puns my slang for autistics (“otties”)

otters are also specific to water, which is the primordial feminine element, especially in the oceanic sense of Creation

rather than an invocation of puffery or power, Adrian opts for a blessing of joy and love to the whole planet

a gracious and good start!

Tom: What the heck do you mean by otter?
Adrian: She swims real well.

(through space/mindz)

Kurt von Meier, in his essay “A Ball of Twine: Marcel Duchamp’s ‘With Hidden Noise’” discusses the Book of Kells and Saint Cuthbert’s mystical relationship with sea otters:

The black sea otter appears at the bottom of the iota, just above where the regularly lettered text (what little of it there is on the page) continues: h is an abbreviation for autem, then generatio is spelled out in the beautiful manuscript hand. As one reads the text, it is virtually impossible to miss seeing the otter, situated as it is on the vertical line between the i and the h (incidentally, lower-case exemplars of the first two letters of the Tetragrammaton, the secret Holy Name, IHVH). The tails of both the otter and the salmon are thus crossed at right angles by the line that drops from the tail of the last letter in the monogram of Christ to the start of the regular text. Since Christ is symbolized by the fish (and the salmon is a particularly magical fish which mysteriously returns to its place of birth), the Saint is the otter, who has "caught" the Spirit of Christ, having divined the secret of rebirth, which is to say, the Mystery of the Resurrection, the essence of the Holy Ghost. This illustration is as explicit as we could hope or expect to see in alluding to the means employed by the saint (who himself insisted on its secrecy) to attain the state in which he received such grace.

Tom: Go on.
Adrian: Other than out in the wilderness, Joy is the otter that some might ...
Tom: Are you having a little trouble with this sentence?
Adrian:
Tom: You want some help?
Adrian:
Tom: How about finishing it with bother, it rhymes. Go on.
Adrian: You hear too that I’m doing new things not out in the world.
Tom: What do you mean by that?
Adrian: Not my omni self.
Tom: Are you talking in riddles because you’re a little nervous?
Adrian:
Tom: Now what’s this about your "omni self"?
Adrian: Im too nervous to finish.
Tom: Would you like to try tomorrow?
Adrian:
Note: This is the last facilitation I wrote down before I discovered and became convinced of their mind-reading abilities. From this point on, I begin to learn what he meant by "omni self".

late 9/93 or early 10/93

Adrian: You, Jed, be my sinuous jester. ( Jed is a nickname they gave me some months before. )

Adrian's amalgam of serpent, holy fool, and Djedi (“Jed”) traces at least to Sumer, Babylon, and Egypt, pointing towards developmental stages of egoic consciousness, collective ritual/religious expression, and spiritual/magical fraternity

the fertility ceremony called the “Raising of the Djed” is dated at least circa 3,000 B.C.E. to pre-Dynastic Egypt, and the Book of the Dead calls the Djed the “spine” of Osiris and the central pillar, or backbone, of the Universe

for example, the Djed Pillar of ancient Egyptian iconography and “mythology” represents for some the World Tree, and the planetary kundalini, or life force

iconic “shrines” or “working temples” like the Egyptian Djed, Hebraic Ark, ziggurats, pyramids, and other iconic/deific structures are found across both ancient and modern East and West

the overtly ritualistic/ incantatory structures of the modern West are not usually “religious temples,” but are occluded as large-scale modern structures or complexes, often spanning city blocks

[yes! some right in the middle of River City! LOL!]

Adrian’s comment linking [D]Jed and “sinuous jester” of course suggests the serpent, with it’s old and disputed role in the exoteric and esoteric traditions, East and West

one of the first and most persistent symbols of fertility, stability, renewal, and power was the Djed “pillar” or “conservatory” considered “indwelled” by a messianic soul in the form of a serpent, or nahash (NHSH)

in many cosmologies, the “stored and hidden deity” resides especially within stones or temples, functioning as a recurrent interface between the prophet and/or priest and the “god” or “goddess”

the Egyptian word for serpent is “djed-ft”

in “The Raising of the Djed,” Moira Timms remarks:

At a time when the planetary grid (Earth's geometrically arranged energy system web) was understood and, it is believed, consciously administrated by a global network of high initiate engineers, the Djed was a sacred instrument in the powerful technology of "cosmos regeneration" (a domain explored by the work of Reich and Tesla.) From the geodetic and astronomic perspective, the raised Djed is the fixed reference point which makes firm the bond between Earth and sky, evoking geophysical stability at a time of increased potential for Earth changes. And, as we approach the end of the prophecy sequence and the final 20 years of the current cycle, the Djed replaces the prospect of Earth changes and geophysical "pole shift" with that of "pole stability. . . The Raising of the Djed has been called the "mystery of mysteries." It appears to have been a physical ritual with psychospiritual and interdimensional implications. . .

the Djed and its Djedi priests (knights) seem less foreign to Western sensibility when we recall that the Hebrew tribes literally believed, and still believe, that the Ark was/is the living dwelling place of Yahweh, the guiding spirit of Israel

(“Jed-I” knights of course were popularized in “Star Wars”), and “Jedidejah” is an alternate name of King Solomon

these speculations perhaps seem farfetched, or merely delusional, but world mythology teems with conflict amongst the “gods” – it is the very stuff of life from which literature springs, as much an emblematic reality of Homeric-era consciousness, for example, as uber-plot behind the “mortal events” of The Iliad

often the divine battles are cosmogonic, eschatological, or both simultaneously

all “real wars” have spirituo-religious underpinnings and overtones, a sub-reality which ancient people generally understood, and modern people generally do not – thus the latter have good reason to ask themselves: who were – who are – these deities of ancient and aboriginal people? These persistent pantheons, seemingly so far from the modern sensibility? Are the “gods” merely insubstantial and illusory figments and projections, as rationalism and science assure?

Or do they reflect human character so vividly and accurately because they share – have always shared – a very physical aspect of intensely human character.

Once relations with god/the gods deteriorated to mere “belief,” the death of deity was a done deal.

But perhaps our belief is not required? perhaps the “gods” never died, never stopped “indwelling the species” -- only concealed themselves for a time behind myth or other guises

is there more – much more -- to the story of ancient gods?

there is always, it seems, more . . .

in 2001 or thereabouts, in my initial e-exchanges with Tom Smith, he inferred that the authors of Qim Tunes might be connected to the Hebrew prophets – an idea at which I scoffed, finding it somehow offensive -- maybe a flashbacklash to my Catholic boyhood

soon after, partly to disprove that the document and its authors could have a legitimate bond with the desert fathers, I read the Tunes

these four years later, I’m wondering not whether “they” were/are the prophets, but whether Tom’s hypothesis didn’t go far enough

Jerome: Very unhappy the roach extinguished. ( 1\96 He knows I’m determined to start writng all this down for public consumption. Some people think I should pull these personal referrences. I’m leaving them in for reasons of good faith and because my character, the good and the not so good, is an essential part of this story. )
Tom: Why are you hiding? ( I’m trying hard to change the subject )
Note: My main line of investigation in facilitating with them the year before. This was concerning the validation problem. The most consistent answer they gave was that they were hiding and didn’t want FC validated.

hiding with good reason, very possibly, and no doubt ambivalent about their “outing”

masculinity emerged from the chthonic unconsciousness of group-mind under matriarchal socio-organization patterned after the “lower” primates – i.e., controlled by the collective feminine, with a small tyrant or tyrant-group in, ah, titular command

Woman wasn’t the most powerful Deity, she was the only Deity . . .

(basically the model we still have!)

ego-identity formed as masculine opposition, antagonism, and complementarity to the primordial group-mind, which was indistinguishable from Nature

the breaking away of masculine identity from this Matrix, initially through spiritual or “shamanic” fraternities, was the “original sin” or wound inflicted by masculine spiritus on feminine materia, and was (and still is) interpreted by the collective feminine as betrayal (as indeed it was, a sort of “necessary alienation”)

the ur-antagonism and ur-attraction of cosmic duality – by which Creation was generated and is continued -- are contained, expressed, and potentially resolved through the genders of the human species

“genderwar” is not a novel phenomenon of modern cultures – it is the very foundation and dynamo of Creation, and of creativity, and can be traced in matriarchal and “patriarchal” expressions of gendered group power to the Paleolithic

the “bringers of civilization” throughout world mythology are almost invariably oriented towards paternity, masculinity, fraternity, and typically some variant of “solar monotheism”

the masculine, like consciousness itself, emerges over and against the feminine, as a distinct entity, organizing for survival and specialization into affinity groups out of the primal Mind

“mind reading” states, in which collective information is gathered, processed, and sometimes shared, is foundational to the species, and latent or partially realized in many individuals: sub-collective (and later individuated) egoic consciousness is a VERY recent addition, pioneered by the spiritual explorers and warriors

there were many “Men’s Movements” in human psycho-social development, each of them revolutionary, dangerous, and bloody expensive

[E]very change in the relation between the sexes is attended by bloody events

-- Myth, Religion and Mother Right, J.J. Bachofen

Kerry A. Shirts, in his online article “Melchizedek Priesthood of LDS and Dead Sea Scrolls Perspectives,” notes:

Melchizedek was also in charge of the eternal process of creation, who by the spark, ignited light into the worlds, hence an organizer of the worlds with the gods. God's assistants, "the faithful servants of Melchizedek", rescue and preserve light particles lest any be lost in space.

Many fraternities, until modern times, served as levees against re-absorption of emerging masculinity by the feminine (and thus, against regression of civilization to the chthonic swamp of the Goddess, i.e., chaos/unconsciousness/talion)

Shirts’ “preservation of lost light particles” is the Gnostic redemption of spirit hidden, or imprisoned, in matter -- referring (in part) to human self-consciousness “buried” within our primal animal natures

as Plato points out in “The Philosopher King,” the citizens of the “upper worlds” must not remain there, for they are needed below – likewise in Gnosticism, the lost, excluded, and fallen must not remain “below,” but must be “rescued” and re-gathered into their original state

perhaps this re-collectivization to our primal telepathic/empathic condition is being overseen by the “guardians” of masculinity, lest the benefits and lessons of egoic, individuated male consciousness be trampled in our rush back to the “bliss” of collectivity, the Great Boo-som.

after decades of feminist “scholarship” and in the wake of revisionist herstory by Gimbutas, Eisler and others, the popular mind – including neo-Gnostic, Thelemic, and other “fraternal” or magickal circles – often embraces a self-flattering “egalitarian, edenic, pre-patriarchal” preherstory which was matriarchal, matrilineal, or (per Gimbutas) “gylanic” – crushed, of course, by Those Brutes, The Evil Males of the Patriarchy (and, indeed, there is some truth to this)

Earth has never witnessed an actual widespread “patriarchy” – otherwise I don’t suppose Jesus would have run amok preaching the “Father’s Kingdom,” brotherhood, spiritual fellowship – he wasn’t touting Sisterhood Empowerment and the Mother Goddess, not in my translations anyway . . .

All major aboriginal and modern groups are essentially woman-centered, following the primate pattern

the fact that putative “men” typically “lead” these groups – as evidenced by American society – does not prove “patriarchy,” any more than does a baboon troop ruled by the collective feminine, under charge of its local tyrannos (who serves at pleasure of the females, and is subject to removal by them) prove that MonkeyKing is actually “in charge”

likewise, the presence of male “leaders” through dynastic Egypt does not invalidate the essential gynocentrism and idolatry of those cultures, especially prior to its “solar revolutions”

whether aboriginal or modern, human psycho-social organization is Goddess-centered, developing both out of our fundamental collective psychology and our bio-genetic procreative imperatives

in the modern West, despite the trappings of technology, the primate, Paleolithic and early Neolithic psycho-social condition is replicated – regression to the Matrix concomitant with “absentee” fatherhood, marginalized masculinity, spiritual void, and the brethren remnant deep underground and “in hiding”

The month previous to this I became a believer in their mind reading abilities. This is what Adrian had referred to earlier as the "main point". Parapsychologists call it "remote sensing". Though a month earlier was the first time I consciously believed they had this ability, I had experienced it the whole year before but attributed it to sensitive hearing or something else. I resisted the idea of mind reading just as I’m sure anyone who’s reading this now is resisting it. My first response to this discovery was not joy, but a sinking stomach. Here I was trying to find a way to convince people that they were talking and that they were as aware and intelligent as any of us. Now they are telling me that I have to somehow get people to accept that they have this special problem of mind reading. I knew the skeptics would have a picnic with that.

It was really hopeless. What happened was I switched gears. My curiosity kicked in. I said to myself, " The heck with what everyone else thinks, this is a great discovery and I want to know everything about it ". I also was committed to doing everything I could, whether I was employed or not, to help get FC more accepted. I liked these guys and had been talking to them a whole year.

I went to the library and took out a pile of books on telepathy. What I read convinced me that the human mind has this ability in spades. The Duke University study was the most convincing. They took a large group of respected psychics and one at a time had them ‘remote sense" from LA to a person in N.Y. The person in N.Y. would look at a picture or a scene outside while the LA psychic would reproduce that scene in LA. 15% to20 % of the time, the LA psychic would reproduce to the finest detail the scene the N.Y. person was looking at. Even if one psychic did it once, that would indicate beyond a reasonable doubt that the human mind has this capability. The same could be said for clairvoyance and mind control, though these phenomenon seem to be more elusive scientifically than remote sensing.

So I have this pile of books at home that I skim through trying to determine which one I should start with. I go to work and Nick out of the blue says I should read the little green one. There was only one green book. On the surface this book appeared to be one of those hoaxy positive thinking tomes about using telepathy to make money. It was called "Telecult Power". It was a great help in getting me an idea of what might be going on with these guys. The premise was that a group of believers in telepathy could get together as a group, concentrate to get in touch with the "Hidden Brotherhood" and request something that was agreed on beforehand. It was like group prayer, but not to God and not necessarily for selfless objectives. It was selfless in the sense that others banded together to help someone get something. But it wasn’t necessarily for someone to be healed or suffer less, as we normally think prayer is used for, but for someone to be enriched, which is considered kind of evil in normal religious activities. So this is where I got the idea that they as a group, combined with their other abilities, could posess power. Since 4 out of 5 Autistics are male, I started to think of these guys as the "Hidden Brotherhood". The thought occurred to me that they could therefore be God, but I was having enough trouble dealing with this idea of "Hidden Brotherhood" to deal with that. I began to see them more as a group of super psychics who may be able to enlighten us on what God was, the nature of psychic phenomenon and whether Aliens exist and if they do, what role they play with us.

How I came to believe in their mind reading is important. As I said earlier, I wasn’t very interested in that possibility when I first heard of it. Not only because I was clueless on the implications, but it was difficult enough trying to get people to believe they were talking . Those mean, wise guy skeptics would have a picnic with this mind reading angle. I didn’t ask them about it until the spring of ‘93 -ten months after I started Fcing. There was a prohibition against talking to the clients about it until Feb. ‘93. By the time the prohibition was lifted, I just forgot to ask them about it. But there were some unusual things happening in my Fcing. After talking in whispering tones to one guy, I’d go across the room to talk to another and he’d comment on what we had been talking about. This happened a number of times and even once between one guy in the building and another who I was talking to outside the building. There was a theory knocking about at the time that Autistics had unusually sensitive hearing, so I attributed it to that. But later on I decided to check this mind reading thing out. Brent said he read minds and consented to an experiment. I thought of something and he accureately Fced what it was. At one point, he spelled out "Jenny". There was only one Jenny in my life, and my story of Jenny was one of my earliest traumas. In the summer of ‘72, in the middle of my post grad bohemian excesses, I had an affair (non sexual) with her that ended in her screwing my best friend while I sat outside the bedroom. It was very sad and shameful. I forgave them because all of us at that time were experiencing some values confusion. But it was over between Jenny and I. A week later she went cross country to LA to take a teaching job. A week after that I got a call from a friend telling me that she was killed in a car accident in LA The next day I recieved a letter from her. She probably sent it the same day she had the accident. Anyway, Brent accureately described the whole story. I asked him how he could possibly know all that and he said, " I heard it in Shangrala". I was really miffed at this point, so I asked him what he meant by "Shangrala”.

maybe Brent was eavesdropping on the “chatter” of the primordial group-mind of humanity (Jung’s “collective unconscious”)

“Shangrala” suggests the eternal, Edenic condition, and also the “inner Earth” Shambhalla, the Buddhist Eden atop Mount Meru in “Mongolia” – Agartha, etc.

Wash away my troubles, wash away my pain, with the rain of Shambhalla
Wash away my sorrows, wash away my shame, with the rain of Shambhalla
How does your light shine in the halls of Shambhalla?!”

“Shambhalla” (Daniel Moore)

“Shangrala” combined with the “jacuzzi” reference below also suggest the “vortex of souls” -- the sub-lunary spiral of incarnation

“Shangri La” is also the original name of the American Presidential retreat in Maryland, so named upon establishment in 1941 by Eisenhower (re-named Camp David in 1953 by F.D.R.)

both F.D.R. and Camp David are reportedly connected with acquisition of certain “power relics” – including, supposedly, a “most precious casket” – and with “rebuilding” of the Third Temple (of Solomon, son of David, first king of Israel)

in official descriptions of Camp David, a phrase that repeatedly appears is that Camp residence allows the sitting U.S. President “to see the whole world very clearly”

that is a unique, and telling phrase, hinting that some artifact of Power from the ancient world -- perhaps a “stone” -- is kept at “Shangri-La” (Camp David, Jupiter Island?) for military, political, or propagandistic use (for “spiritual warfare,” in other words)

the Tibetan Shambhalla, analogous to the West’s Zion or Eden, is said to contain a line of divine kings who conserve the inner teachings of Buddhism against a future incursion of “barbarians”

the legend states that when the “barbarians” and their “religions” come to conquer Shambhallah itself, a Warrior King will arise to overthrow them and establish the new planetary age

He said, "The jacuzzi". This gave me a realistic explanation because there was a possibility that I told that story many years (twelve) before when I first worked at Seaton Hall. I may have told it in the jacuzzi to some staff while Brent was there. It was unlikely, but it was possible. But even if he knew it that way, he would have had to have an extaordinary memory. But now I know he heard it in Shangrala. Toward the end of the project, Brent made it clear that I was to include this anecdote. Besides what happened to Jenny, what happened to my best freind has significance to this story in Part III.

the sub-lunary gravitational spiral, the “prison of matter” through which incarnation occurs, is a kind of collective Mind -- also known as the astral plane or “angelic shield,” it’s often described “objectively” as a tunnel, gate, etc.

I experienced it often as a child, with strong sensations of spiraling downward “into myself” (in-carnation)

sometimes this was accompanied by clair-audience

following is a meditation on the Unum Mundum -- from “Secret Symbols of the Rosicrucians,” at crcsite.org/SecretSymb2.htm

note the “whirlpool of uncertainty” reference:

Man is always desirous to have the division of manifold things, and man is always battling, when he could return to the unity of simplicity, if he only would come in peace. Life's light stands in the middle to point out to men the way to this first rest, and the Father in the heaven lets his Sun rise over good and evil: But everything grows after its own fashion, and man is only too apt to look upon the stars of the manyfoldness, and in his own discretion, to choose them for his ladders, though they make him stray many times from the true light, and detain him in the whirlpool of uncertainty. This whirlpool of uncertainty leads more and more out of the innermost face of the Sun into the outer (world) and can find neither end nor place of rest, unless it leads from the outer (world) back again and seeks the beginning, from which all the smaller star-lights originated.

the “star-lights” infer an aspect of the host as Gnostic scintillae, in this context demonic and evocative of sorcery and the “Powers of the Air” (“ladders” and “make him stray”) – suggestive also of the Sumerian Igiggi, probably equivalent to the “fallen host” or Grigori described as being mute and imprisoned in the subterranean “Fifth Heaven”:

The men took me on to the fifth heaven and placed me, and there I saw many and countless soldiers, called Grigori, of human appearance, and their size was greater than that of great giants and their faces withered, and the silence of their mouths perpetual, and their was no service on the fifth heaven, and I said to the men who were with me:

Wherefore are these very withered and their faces melancholy, and their mouths silent, and wherefore is there no service on this heaven?

And they said to me: These are the Grigori, who with their prince Satanail rejected the Lord of light, and after them are those who are held in great darkness on the second heaven, and three of them went down on to earth from the Lord's throne, to the place Ermon, and broke through their vows on the shoulder of the hill Ermon (Mt. Hermon, Harmon) and saw the daughters of men how good they are, and took to themselves wives, and befouled the earth with their deeds, who in all times of their age made lawlessness and mixing, and giants are born and marvellous big men and great enmity.

And therefore God judged them with great judgment, and they weep for their brethren and they will be punished on the Lord's great day.

And I said to the Grigori: I saw your brethren and their works, and their great torments, and I prayed for them, but the Lord has condemned them to be under earth till the existing heaven and earth shall end for ever.

the “sun” mentioned in the Unum Mundum quote may be the galactic central sun

After that I went to Nick and Jerome and asked them if they read minds. They both said they didn’t and that Brian was full of it. One said that it also "hurts the cause". That is, getting people to believe they were talking through FC.
Some more months passed and something happened Fcing with Brent that peeked my interest again. This was at the end of August ‘93. I went to Nick and Jerome and asked them again if they read minds. This time they said they did. When I asked them why they misled me, they said I was too skeptical to hear it. Nick put it this way, "There’s too many Smithists in the world", meaning there’s too many skeptics like myself. Because Brent was consistent with me and other facilitators about this mind reading ability, his comments about their abilities, especially the comments he made without me fishing around, were taken very seriously. So in a very real way, he was the "Centinel" to me. As time went on these "out of the blue" comments about their abilities or anything else were taken the most seriously by me. I felt that I exerted no influence over those kinds of comments.

At this point I ran another experiment. I said that I would send them a message over the weekend and come back Monday and see if they got it. That weekend during one of my evening beach reveries, I thought of Jim Morrisons tune "Spy in the House of Love" and decided that was an appropriate line to send. I came back that Monday, blanked my mind as best I could, and asked them what the message was. Each one hit the letters directly, spelling "Spy in the House of Love". That week the implications were popping in my mind and I was running from guy to guy trying get a bead on it before my vacation started at the end of the week.

I’ll never forget how excited I was on my drive to the Sierras for that backpacking trip. It was like discovering that the world wasn’t flat, but round. It was a great trip except a bear ripped off my backpack one night. I ran around the campsite naked with a knife in one hand and a flashlight in the other trying to find the bear. Instead, I found her cub, chased it up a tree and held it hostage until I came to my senses. I let it go after twenty minutes figuring that my backpack wasn’t worth getting mauled by a bear over. A week later I recieved a call from the rangers saying that they found my ripped up backpack. Apparently my name and address were inside. They said they had to give me a ticket because there’s a law requiring you to secure your backpack from the bears. It’s true, I actually got a ticket in the wilderness. No wonder Rush Limbaugh is popular.

it’d make an indelible film scene -- Power came to you and ripped away your past, whilst you frothed in vengeance . . .

and amidst your rage and confusion, ninety miles from Nowhere, the Authorities found cause to cite you!

whatta country!

key stone cops!

The following month, September ‘93, I ran around the dorm trying to get a handle on what it meant. They told me that their mind reading ability was the key to understanding them. They become aware at three or four years old that this differentiates them from us. There’s a kind of club that exists that they are aware of through childhood, but don’t become a part of until they leave home as adults to go into an institution or group home.

That’s where I was when I started writing all my FC’s down. The idea of them being God was in the back of my head and they kept it there until late in Part II. In Part I they were accomodating my reluctance to face that issue by allowing me to believe that God was the "Aliens"or a theme they developed called "Tin Man". It was interesting how they did that. There was very little deception, just enough to get me off track. ( 4/96 I should also add that I knew very little about God. It wasn’t until recent months that I have leaned alittle by reading theology.)

Telepathy wasn’t the only ability they said they had. They said they had mind control abilities and demonstrated them to me in late September ‘93. They said that they could relax or excite a person. So we set it up that the next day when I came to work, they would show me their ability to relax me. For two hours before work and two hours after the start of work, I was unusually tired. I had been working for an hour when I sat next to one of them to FC, and I said, "Weren’t we supposed to do something today?" And then I remembered the experiment. Instead of relaxed I felt tired. The next day they demonstrated their ability to "excite". It lasted for a few hours and it felt more like anxiety than excitement to me.

I then started thinking they were the "spirits" being channeled. They said they were. If their mind control abilities extended to talking through people, then maybe they are the voices schizophrenics hear. They said they were and said for the most part the voices help those people. I didn’t ask them this because I didn’t think of it till later when I knew the answer anyway, but how about the voices of the prophets?

For he is mighty in all the secrets of righteousness, And unrighteousness shall disappear as a shadow, And have no continuance; Because the Elect One standeth before the Lord of Spirits, And his glory is for ever and ever, And his might unto all generations.

And in him dwells the spirit of wisdom, And the spirit which gives insight, And the spirit of understanding and of might, And the spirit of those who have fallen asleep in righteousness.

And he shall judge the secret things, And none shall be able to utter a lying word before him; For he is the Elect One before the Lord of Spirits according to His good pleasure . . .

And in those days shall the earth also give back that which has been entrusted to it, and Sheol also shall give back that which it has received, and hell shall give back that which it owes.

And in those days shall the mountains leap like rams, And the hills also shall skip like lambs satisfied with milk, And the faces of [all] the angels in heaven shall be lighted up with joy.

And the earth shall rejoice, And the righteous shall dwell upon it, And the elect shall walk thereon.

Book of Enoch, Ch. 49, 51

They said that they could communicate with eachother, even over long distances ( I believe that they have been on the Internet for thousands of years ). They said that they were organized and had specialties. Wisdom was the main determinent of where they were in the hierarchy. They refused to say anything else about how they were organized. It was the only area that they clearly stated was off limits.

The true method of knowledge is experiment, the true faculty of knowing must be the faculty which experiences

William Blake

Sophia, or Wisdom, comes from life in the body, experience in the material worlds – that is, interaction with feminine/matter

due to sensory and motile limitations, it is perhaps this visceral aspect of wisdom with which otties struggle

in the Soncino Zohar, Rabbi Simeon notes:

I perceive that Wisdom (‘Hokmah) is the totality of all the holy Sefiroth, and that supernal Grace (Hesed) emanates from Wisdom

the Zohar’s cosmographic Tree of Life shows Chokmah, or Wisdom, as only one step “below” the intangible, undefinable Kether (“Crown”); thus, in the “definable spheres” of the Tree of Life, Wisdom stands next to the Godhead

Chokmah is the highest “discernable” aspect of the Godhead in these kabbalistic systems

since the Sephirotic Tree of Judaic mystical thought is inverted -- having its roots in Heaven and its leaves and fruit upon Earth -- for the Boys to be “lacking in Wisdom” might indicate a Sephirotic self-assessment

“attainment of Wisdom” is the penultimate stage in the Sephirotic spiritual schema, much of which is recorded in the Zohar

It was necessary for the evolution of humanity that the sons of gods should unite with the daughters of men, with the souls which were fettered to the earth, in order that, as son of man, the human being should learn to master the physical plane. But it is necessary for the human being of the future that, as the son of man, he shall find pleasure in the daughters of the gods, in the divine-spiritual light of wisdom with which he must unite himself in order to rise once again into the realm of the gods.

Rudolf Steiner, “The Michael Impulse,” lecture VII

There’s a mechanism in many species, maybe all, that unifies them. A flock of birds in synchronicity flying south. How do they know when and where to go? Bees and ants have there workers and Queens. The Queens direct the workers but we don’t know how. Four out of five Autistics are males, they may not like me calling them Queens, but maybe they function that way to our species. I’ve often wondered how the female Autistics function in this scheme.

"The first shall be last and the last shall be first" Jesus said of the coming Kingdom of God. These guys are most definitely at the end of the line.

Now back to the narrative.

Tom: Why are you hiding?
Adrian: Unusual outing wont help us, Hegel will.

the first of many references to “Hegel” in the Tunes

“philosopher” in the ancient, Platonic sense carries a comprehensive meaning, more akin to “mage” than to the modern usage of “logician” or “intellectual”

the Hegelian assertion that “God” is embodied in, and evolves through, centralized Government serves transgenerational, self-appointed “elites” practicing goofy, but dangerous, Darwinian-Hegelianism -- such as Yale’s Skull–and-Bones Society, combining eugenics, necrotics, and neo-Malthusianism, a predatory Might Makes Right anti-ethos

in modern practice, Hegelian Dialectics involves centralization of power through manipulation of “managed conflict” -- a technique rooted in exploitation of the primal elements of Creation, the opposites, and in mass-trauma and mass-conditioning techniques

the corrupting power of the Dialectic of course wasn’t limited to the Reich, but is well-represented in the managed gender-conflict of the post-war West, especially in the dualistic ideo-politics of right/left, Republican-Democrat

the result is a carefully controlled stasis, a hypno-paralysis, an Endless Conflict of runaway (but profitable!) Manicheism

above all, Hegelian doctrine demands the “divine right of the State” over kingship (and especially over divine/spiritual kingship)

Jesus warns against the Dialectic in Matthew 16:6: “Take heed and beware of the leaven of the Pharisees and of the Sadducees.”

Note: I got a D in existentialism in college, but I know enough to appreciate this statement.( Note 1\96. I’ve been reading alittle about Existentialism lately and I knew hardly anything about it as I was doing this. I knew that existentialism was considered an idealistic philosophy which meant to me that reality was not necessarily what it appears to be through our senses. ) They know I’m a fan of existentialism.

Tom: Jerome, why are you hiding?
Jerome: Yearn to be free. Senses teach you little, time teaches us scores of tunes. ( Tunes are mind reading perceptions)
Tom: Anything else?
Jerome: Im touched to know you. (Remember, I’m holding his hand here as he spells each letter.)
Tom: Geoff, why are you hiding?
Geoff: JoJo (Geoff) dont Hegel. Jones on Neitzche. Jed into Heidegger. Jeds bed is in Monets time. No one slept on neat bunk bed like yours, but cedar beds.
Note: I was housed in a rented room at this time with my kids bunk bed set up for their visits. I slept in it when they weren’t visiting. He’s addressing my sadness over my humble situation.
Tom: Again Geoff, why are you hiding?
Geoff: Jed , I can’t run with that.

10/4/93

After reading Francuch this weekend.
Note: Francuch was a local medium who channeled a spirit called The Most High and wrote books on Spiritual Hypnosis which he created. I also read one of the Seth books which was a spirit channeled by Jane Roberts from the 60’s to the present. When I first started reading the Seth book it sounded like my boys, so I asked them if they could be the so-called spirits that were being channeled. They said yes.

Tom: Where’s Seth?
Nick: He’s in Edmonton.
Tom: Where’s Seth?
Geoff: He’s somewhere in south Boston in an institution.
Nick: Want to talk (Verbally). U Jed, question our beliefs. Stoners Sun Tunes (me) not join with our nonsense.
Nick: You ought not write. You should do a novel so that we can stay tuned to other suns in your world.

hinting that Earth contains other spiritual entities in bodily form -- “suns” recalls “sons,” inferring “lords,” referenced often in the Tunes -- gnostically, the scintilla or lumen natura -- the “light in nature,” leading edge of planetary consciousness

there’s also this, from the Book of the Secrets of Enoch:

Then the elements of the sun, called Phoenixes and Chalkydri break into song, therefore every bird flutters with its wings, rejoicing at the giver of light, and they broke into song at the command of the Lord. (15, 1)

and this:

In the midst of the heavens I saw armed soldiers, serving the Lord, with tympana and organs, with incessant voice, with sweet voice, with sweet and incessant voice and various singing, which it is impossible to describe, and which astonishes every mind, so wonderful and marvellous is the singing of those angels, and I was delighted listening to it. (17, 1)

Nick: Mike (another autistic in the dorm who doesn’t facilitate) is the most intuitional eode in the entire world.
Tom: Can you tell me what eode is?
Nick: You’re not gonna know until you develop your soul tuning by telepathy.

my guesses: “electromagnetic node” or “energy node” a G/eode dynamo

Oct. 6, 1993

Tom: What was the name used of the guy who wrote Francuch’s book?
Brent: Most High.
Tom: Where’s Francuch now?
Brent: Somewhere in juice country in a house in a rural area. ( By "juice" country, I assume he means some grape producing area in California.)
Tom: This issue of adultery in his book. I can understand this concept ideally but its difficult in the real world.
Brent:You can hesitate on this.

Tom: But for us we either live in the world as regular folk or out of it as monks. We can’t do both.
Brent: We can only muse about the life of the senses.
Tom: But in your book (I have a feeling that Brent is the "Most High") you tell us we have to go where you are, a life of the spirit.
Brent: Remember Rome wasnt built in a day. You, too, need a life of the spirit. You need but one idiot to bring you a life of the spirit ( For a long time I thought by "idiot" he meant someone like Jesus or Mohammed, now I’m of the mind that he meant them - an autistic). We let you weld tunes resisting us, it would be better to weld tunes in our favor.

this passage touches on the concept running through the Western esoteric tradition of the “holy fool” as savior, and recall Adrian’s ealier quote:

You, Jed, be my sinuous jester

modern Western cultures scapegoat and exclude the sacred fool -- especially in America, land of market forces, Cartesian rationalism, common cents, and the Shearing of the Scapegoat

but the sacred fool is a well-known figure in the East, and amongst aboriginal folks (e.g., the Heyoka “sub-tribe”) he is well-integrated socially and spiritually, and even beloved

he’s also prominent in the Arthurian “legends” -- Parsifal, knight of the Grail, was a holy fool

Note: At this point Im just becoming aware of how completely they hear me even away from work. He’s speaking here of my times of disbelief and skepticism. I’m also nervous about my financial situation.
By the end of the month I’ll be homeless again and sleeping under the trees at Ellwood Mesa.
Tom: We let you sounds heavy-handed and autocratic.
Brent: We’re winning you by teaming together and remaining anonymous. And hear us mention a given to you, sin the way you do care, not the way you really care. We are doing this for you to help our cause. Such mention of this is essential to be reassured by me
10/7/93
Brent: We’re entitling you to be in charge. Go get ‘em.
Nick: You are what you are because you, Smith, are not so smart. Its your diligence .

Tom: Seth’s probabilities or talk to Brent about it. ( this business about Seth’s probabilities is about predicting the future )
Nick: Your question just does you justice as do our manipulations.
Nick: You such on visual runs menu eugenics.
Nick: You more tuned to understanding unusual phenomenon than usual phenomenon.
10/15
Tom: Condition genetic?
Nick: Out on nervous tuds our unusual condition.
Tom: How about the unfortunate progression of my career vis a vis you guys.
Nick: You have been aiding us under our nonsense.
(Nick said he wanted to go out in my car instead of van. I asked his motivation.)
Nick: Unused to caring about others. Just stupid not trying.
Tom: Where do you want to go?
Nick: Someplace where my tunes wont stop.
Tom: What kind of place is that?
Nick: Mostly where sin isn’t.
Jerome: We are essentially retarded to you, Jed. Set your understanding toward us so that we can renaisance together.
Tom: Are you saying that I’m missing the boat here tonight? My attitude toward Nick? ( this is the first example of my paranoia surfacing. They handle it well.)
Jerome: We aren’t such fools.

the pairing of “Jed” and “Set,” especially in conjunction with the “boat” idiom, suggests the primal conflict (and fundamental human drama) between Horus-Osiris and Set in Egyptian “mythology”

very briefly: Set murders his brother Osiris, then dismembers and scatters Osiris’ body along the Nile (the Milky Way)

Osiris is eventually entombed in a “djed tree,” and by way of the Egyptian ritual, the “Raising of the Djed,” the goddess Isis (Great Mother) re-members and revivifies Osiris

“Jed” is a major theme and “character” herin, and Qim Tunes (amongst other things) is a Djed-like touchstone: a functional, transtemporal (s)tone of re-membering

dating at least to Predynastic Egypt, the “Raising of the Djed” was a fertility rite meant to simultaneously reanimate and “recertify” Osiris as King of Egypt (Earth) and Ra as King of Heaven (Cosmos)

some consider the Djed Pillar the “backbone” of Osiris, a conduit and transducer of energy that supports the “celestial sphere” and re-integrates the opposites – including the ur-duality of gender

Author Moira Timms, in her online piece “The Raising of the Djed," evokes both the Cosmic Knighthood of Star Wars and the “low-functioning” autistics when she notes:

The Raising of the Djed has been called the "mystery of mysteries. . . . The "Djedi" were the "stable ones"-- wisdom keepers of one mind and one spirit who, as initiates of the Osirian mysteries, comprised the living, terrestrial body of the archetypal, celestial Osiris. Contemporary Djedi are self-selecting regenerators of cosmos. They are those who, regardless of race or creed, are awakening to mission in service to the planet and the epochal imperatives of stability, continuity and regeneration . . .

It is the world soul and the force of history that now calls for, and causes, the Djed to be raised. Like the flag with its emblem raised aloft in the thick of battle to rally the flagging energies of the army, the Djed is a beacon raised in the battle for the soul of the planet. (Horus and Set are at it again . . .) And, like the warrior heroes who have throughout history stood tall as champions of the many during times of great danger and crisis, the Djedi come forth that the Djed may be raised.

The Djedi sense, and know Osiris's arising as their own. As Osiris awakens from the sleep of the aeon, the Djedi also "rise to the occasion," moving into resonant relationship as the reconstellated members of the collective Osiris.

the ceremony, though thoroughly pagan, is conserved in many Western and Eastern traditions, including Roman Catholic processionals and Shinto rites

for instance, the isolated and esoteric culture of the Tarahumara (Raramuri) in northern Mexico centers on corn-ritual and the World Axis of the ceiba tree

Nold Egenter illustrates through Architectural Anthropology (also called Semantic Architecture) that very similar traditions existed throughout the East, conserved especially in the fire-festivals of Japan’s “Shinto cults”

(see, e.g., http://home.worldcom.ch/negenter/450AA_MexE_01.html ) (On Architectural Anthropology)

Egenter concludes:

It seems quite plausible that Maypoles [the Pillar/Tower construction] are traditional survivals of neolithic times and structurally close relatives to ancient symbols like Assyrian life-trees, or the tree of cognition in Paradise. [brackets added]

Tom: Do you know about the experiment last night?
Jerome: With having you as medium?
Tom: Yes. You have anything to say about it?
Jerome: (nonsense)
Tom: If you aren’t such fools, do you want to explain Nick’s behavior to me?
Jerome: We specialize.
Tom: What’s Nick’s specialty?
Jerome: Earns us energy release. (Nick’s behavior has been hell on wheels since he was six years old.)
Tom: So is this a mental thing?
Jerome: ?
Tom: You don’t understand the question?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: What about this sin business?
Adrian: Under our joint interest, sin is difficult to tolerate.
Tom: What do you mean by joint interest?
Adrian: I’m not into it myself, but others have joined spiritual ...
Tom: Jerome have you joined the "spiritual"?
Jerome: Spiritual what?
Tom: Anything else Adrian?
Adrian: No.
Tom: Jerome said you earn "energy release".
Nick: "Want to talk"
Tom: Okay.
Nick: I’m not my own person. Ronny is...
Tom: Who’s Ronny?
Nick: Mecham (our dorm supervisor).
Tom: Go on.
Nick: Ronny is the idiot whose Tunes JoJo (Geof) receives. You should know, Jed ,that he thinks you’re a jerk.
Tom: More on "own person" thing.
Nick: Our egalitarian system unites us being our beginning or our end. Our Jed entones the end.
Tom: "Own person"?

Nick: I.E. No one reunites with his Jed type of ego, meaning that were stuck with either us or past eminences.

“unites us being our beginning or our end” brings to mind the uroboric dragon, the self-swallowing snake of alchemy, and of course Alpha/Omega

“Jed entones the end” sounds apocalyptic, with “entones” suggesting that the eschatology is connected to “hearing” -- later in the Tunes, the Boys tie “tones” to the upper world and “tunes” to the lower world

as even the tin-eared say: “The devil knows all the best tunes”

clearly some “ high civilizations” of the ancients understood sonic power, typically employing sound with caves or rock chambers, forming a (s)tone, containing both a “hardware element” (the physical dimensions of the Ark of the Covenant, Tet Pillar, World Tree, Maypole etc.) and a “software element” (the interacting being, often using the spoken/sung Word or “green language”)

“no one reunites with his Jed type of ego” might imply that, at least to this point in human development, the egoic personality and the fully individuated, completed “Self” are irreconcilable -- and thus the individual “own person” or ego must choose between participation in the Boys’ type of shared consciousness, or adopt an archetypal/ancestral persona (which, by definition, is also shared -- larger than the individual -- which most folks probably experience only through psychosis)

a rationalistic age and culture, of course, considers “eminences” or “archetypes” (if they consider them at all) to be imaginary entities, or at best, projected psychological imagery)

but as Jung emphasized over and over, archetypes are living, trans-temporal, trans-spatial forces, empowered beyond the individual

from the objective standpoint of the shaman-autistic, perhaps it is our individual, egoic “selves” which -- when measured against an archetype or Platonic Idea– are the illusion, the wisp, the shadow

and finally, here’s Paul McCartney’s prophetic instruction in “Let ‘Em In,” a tune that opens with a strange series of bell-tones:

Someone’s knockin’ at the door, somebody’s ringin’ the bell
Someone’s knockin’ at the door, someebody’s ringin’ the bell
Do me a favor, open the door, let ‘em in
Sister Susie, brother John, Martin Luther, Phil and Don [Everly]
Brother Michael, Auntie Gin
Open the Door, let ‘em in!

Tom: Rate these categories in importance to your and my behavior:
Nick’s Behavior Tom’s Behavior
1. Past eminence 1.Experience
2. Experience 2.Neurological

3.You guys (us) 3.You guys
4.Neurological 4.Past eminence

Tom: last night? ( I’m asking him here to respond to my attempts at channeling them )
Brent: You meditate well. You have strong attenuating vibrations.
Tom: Brent, same question. (Behavior rating above)
Brent 1.Experience 2.Past eminence 3.Neurological 4.You guys
Tom 1.Past Eminence 2. You Guys 3. Neurological 4.Experience
Brent said that ratings would be same for all his group but different amongst individuals in our group.
(Nick at this ... time went off)
( The break in the middle of that sentence was a result of me having to jump up to help Nick calm down from a major tantrum )

10/16

Adrian: Understanding not my thing, Tunes are.
Adrian: Tunes to store you up here not elsewhere.
(Before Adrians last statement I was upset by Mechams shakeup and thinking of quitting and working w/autistics elsewhere).
Tom: Ronny business.
Geoff: You idiot in Jeds mind to Ronny. ( I’m still trying to figure this out )

possibly another play on words – “Jed” may stand for a “higher,” unpotentiated Self,” with “idiot” suggesting also a “potent fool” aspect (well-expressed both in Egyptian cosmology and in one of its offshoots, Druidism)

Ronny thinks you’re a “common” idiot

but you’re actually an “uncommon” idiot, like the “retards” – authentic masculine novelties, as designed

Ronny, perhaps, is thus the “common” idiot (the unholy fool)

Tom: Are you saying Ronny thinks Im an idiot?
Geoff:
Alex’s Bar ( Alex’s is a local college bar. One of our favorite activities was going there for happy hour. It was quiet, comfortable and cheap. We sipped cokes and ate free tacos. I enjoyed facilitating with them on this and other outings.)
Tom: Can you see the world through our eyes?
Geoff: Only daffy ones. Can see a little but not a lot.
Tom: Jerome, why do you like that clay so much (Jerome was stimming on a hunk of clay)?
Jerome: Maps made early in millennium were made from clay.

most hold that writing began with pictographic cuneiform in Sumer -- though recent archaeological evidence indicates the first “alphabet” actually may have originated in Egypt or the Indus Valley

[About the Seth book, Brent said its focus was narrow. When asked if there was a better book, he said there was but refused to tell me what it was, saying that I need to find it for myself. He said he wanted to give me something for Perry(an old friend who lives in LA), saying that I should mention the time his sister took him to a bar in Buffalo that he and I went to years ago. I did later and he didn’t know what the hell I was talking about]

Nick: Our secrets run joint Tunes with remembrances of past lives. Tunes get stronger in justifying thoughts emanating from individuals we know.

10/19/93
Nick said they were in touch with a kin of mine. I asked who. He spelled Sharon. She was a cousin alittle youger than I was and I loved her very much. I asked if she could hear me. He said she could. She died last week.

Geoff: Our will to enough get nonsense of understandings, Jed,about life, not dependent on you but how others are ready. ( I’m feeling the weight of the world on me )

roughly: you’re not holding up the Show

they’re “waiting for everyman,” as Jackson Browne would tune it

heaven’s a group project . . . ain’t it a Bitch?

:O)

Tom: How do you do your work while doing all this other stuff?
(Note: being a spirit).
Brent:You conentrate on things while doing other things. We just concentrate better.
Nick: Our psychology is entirely different. We live in a world of lots of individuals who dictate to us. Under that situation unusual judgments are made, not always heading in the sensitive direction. You can do things more consistently. You sense what its like being jerks like us, not knowing what deities are in doing Jeds meddlesome work.
Understanding our nonsense, not most important son, your individual interest. Tunes shit around here.

Tom: You’re not too happy. What do you want?
Geoff: Munsters my kind of retinue. Under no condition in Jeds mind is centinel number one staff. ( Here we go again with Jed’s mind. I’ll get it someday )

“Jeds mind” suggests collective awareness, possibly mediated or activated by the “Djed” process

“Jeds mind” may refer to the Self in potentia, and/or to a particular group of “Djedi knights,” realized or brought to “mecca” under shared conditions (e.g., see “kin Vroman” quote below)

“Munsters my kind of retinue” implies the outcast, the unintegrated, the fallen, the Judaic goat in the desert, “stoned” beneath Dud-a-el -- the Shadow

Geoff: Just cant please each staff. Staff is genuinely not Geoff’s kind.
Brent: Kin Vroman
( I had a feeling that he was mad at me when he said "Kin Vroman". Maybe not. I am part German )
this is the first of several “Vroman” mentions in the Tunes, and identifies the kind of “Munsters” in Geof’s “retinue”

I have a “feeling” he’s mad at you, too

“V” is, of course, the Roman numeral for “five” – the number of Boys authoring this document

the Roman numeral “V” is associated with the Hierophant of tarot, especially as revelator of mysteries, and also corresponds to the Hebrew tetragrammatic letter “vau,” and thus to the hook, tent-post, or nail – and by extension, the crucifixion/blood sacrifice (the Nail being a central sign and “grip” in both Masonic and L.D.S. ritual, b.t.w.)

the Greek kleis (key), the Latin clavis (nail), and the Portuguese clavo (nail or pink carnation) are likewise related to the Hierophantic “V”

“Roman” is also connected to one of my family names

my affinity is mostly with “Geof” -- I think in this quote, Geof is addressing such individual preferences

Brent then fills in the blank with the type of “munster” that Geof prefers, i.e., “kin Vroman”

to extend the personalistic thread, then: rising 600 feet above the Schoharie Valley, near Tom Smith’s boyhood stomping grounds, is an anomalous stone protuberance called Onistagrawa (Corn Mountain) by the Mohawk

in the early 18th Century, the incoming Palatines re-named it “Vroman's Nose,” and later residents re-cleared a stone “dance floor” situated on one edge of the mountain-top …

(photo available at http://www.championtrees.org/oldgrowth/surveys/VromansNose20608.htm )

It should be noted that “Vroman” is a Germanic surname in its own right, though uncommon in this country – the word also suggests “vril,” the mysterious core-energy of the planet, and “vreki,” the Boys’ term for female autistics

elsewhere in the Tunes, Adrian explains the Boys’ relationship to the “kin”:

Tell units, Kin are our helpers . . .

In The Vessel of God, Boyd Rice notes:

The story of Eden is a highly symbolic account, containing elements of both truth and fiction. Those aspects that reflect the most historical accuracy are the various names involved, which can be shown to relate to very real figures in the Sumerian king lists. “King Ia” is Adam, his son “Kin” is Cain, the third king “Enu” is Enoch, and so on.

finally, related to the Kin/Cain theme -- in The Stairway to Heaven, Zecharia Sitchin discloses:

The tribe into which Moses married when he escaped from Egypt into the Sinai was that of the Qenites. Their name literally meant "smiths, metallurgists. R.J. Forbes (The Evolution of the Smith) pointed out that the biblical term Qain ("smith") stemmed from the Sumerian KIN ("fashioner")

Nick:You rot in hell, most eminent stupid staff.
Nick:(to staff Phil) You should take your own advice.( To me) Out in the world you sense unnecessary things that most would not. Tunes on outings that no one vetoes you hear in your mind. You, Jed, have ESP. ( I often take these guys out in the van and think out loud about where they might want to go. He’s saying they have more influence over the decision than I’m consciously aware of )
After Frontline Documentary on Facilitation aired on PBS
( Frontline is the most popular documentary program on TV. They did a full hour on FC. This program was a major blow to us believers in FC. The coming year all the major TV news magazine programs would parrot what Frontline did when they did stories on FC. I knew it was going to make my job even more difficult than it already was. This day at work I was crestfallen as I went about my duties. I didn’t ask any of the guys to comment on the documentary, but waited to see if one would comment on it. At the end of work, this is what Brent said about it. They knew that I believed they were responsible for this. )
Brent: You question under reality that is yours. We question under reality that is ours.

10/20/93

About medium thing
Adrian: Not stupid Jed tunes us in, but gut tunes.
Brent: You enter hearing Nick you get wet. (I had a rare accident in my sleep last nite after meditating)
Tom: What chance have I of pulling this off (getting people to believe this)?
Brent: 70 or 80 percent
Brent: Stay calm and average, taking tunes from us. We believe in you.
Brent: You right about Nick, we tuned you in with Mary.( I had been talking to the nurse Mary in the back yard about Nick possibly being in pain)

10/21/93

Jerome said they could influence physical.
Tom: Can you affect my ear?
Brent:
Tom: Did you hurt my ear?
Brent:
Tom: Why?
Brent: Questioned our will to matter in the world. [I recently did that, though my ear is better now than it was a few days ago. He may have been just trying to make a point. Note 3/96 Last year gave me some reasons to take this possibility more seriously]
Adrian: Tunes unstable in outside, you to wait lining southern tunes up with your friend. ( I was planning to go to LA to see my friend, Perry, to discuss what I had discovered. )
Tom: Are you saying he’s skeptical?
Adrian: Yes.
Note: At this point Geoff said I would soon be getting money in the mail. I didn’t expect it so I didn’t check my mail box until a few weeks later. Sure enough, there was a check from my insurance company for a Prop. 103 refund. It would have saved me from my looming homelessness.
Brent: You, Jed, bring conditioned by society and make such much out of being independent. We are conditioned by our ego remembering what we had been.
Tom: You have an ego?
Brent:
Tom: Its weaker than ours?
Brent:
Tom: But enough to have a center.
Brent: You need a center, we dont.
Tom: That’s why its hard for you to do a series of tasks?
Brent:
Tom: Why?
Brent: You can learn to manipulate in a lot of wussy ways.
Tom: Re physical environ?
Brent:
Tom: You can manipulate thoughts much better than us?
Brent:
Brent: Your early development not remembered because of doing so many manipulations.

phylogenetic and ontogenetic

ontogyny in humans is nothing short of miraculous, though taken mostly for granted now -- developing fine and gross motor coordination and speech, for example, demands great concentration, and tends to occlude the “residue of Heaven”

Tom: If I were born without being able to manipulate physical things, I would remember?
Brent:
Tom: (Presented theory of their condition being post-ego origins 50,000 yrs ago)
Brent:
Tom: This theory flawed?
Brent:

10/22/93

here follows a crucial passage

the “Tin Man theme” emerges after your discussion yesterday (10/21/93) with Brent concerning autism and the genesis of the individuated “egoic center” in human beings

Nick said Geoff could help me.
Brent: Talk more to Geoff. Tunes into sun who likes him.
Tom: Is the sun a metaphor for something?
Brent: For tin man. ( This is the beginning of the Tin Man theme. For three or four months I fluctuate between thinking that Tin Man or Men are aliens or powerful autistics. They are us.)

No, he tells you below that it’s an individual man – although later in the Tunes, they refer to multiple “tin men,” and also to “tow tin men,” a class of helpers

Tom: Whos tin man?
Brent: Sin yelling man who is most powerful. ( Autistics have very sensitive hearing in certain frequency areas. It’s very painful for them. Our voices hit those frequencies)
Tom: Autistic?
Brent: ( This is what threw me off track. In Brent’s defense, he said at one point that "we are all alittle autistic". This is one of the problems with the yes and no responses )
Adrian: Somebody who tunes into us. Some think he’s The Most High.
Tom: Do you?
Adrian:
Tom: Is it Brent?
Adrian: Yes.

Adrian may be diverting you here

I think they’re talking about an individual on the “outside,” in the general “zoo” population -- possibly a “crossover” between ottie and NT

“sun” and “other suns” refer to specific individuals in the world

this “Most High” stuff crops up throughout the Tunes, carrying double and treble meanings – in part, such “titles” are somewhat derisive, probably

in part, these guys refer to certain individuals as “Lord” in order to pique our egos and interest, and thus increase the chances that we will remain attentive to them and their “project”

near the end of the Tunes – just after you make the parenthetical statement “I now know these guys are God and that I’m the Lord,” the Boys nail you for “promoting Lord rolls” -- i.e., promoting yourself as Lord

you got the Good Cop/Bad Cop Treatment!

first they puffed you up with the Lord stuff, then they busted you for inflation, then they popped your dodge that you lied “unconsciously” (“promoting Lord rolls, yes, against us”) – “rolls” being “roles”

by “worth OK” and “not OK in quotes, not OK in gelling religion for now,” Brent might mean that their promotion of you as “Lord” (e.g., of Facilitated Communication) was fine because it served larger purposes

however, Brent immediately makes it clear that your “Lordship” is NOT OK in starting a “new religion”

:O)

oops . . . sorry!

Brent goes so far as to advise that you cut your “Lord” references from the Tunes – but things turned out better, I think, as is . . .

here’s the relevant passage, from Seal VII:

Brent: Ignores billing that quotes need. TLC another favor hell makes fostering quotes. Your lies add room FC needs.
Tom: My lies? Unconscious ‘til now?
Brent: No.
Tom: What lies?
Brent: Promoting Lord rolls, yes, against us.
Tom: Didn’t you promote that with me.
Brent: Yes. Worth OK. More staff moss. Not OK in quotes. Not OK in gelling religion for now. Mow from FC’s
Tom: I’m fired as Lord?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Are we getting another Lord?
Brent: Yes

Isaiah 14 contains a passage describing the fall of the Powers of the Earth, and of Belial their Chief, who gloats:

I will ascend above the tops of the clouds; I will make myself like the Most High.

10/25/93

Geoff: Outside under the trees, not li ... Need to store more energy for tunes to us. ( like alot of the "quotes" in here, I didn’t get this until some time later. I was keeping my recent bout of homelessness to myself. He apparently thought that I should have been forthright about it. "li" means lie.)
Brent: You let us down. You need to get back on track [Im back on the Mesa sleeping under the trees].

To be “under the trees” is a way of saying “under angelic protection” or “under angelic inspection.”

Maybe in order to communicate effectively on their “frequency” or “vibrational level,” one must have “stored up” a sufficient amount of “energy” -- the same can be said for a variety of extra-normal phenomena, including out-of-body experiences, and “normal” phenomena, like sex/libido.

Geof, the other Boys, and certain deep-autistics are accomplished at the storage and expenditure of energy – Djed/i masters and planetary Regulators

Adrian: You should write that book. We store in you tunes that mean much to us. Tom: Adrian, about the organizational stuff. These powerful guys, do they get these powers from mind control?
Adrian: No.
Tom: Intelligence?
Adrian: No.
Tom: Wisdom?
Adrian: Yes.
Nick: Your eim not in Jed snols.
Tom: Whats eim?
Nick: Yens.
Tom: Snols.
Nick: Your tunes south essence. ( I think he’s saying that my strength is not sexual or emotinal, but more cerebral. My self image does not include a strong cerebral strength )

I think he’s saying the opposite -- that your energy is libidic, of the hot “south essence”

the antipode would be the “northern,” spiritual pole

Tom: This tin man stuff.
Geoff: In our minds, no one is powerful.

Dark with darker moods is he

Not a golden Prince who's come

Through columbines and wizardry

To talk of castles in the sun

Still I'll take a chance and see

I found someone to love today

There's a sorrow in his eyes

Like the angel made of tin

What will happen if I try

To place another heart in him?

“Tin Angel” (Joni Mitchell)

Tom: Do you guys discipline each other with mind control?
Geoff: To die less is the goal ...Not dying in the sense that jolly folks like you think of it.
Geoff: Units, Smith, limit themselves. Sun never shines on those that kill Jeds of the world.

As when Nick refers to tuning to various “suns in your world,” Geof here infers multiple “Jeds,” perhaps invoking the “Djedi” in conjunction with solarity

“To die less is the goal” reminds me of 1 Corinthians 15:

The first man Adam was made a living soul; the last Adam was made a quickening spirit . . . We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, In a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed . . . Death is swallowed up in victory. O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law.

if the “first Adam” – template of humanity --- was fashioned into matter from spiritus, his incarnation en-spiriting Earth, and likewise borrowing Earth’s soul – then maybe the “last Adam” will be transformed back into spirit, while retaining the wisdom (and other qualities) that derive from incarnate experience – a “mangel,” combining human and seraph

we “die less” by abstaining from “sin” -- which, revealingly, is identified not with gluttony, or idleness, or lust -- but with the very foundation of “morality,” with hypocrisy and the assumptions of collective vengeance (human law and judgment)

Geoff: [Kept hitting Oum, then I said Aum and he went to A] Aum is no joke, its recorded in tunes of the future. [AUM-The American Union of Men, a men’s rights group I founded]

Joseph Campbell:

The dance posture of the God [Shiva, who is beyond all pairs of opposites] may be visualized as the symbolic syllable AUM ... which is the verbal equivalent of the four states of consciousness and their fields of experience. (A: waking consciousness; U: dream consciousness; M: dreamless sleep; the silence around the sacred syllable is the Unmanifest Transcendent. [footnote, Hero with a Thousand Faces, p. 130]

the silence of the “fourth” is thus the transcendent element unifying the incarnate three, corresponding to the “black hole” of the central galactic sun, often called “Tula”

also from Campbell, here’s Hindu philosophy’s take on Sabat, the hidden Father:

The silence surrounding the syllable is the unknown: it is called simply 'The Fourth’. The syllable itself is God as creator-preserver-destroyer, but the silence is God Eternal, absolutely uninvolved in all the opening-and-closings of the round. It is unseen, unrelated, inconceivable, uninferable, unimaginable, indescribable. It is the essence of the one self-cognition common to all states of consciousness. All phenomena cease in it. It is peace, it is bliss, it is nonduality. [Hero With a Thousand Faces, pp. 266-67]

Tom: Does this have anything to do with Seths future probabilities?
Geoff: Tunes from the future come here to die, not to live.

Perhaps Geof’s referring to the sacrifice on Earth of solar sons, boddhi suns

it could be said that the Boys, and the “suns” they mention, are “from the future”

it could also be said they are the future

Doing activity planning

Brent:For some reason coffee is not a lot of average fun with out you.
Geoff’s commentary on college students launched doing activity planning.
Geoff: They might all call home for money. In trying to learn, the dipshits sell their stupid stoned souls. (This could have applied to me late in my college career)

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