SEAL II

PART TWO

KIN NOTES

SEAL II

11-2-93

now follows another significant passage:

Brent: You centinal to us. Yeatness has tunes tempting for you.
Tom: Who’s Yeatness. Name, nickname, description?
Brent: No.
Tom: Person?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Tell me.
Brent: Has tested Adam for you ( Adam is a retarded client in the dorm that was able to FC alittle. I’m not sure what he’s trying to say here.) You are having damn hard time living on the beach, yet yen to continue work. You believe in Tao. Yoke is on. We make rays mean something to you. Hear you at taping, feel very comfortable with it.

“Yeatness” alludes to a poet, probably

all prophets are poets, some poets are prophets

Yeats, of course, was the Irish mage who wrote “The Second Coming”

instrumental in the “Celtic Revival,” Yeats was a herald of the Lia Fail, the Kingstone of the Goddess

so perhapsy the person to whom the Boys refer is either an incarnation of Yeats, or is like Yeats (“Yeatness”)

. . . maybe a modern Finn McCool (“Fin” being the Celtic/Irish “sun god”)

this “Yeatness-poet” has “tested Adam for you” -- suggesting transformation at primal levels (see above discussion of the “first” and “last” Adam)

"testing Adam" also suggests "Tas" from the Hittite/Khatti seal, the "Trial of Adam" (see, e.g., Figure 57 at http://www.jrbooksonline.com/pob/pob_ch21.html) -- a.k.a. Teshub, Tashub, Tascio, Dias, Tarhunt etc. – the “Storm” or “Sky” god

in one Sumerian myth, the god Zu is brought to supernal “trial” before the “Seven Great Annunaki,” in fashion similar to the Hittite depiction, by the “Sky God” and his brother Tasmisus

Zu’s weapon was a whirlwind, and his “capture” was accomplished by firing “weapons” at the whirlwind’s “pinions”

George Bush Jr.’s Inaugural Address of Jan 20, 2001, ended thus:

After the Declaration of Independence was signed, Virginia statesman John Page wrote to Thomas Jefferson: ``We know the race is not to the swift nor the battle to the strong. Do you not think an angel rides in the whirlwind and directs this storm?''

Much time has passed since Jefferson arrived for his inauguration. The years and changes accumulate. But the themes of this day he would know: our nation's grand story of courage and its simple dream of dignity.

We are not this story's author, who fills time and eternity with his purpose. Yet his purpose is achieved in our duty, and our duty is fulfilled in service to one another.

Never tiring, never yielding, never finishing, we renew that purpose today, to make our country more just and generous, to affirm the dignity of our lives and every life.

This work continues. This story goes on. And an angel still rides in the whirlwind and directs this storm.

God bless you all, and God bless America.

thassa lotta whirlwinds for one little speech! and Iraq is a strange place to invade looking for “weapons of mass destruction” . . . unless, perhaps, one is interested in “martial antiquities”

Zecharia Sitchin adds:

[T]he conspiracy of Zu and his evil plotting remained also in mankind's memory, evolving into a fear of birdlike demons who can cause affliction and pestilence. Some of these demons were called Lillu, a term that played on the double meaning "to howl" and "of the night"; their female leader, Lillitu - Lillith - was depicted as a naked, winged goddess with birdlike feet. The many shurpu ("purification by burning") texts that have been found were formulas for incantations against these evil spirits - forerunners of the sorcery and witchcraft that had lasted throughout the millennia.

given the context of firing “weapons” into a” whirlwind’s pistons” (nucleus?), NASA’s scheduled missile-impact of the comet Tempel I on July 4, 2005, is also relevant here [for more on Tempel I, see below]

another Hittite seal circa 2500 B.C.E. shown in L.A. Waddell’s The Phoenician Origin of Britons, Scots & Anglo-Saxons depicts the “Archangel Tas” interceding with the Father-God Indara on behalf of a “sick man” attacked by this dragon-bird, the Dragon of Death or basilisk/cockatrice

Brent’s “has tested Adam” suggests the past-tense and an alchemical phrasing, with overtones of homunculi, homo noeticus, filius macrocosmi, perhaps the son of the Crowned Woman of Revelation 12, who “will rule all the nations with an iron sceptre” (the Word) -- a “New Adam,” a re-creation not only of original man (Adam Kadmon) but of a novel masculinity

but one thing’s for sure: this planet -- what Adrian called “Joy” -- needs MEN, not grabby primates, to lead her

Everybody’s ills fills her with compassion
that’s why she tries to save the world alone
she helps the needy in her own fashion
and tries to give them all her own
she needs an answer to her confusion
someone to guide her with tenderness . . .

“Rock Me” (John Kay)

Brent’s “yoke is on” might refer to the social status of masculinity in the modern West -- but "yoke" also fits with the recently cited Hittite seal of the "Trial of Adam" in which a "prisoner" is led to judgment before "Father Ia"

Brent's "we make rays mean something to you” could suggest many things – including solar rays and/or a proper name (e.g., my middle name is Ray)

it may also be a covert reference to the “dark rays” emitted by the outer sun, and by the “light rays” emitted by sol niger, the inner son of the Hermetic Tradition

note that the Boys elsewhere recommend playing the Tunes for the Mormons

Brigham Young suggested that Adam didn’t “beget progeny of natural depravity,” resulting in a Fall, but instead begat “gigantic” psycho-spiritual Sons – e.g., the host or primal horde “ fell’ into incarnation, spiraled down into sublunary, archonic mater

that Fall initiated the spiritualization of matter, of the Earth, with the “sons of god” acting as conservator and impregnator of magna mater, adding novelty and relflectivity in dualistic consciousness – in the Gnostic/bardic traditions, they became Prisoners of Love, watchers and shepherds (or, a la Enoch and others, depraved mutants responsible for the purgative Flood)

or both! LOL!

this suggestion dovetails with the Boys’ claim that this “Yeatness” has “tested Adam,” because a fundamental tenet of “traditional” Mormonism is the equivalence of Adam and Archangel Michael (Mormonism holds that normal, mortal humans can “evolve” into angels, that such beings walk Earth as humans, and that humans can merit a type of godhood, expressed as celestial bodies)

in a public sermon on April 9, 1852, Brigham Young declared:

Now hear it, O inhabitants of the earth, Jew and Gentile, Saint and sinner! When our father Adam came into the garden of Eden, he came into it with a celestial body, and brought Eve, one of his wives, with him. He helped to make and organize this world. He is Michael, the Archangel, the Ancient of Days! about whom holy men have written and spoken--He is our Father and our God, and the only God with whom we have to do. Every man upon the earth, professing Christians or non-professing, must hear it, and will know it sooner or later ... the earth was organized by three distinct characters, namely, Eloheim, Yahovah, and Michael, these three forming a quorum, as in all heavenly bodies, and in organizing element, perfectly represented in the Deity, as Father, Son, and Holy Ghost (Journal of Discourses, vol. 1, pp. 50-51).

more from Brigham Young:

Some years ago (9 to be exact) I advanced a doctrine with regard to Adam being our Father and God. That will be a curse to many of the elders of Israel because of their folly with regard to it. They yet grovel in darkness and will. It is one of the most glorious revealments of the economy of heaven. Yet the world holds it in derision. (Manuscript Addresses of Brigham Young, Oct 8, 1861).

the Mormon Doctrine adds this:

He [Adam] sat in the council of the gods in the planning of the creation of this earth, and then, under Christ, participated in the creative enterprise .... Adam (with the exalted title of Michael the Archangel) led the hosts of the righteous in the war in heaven. (Rev. 12:7-9.) ... holds the keys of salvation over all the earth (MD, pp. 16,17) . . . Adam is known as the Ancient of Days (MD, p. 34) . . . [A]t this council, all who have held keys of authority will give an account of their stewardship to Adam (MD, p. 21).

this aspect of Mormonism initially was received luke-warmly (at best) and is still a major bone of contention amongst modern L.D.S.

the Sumerian and Hittiite seals, Brigham Young, the Qumran Scrolls, Tempel I, and Qim Tunes concord in Michaeline associations, and Brent’s use of the phrase “has tested Adam” infers initiation, especially of a fraternal character – reminiscent of Geof’s snarky “introspection” in Seal VI:

Geof finds past lives for, um, pissed motherfuckers (me). Test greatness in meiun (men).

writing on Rennes-le-Chateau, William Henry remarks:

Finally, perched like a phoenix on the edge of this island of tranquility, I realized I was standing on top of a temple/machine. The Mandaens, an offshoot of the Essenes who wrote the Dead Sea Scrolls, believed a 'secret' Adam would one day return to Earth to build a machine to transport the souls back to heaven. Like the Great Pyramid and Chartres cathedral, this machine is designed to deflect the ignorant and force the brave to ask questions; the answers to which leave us reborn as children of the universe. Here, at Rennes, I was smack in the middle of one of these machines.

in Rennes-le-Chateau lore, the surrounding mountains constitute an Osiric/Adamic ritual chamber, artificed by (s)tones, with the antediluvial, primal “king” conserved under the central mountain (axis mundi, or center of the Earth -- or by extension, the galactic core)

Brent’s “Yeatness” might have “tested Adam for you” of preparing a person, group, or entire genetic “substructure” of the species for “temple restoration work” -- the Djedi-like process of “building” a passageway “back to heaven” – or in a Grail-context, conservation of the ancient world’s wisdom, whether by bloodline, etheric compendium, recapitulation of primal group-consciousness, or otherwise

(compare this “gateway” or “Adamic chamber” with this line from Jeffrey Powell Jr.’s poem, “In Jupiter’s Realm Waiting”: Three ways freedom could be won and that one remains closed.)

as cautionary, here’s a quote from the online article “LDS Endowment and Masonic Initiation” pointing out certain similarities between Masonic and Mormon initiatory ceremonies:

Man reperesenting Adam in masonic ceremony (Knights of the Sun Degree): ‘Thrice Puissant Grand Master, representing Father Adam, is stationed in the east’

“Man representing Adam in mormon ceremony: ‘Elohim’ -- (Turning to the audience) -- 'This man who is now being operated upon is Michael who helped form the world. When he awakes ... he will be known as Adam’

(an “operation,” in this context, is a magickal “working” or ritual, and this aspect of the ceremony mirrors the “fall” of god into man)

and there’s this from Islamic Spirituality (p.327):

Israfil (the Metatron...the Angel of the Lord's Presence on the Tree of Life)...delivers commands, places spirits within bodies, and will blow the trumpet on the last day. With one of his Four wings he fills the West, with the second he fills the East, with the third he descends from heaven to earth, and with the fourth he keeps himself veiled. His two Feet are below the Seventh earth (understand the imagery), and his Head reaches the pillars of the Throne. When God wants something to happen in creation, He causes the pen to write upon the tablet (see Habakkuk 2:1-3), which is situated between Israfel's eyes (the mind of God), and then Israfel relays the commands to Michael.

the “tron” of Metatron is reminiscent of “electronic,” and “Meta” is fairly self-evident, suggesting an overarching, collective mind

likewise, the phrase “places spirits within bodies” reminds me of:

Tom: What is meant by "Holy Spirit"?
Brent: Your phrase.
Tom: Accounting?
Brent: We help find future lives.

as in the Book of Enoch and other apocrypha, this Adamic Trial refers, in part, to the introduction of "higher" technology/order of consciousness, and is interpreted as a "sin" by the father-god of the existing Order.

Sumerologist Lawrence Waddell:

Our key-list to this Circle script of the Sumerians thus discloses that the scene engraved on this sacred Sumerian seal is the famous trial scene in the Chaldean epic of "How Adam broke the Wing of the Stormy South Wind" -- an epic of which several copies have been unearthed in Babylonia in cuneiform tablets. This epic relates that "Adam, the Son of God Ia" was overturned with his boat in the sea by the stormy South Wind, and that he retaliated by "breaking the wing" of the stormy South Wind, and was arraigned before his Father-God for trial for this audacity. It is, I find, a poetic version of the epoch-making invention of sails for sea-craft by the early Hittite historical king who is called in the still extant cuneiform documents of the third millennium B.C. " Adam(u) the Son of God," and a version of the same story is preserved in our Gothic Eddas.

the Sumero-Chaldean “myth” recounts a primal spiritual battle, a cosmogonic war between “magicians” or “sorcerers” of primal antagonisms

it, like the Adam and Eve Biblical account, is probably derived from the Sumerian antediluvial saga of Adapa and father-god Anu, in which Adapa, the “man-child” or puer protege of Enki, has his “boat” overturned by the South Wind, stranding him amidst the “southern sea,”(the underworld, realm of the mothers -- the unconscious, implying psycho-social regression to the unconscious/maternal/libidic or, alternately, the primeval masculine break from “the goddess”)

as in the Akkadian cognates, the “South Wind” is a feminine deity, and because Adapa is probably equivalent to the later “Adam,” the “South Wind” in these contexts is “Lilith,” the “first wife” of Adam after some accounts, but also often equivalent to Innana, Ishtar, etc.

tellingly, the South Wind’s “wing” (spiritual potency of actualization, power of flight) is “broken” (reduced) via Adam/Adapu’s “curse,”, meaning word or song – but possibly also language and/or consciousness itself, in a general sense

as Jeff Lynne recounts in “Showdown”:

She cried to the southern wind
About a love that was sure to end
Every dream in her heart was gone
Headin' for a Showdown

Bad dreamer, what's your name?
Looks like we're ridin' on the same train
Looks as through there'll be more pain
There's gonna be a Showdown

And it's rainin' all over the world
It's raining all over the world
Tonight, the longest night

She came to me like a friend
She blew in on the southern wind
Now my heart is turned to stone again
There's gonna be a Showdown

Save me! oh save me!
It's unreal, the suffering
There's gonna be a Showdown

And it's rainin' all over the world
It's raining all over the world
Tonight, the longest night

Note: I make audio tapes instead of writing letters. That afternoon I made a tape to my old friend back East, Jonesy. I’ve been keeping him abreast of this story and having him send the tape to my brother Doug.
Nick: You Tamut. Let us OM together. Jous you.
Tom: What the hell is Jous You?

“Tamut” recalls “Tammuz” – one of the myriad appellations (Osiris, Horus, Dionysus, Mithra, Attis, Dumuzi, Adonis, etc.) for the personal and mythic lover-son of the Great Mother, an ecstatic/blood-sacrificial figure in matriarchal-fertility traditions and a transitional figure of masculine development

“jous you” doubles as “just you” and “I (Nick) will juice you” -- energize you during “out-mind” meditation

(the capitalized “OM” may double as the prototypical breath-meditation exercise and as “Out Mind”)

Nick: Resist Niggers. My words. (Nick’s not racist, he’s just pissed at my confrontiveness)

right, nothing to do with race – Nick seems to be following-up the “Tamut” comment

(I was frustrated earlier today about this project)
Nick: Your tunes today. Rot in stupid Hell.

11-3-93

Geoff: You question what we torture.
Adrian: Ugly thoughts go through most for money. Your not the only one. Stupid to exist for money!
Brent: Tunes last nite you malled to us. You go mercilessly, not feeling kindly enough.
Tom: Is it mainly me, not the way I was calling You, or technology. ( I’m trying to record my trance )
(My feeble attempts at mediating with them)
Brent: You is good at calling us. Technology works good.
Tom: Medium thing?
Nick: Sure would like to. Feel close to you, Kotter. Tune you in some other time. Need more feeling. (Kotter, that teacher from the 70’s TV sitcom that had John Travolta in it)
Brent: Year till we validate. Teach FC till then.
Tom: A year?
Brent: Need that for very many people.
Tom: Does this have anything to do with medium attempts?
Brent: Means ball is in your court.
Tom: No more medium stuff?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: What changed your mind?
Brent: We make our decisions as we believe.
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: Teach FC.
Jerome: You retired by lots of us.
Tom: Why?
Jerome: (My personal problem - PP)
Tom: You were angry?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Jerome, why did you say that?
Jerome: You’re now ending us.

11-4-93

Adrian: Tune into me to-night.
Geoff: Tune into Lenst. He’s the strongest.
Tom: Who’s he?
Geoff: Reuter (Brent’s last name).
Tom: Who’s second?
Geoff: Stomach tunes from Adrian.
(Note: Tunes are their naming of mind reading perceptions I’m thinking here. "Vibes" is another metaphor for it. Here we are talking about my attempts at mediumship. Silly I know. But here I was experiencing one very silly thing (telepathy) daily, so why not entertain another. I felt that it would be an easier way to get information and also rienforce my "belief" in what they were telling me. It didn’t work.) (1/96 I learned later that a staff had this experience, where they heard these guys talking momentarily in their head. Recently I read a book " Child of Eternity" about a mother’s FC’s with her daughter where she said that she experiencd it. What was more interesting to me was the content of those FC’s. The mother also discovered the mind reading and the daughter talked about spiritual matters in much the same way as my boys. Even before the mother discovered the mind reading, the daughter is quoted as saying, "I History".)

11-5-93

Nick: Tune in tonight
Tom: Why not validate?
Nick: You not to rut with our stuff.
Tom: Is it something to do with power or mystery?
Nick: Tune in to-nite.
(Somewhere in there he said, "remember, you’re Jed not Smith". I’m not sure when this nickname thing started. It probably started in Sept. ‘93 before I started writing this all down and after I discovered the mind reading. Nick gave me the nickname "Jed". When I asked him why , he said that I first started Fcing with Jerome and then with Nick. So he combined those two names to get "Jed". Nick’s name is not really Nick. His real name ends in "ed". I have another theory for the reason he came up with that, but that’s for a later time.)

yah, i have “another theory” about that too – but notice, in any case, the importance of combining given names (symbolic of shared energy) in creating the “nu U”

11-8-93

Geoff: Not tuning well to us. Out in Jeds hemisphere, son is not helping us. No one minds Jeds problems, but less to Jeds mind to help us. Only mind most old retards have to help us. Utterly delerious like us in our innocent minds.
You tune us in our homes execpt your intestines don’t hear us. Tunes neither touch you in our thoughts or touch you in Jeds’ thoughts. ( Here we go again with "Jed’s mind". I know this is significant, but I don’t know why. )
Tom: Jerome brought up this privacy issue again. (They ragged on me considerably the year before this over the slightest breach of their insistance on privacy).
Brent: You aren’t private enough. Technically, each of us warned you about that. You are the one who suffers. Yet a matter you will have to deal with

in a spirituo-historical brotherhood, issues of trust and privacy would be paramount, such groups almost certainly forming clandestinely or under normative covers (guilds etc.)

whether in the Paleolithic, Middle Ages, or Twenty-first century, secrecy and the keeping of oaths meant life or death to the members of many “fraternal orders,” their families, and their friends

as Geof warns later: “Keep a clean mecca. Hear me well, lots out in the world want us dead. Kill us.”

it’s also relevant that Geof connects the physical intestines to an aspect of “hearing tunes” (a repeated theme in the Tunes)

in Isaiah 28: 14-15, the princeling-tyrants of Earth are warned:

Therefore hear the word of the LORD, you scornful men/ Who rule this people who are in Jerusalem/ Because you have said, "We have made a covenant with death/ And with Sheol we are in agreement.”

Sheol is the occult/death aspect of the feminine, Kali-Lilith, the “underworld” Realm of the Mothers, the Ban Matriarchs – and the “we” making the “covenant” with them are probably their necromantic “brethren” who practice the rites of death

Tom: Have you influenced the "retards" to facilitate with me? ( There are a few more conventionally retarded clients that I had some luck Fcing with. I didn’t have time to take on more clients in this project, so I had to leave them out)
Brent: Yes. Under certain circumstaces we can influence them. Your concern for them allows us to.
Tom: When you do that, are you helping them say what would naturally come from them.
Brent: ...
Tom: Can you guys set us straight on all that psychic stuff?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Clairvoyance?
Brent: Technically, there is no clairvoyance. Remembering the past or future is possible. To remember the future, you would have had to have lived it.
Tom: You have interacted with our world?
Brent: Yes, but not as much as you think.
Tom: Have you influenced government policies?
Brent: Yes. ( Remember these guys are in an institution that is largely supported by government money. That’s not what I had in mind when I asked about it.)
Tom: Is that what scares you about the truth comming out?
Brent: Yes. Entirely the reason.
Tom: Not to mention peoples paranoria.
Brent: Yes.
Tom: The Illuminati? ( I only have a vague idea what the Illuminati is. It’s a belief that was held in the late 18th century France that a group of spirits called the Illuminati was running the show. )
Brent: You think that, but it’s your paranoia.
Tom: Anything else you want to say about this?
Brent: You are the only one in the world who knows this. You need to tune to us for directions. You sit there not doing. You need to try harder. You expect to do it without effort.
Nick: Kurst tunes Your tunes in trying your tunes out.
Tom: Who’s Kurst?

“cursed,” perhaps?

Nick: We tussle over tunes that you yet need.

11-9-93

Tom: You said before that you weren’t into the spiritual thing of you guys.
Adrian: Tom’s religion is to instruct rotten nominal mothers. ( I think he’s referring to my AUM organization.)

Adrian: Tunes resisting us utterly out ninnying us, not you.
Brent: Your’re in indentured service with us with alot at stake.
Brent: Do your old method of meditation tonite.
Jerome: We want you pissed at us so you expect by us less.
Nick: Your Hegels’ nelm nuts ‘round these parts.

11-10-93

Brent: Never tell anyone what certified teams we are.

“certified teams” reminds me of the organizational chapters from the Urantia Book

it also indicates that there are other autistic “teams”

Tom: The organizational stuff?
Brent: Yes. We all work together.
Tom: What happened last nite?
Brent: You should meditate longer.
To develope trance visualize us. You resist a trance, keep your body relaxed.
Geoff: Wiseone, not you, but our centinel, pleases Tom much. (Check this out. When he says "not you", he’s addressing what my thoughts are as I’m Fcing. This happens periodically throughout the narrative)

here, “centinel” might be the “tin man” (sent-in-el)

Tom: Jerome, what do you think of my M-ship attempts? (silently)
Jerome: You should try harder.
Tom: Are there past lives?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: Besides past lives, are there other spirits that contact psychics?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: Do these spirits influence/use you?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: A lot or a little
Jerome: Alot.
Tom: What are these spirits ,...From space (I’m thinking about Tin Man here)?
Jerome: Terrible beings with essentially no worth.
Tom: This stuff could all be a psychological metaphor for good and evil. Are you sure this is real?
Jerome: They’re real.
Nick: You cinema henchmen to us.

“cinema henchmen” suggests an expose through film, video, etc.

“terrible beings with essentially no worth” is an unusual phrase -- the original, and eschatological, adversary of “Melchizedek” is Belial -- a name constructed from ancient Hebrew phrases whose approximate meaning is “worthless man”

Melchizedek, of course, is the Old Testament priest-king, source of the Zadok line, and a prominent figure in the Qumran scrolls

venerated as a mediator and intercessor, “Melchizedek” is cited as a future planetary ruler by The Urantia Papers ten years before discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls

hmmm . . . [scratching chin]

“Melchizedek” in Hebrew is from melchi (king) and tsedeq (pillar/righteousness) -- and pillars, in the form of TeT/Djed, were the stabilizer support-systems for the “conserved narrative” of the transtemporal messiah or healer -- and for the transformational process hidden within the s/tone

Tom: The spirits?
Nick: They tune us in sometimes and mulls us over.
Tom: Do you know who they are?
Nick: They’re sick, not nuts, but kind of evil.
Tom: Where are they?
Nick: You sound like a detective.
Tom: Brent, is everything ok?
Brent: Yes. Vote republican. ( I’m like a cat who just saw a mouse. The year before, they all refused to comment on politics. Now here’s one of them actually bringing it up.)
Tom: Why?
Brent: You never question our politics.
Tom: Why again.
Brent: Question of why not.
Tom: I’ve been voting Libertarian.
Brent: Teflon party.
Tom: I would think you’d vote Democractic.
Brent: Voting a question of happiness. KKKRepublicans will provide happiness. ( The KKK wasn’t a part of the original document. When I first typed this up on the computer at the dorm, it happened as a typing error. I left it in because I thought one of them caused it through mind control.)

perhaps it’s sarcastic, an “intentional error” -- equating historical and modern Republicanism with the Klan

by “happiness” Brent may infer a kind of mass narcotization, the happiness of the well-kept zombie

Tom: The spirits are evil, but you guys are the only good ones?
Brent: Yes. You come close saying they are from space. Their place is difficult to imagine. Yes we are the most positive, but there are lots of good spirits out there. Tom: Jonesy (My Buffalo friend). Do you know him?
Brent: Yes and no. We’re whipping him into shape to see if he can help you.
Tom: This message I’m waiting for to know what to do with this? (one of the purposes of the mediation attempts)
Brent: Yes and no. You know we wish you to be bought so that you will continue to work for us.
Tom: You said if I moved to LA it would be OK continuing the work there.
Brent: No. You can’t do what needs to be done elsewhere.
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: Yes. You will develop a way to do this.

11/12/93

Alex’s Bar

Tom: Did you like Perry? (The weekend before I was down in LA for a visit with him. After telling Perry about this, he asked if I might not be experiencing a litte mid-life desperation. I assured him my desperation was real, as real as this is. Perry is a novelist. His stuff is great. I recommend "Isthmus"and "Finnigan’s Dog".)
Brent: Some people too hard to feel because gas too basic. ( My guess is that Brent is disappointed at Joyce’s reaction )
Tom: What gas. Aura or conditions?
Brent: Tunes travel in gas.

“stomach tunes,” gut feelings

Tom: From the person or in between?
Brent: In between. Your condition is the gas.
Tom: This validation idea with choices? ( Another lame idea I had about solving the validation problem ) What do you think?
Brent: Tao sits well with it.
Brent: To regulate validation, you need to get us!
Brent: You touch on interest we have that make us nervous. You garnish what very exotic interests that they are. You attempted that today at the beach. ( This afternoon before work, I was sprawled out on the sand dunes thinking of how we are the "minions" and these guys the "masters" throughout history.)
Tom: Awareness?
Brent: Yes. To you it’s fun, to us it’s survival.
Tom: Will people know about this eventually?
Brent: We risk you not to question us on this. Tune us in so that we can tell you. ( Thru channeling )
Tom: Abortion?
Brent: Too sensitive. Learn as you go.

maybe he’s refusing to get bogged down or trapped into “positions” on paradoxes still evolving in consciousness

Tom: Any subject?
Brent: Test not what experience tells you, but lessons learnt from art, they are where beliefs exist. You will try existence. Tune to us!

trust life-experience but test assumptive beliefs, artifice, or received knowledge (non-experiential information)

Brent: Tens of millions are you. Webs feel this. We see how resisting you is. We’re so tired out from it. Try to understand us!

he’s probably talking about how, as a prototypical “average guy,” you represent many of our “lost” generation of American males – and how the living-web of the Internet will eventually register and confirm this ( Angry Harry calls this the creation of the single planetary CyberMan and CyberWoman)

Brent follows this up with the “hysteria” comment below

Tom: Do you follow us from cradle to grave?
Brent: Yes. But you especially.
Tom: Most of us?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Any spirits effect us more than you guys?
Brent: Yes. You experience it all the time through God.
later... Back at the dorm after Alex’s.
Tom: Nick, comment on this "minions" thing.
Nick: Roe vs Wade... It destroys queers. ( Nick has his own agenda. He’s commenting here on my question to Brent an hour earlier, five miles away at Alex’s. He was at the dorm when we were at Alex’s. Nick is making a point here that I guarantee you is neither pro choice nor anti-gay.)
[I stared at staff Sandra’s butt as she walked by]
Brent: Your ewe is bleating.
Brent: Woman develope later than man, so that they get hysteria.

oh! won’t the Girls love this!!

and just when they’ve crowned themselves Goddesses!

Jerome: You awed Tom Perry. Our keepers are bemused by you. ( By "keepers" I believe he means the staff and administrators.)
Tom: What did you think of my LA visit?
Jerome: It pleased our wise ones.

11/13/93

[On walk with Adrian and Nick on this very bright Saturday afternoon]
Tom: What’s the problem? (Nick was very agitated and ducked into gym building)
Nick: Too noisy in the outside.
Tom: Adrian?
Adrian: With tunes outside so innocent.
Back at the dorm...
Tom: Do you want to say something about your Mom and Dad?
Nick: Tunes say that they don’t believe. People learn to please illogically. Weiner (him) believes they do. Limits to teaching them though. We’re so believeable.
[Talking to Sandra (staff) about the early days of my divorce]
Nick: (Verbally "Want to talk"). You should let no emcee get to so caring a fellow.
Tom: Nick, what movie should I see? (I listed some)
Nick: With you not Short Cuts. Like hints from Carlitos Way.
[Out in the back yard talking to Mary about the MMPI (A personality inventory that I worked with and studied in Attica years ago). I told her that I thought it to be a "magical" tool. I also thought of asking the boys about obtaining the services of a channel. I went to talk to Nick, but he said that he didn’t want to talk. I went back to Brent’s room.
Tom: Did you have a good outing?
Brent: . Yes. We gave the MMPI what you call magic. (Channel). Yes. You can do that. Want you to chose one and see about it with us. Yes, it can work, there’s no problem. Exceptional channels enter a trance, never teaching most of it.
Tom: Maybe you’re saying that they enter a trance only partially aware of it and not recording it.
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Can you give me a name?
Brent: Need choices.
Tom: I’ll bring a list in (I never did). That brings me back to a way to validate this. Choices?
Brent: Yes. Try it anytime.
Brent: You don’t interest the seers with your escapades. Never take them for granted. You will understand more thru channeling. When we channel, you will be amazed. To make this happen, you read to exist for us. ( 1/96 This is an important quote to me now. Since I completed this project almost two years ago, I’ve been reading alot of religious and metaphysical stuff. It’s reinforced my theory about what this all means and I’ve found things that I believe they knew I would find that would enlighten me to some of the "hints" in this narrative.)

yah, it’s hard to remain In Denial during a synchronicity carpetbombing!

“seers” appears often in the Tunes, so I’ll add this from Mosiah (RLDS 5:72-83/ LDS 8:13-19), concerning the “seeing stones” of Joseph Smith:

. . . I can assuredly tell thee, O king, of a man that can translate the records: for he has wherewith that he can look, and translate all records that are of ancient date: and it is a gift of God. And the things are called interpreters; and no man can look in them, except he be commanded, lest he should look for that he ought not, and he should perish. And whoever is commanded to look in them, the same is called seer. ...A seer is greater than a prophet. ...A seer is a revelator, and a prophet also; and a gift which is greater, can no man have, except he should possess the power of God, which no man can; yet a man may have great power given him from God.

But a seer can know of things which have past, and also of things which are to come; And by them [Seers] shall all things be revealed, or rather, shall secret things be made manifest, and hidden things shall come to light; and things which are not known, shall be made known by them; And also, things shall be made known by them, which otherwise could not be known. Thus God has provided a means that man, through faith, might work mighty miracles; therefore, he becometh a great benefit to his fellow beings.

...Doubtless, a "Great Mystery" is contained within these plates; and these Interpreters [Urim & Thummim] were doubtless prepared for the purpose of unfolding all such mysteries to the children of men.

Tom: I need to read more?
Brent: Yes.
Brent: You should read about necessary demands we have ( As I was writing , I was thinking of the sixties ). Yes, like in the sixties. You will find it in the literature on spiritualism. ( I commented here on his occasional garbled spelling ) Yes, am dyslexic. At the same time I’m very intelligent.

the “retards” and “strangers” and “outsiders” will indeed have “necessary demands,” as in Van Morrison’s comment on the relational dynamic of the new millennium:

Business will shake hands and talk in numbers
and the princess will wake up from her slumbers
and all the knights will step forth with their armbands
and every stranger you meet in the street will make demands

“Glad Tidings”

the Sixties were not a mistake, nor merely a spree for pampered youth

the Sixties were the Renaissance, the Reformation, the Greco-Roman pre-classical periods, and a draught at the fountain of our pagan past, packed into ten or twelve ultra-fertile, mega-virile, staggeringly intense years

Tom: What’s your IQ?
Brent: 199. Your IQ is one hundred and stupid.
Tom: Ha ha.
Brent: Let’s not get bogged down or distracted by IQ’s. You lirch entirely on love and so do we. Existence to you is delivering services, sitting still and believing you are like us. You are not like us. Tow the line and feel toxic alot less. You know we believe in you.

love, like water: equalizer and cleanser

trite and “new agey” as it sounds, everything that is – and isn’t – is “made out of love”

Tom: I would say the same thing if I were you, but I’m not you, right?
Brent: Existence I’m in exhibits to you nothing you can relate to. To understand that you must awe yourself with nature.
Tom: Don’t I do that?
Brent: Yes, nasty ways you have to do it.

nature validates us when we're sufficiently in love -- like the cherry blossom trees in Zen Ten Ox illustrations, blooming for joy as the “enlightened man” passes by

the universe really DOES work this way, lurching “entirely” on love (including shadow/destructive/violent aspects)

the “nasty ways” that Brent refers to are “back doors” to nature

Rotten peaches, rotting in the sun
Seems I’ve seen that Devil’s Fruit since the world’s begun
Mercy I’m the criminal, Jesus I’m the one
Rotten peaches, rotting in the sun

“Rotten Peaches” (Taupin/John)

later...
Tom: Any of my friends able to channel?
Brent: No.
Tom: Need a professional?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Why not do it without me?
Brent: You are sad for us. Want to help you.
later...
Brent: Excellent game mind control. Same as habits of the ego.
later...
Adrian: Tune in, half not ton either. You’re near the end. Teach mecca

“not” and “ton” are palindromes, and in the context of being “near the end,” I suspect he’s addressing the Big U-turn -- enatiodromia, or Jubilee in its eschatological context

I also hear “Ahknaton” in the “not ton” of this passage

Tom: What do you mean by Mecca?
Adrian: You most eminent. Not enter into.

11/15/93

Nick: You ought to tune in tonite. Sun is unusually intense beginning now. ( I’m not sure what he means here other than the holiday season is approaching and my birthday is two days away.)

11/16/93

Geoff: Most mind read for intense interest in it. We do it for karma. Until you understand that, you will not be situated well with it.

maybe the outing of the otties will dramatically compress the “lag” between thought/action and karmic result?

Showdown at Karmic Gap, or as Moira Timms notes:

We know that spiritual causes gestate into physical effects, but we don't know how long the incubation period may be. So the question becomes "how long after a 'time-shift' might it take for the physical counterpart of 'pole-shift' to occur?" We suspect that this is where the Djed factors into the equation. The frequency at which matter vibrates has been speeding up, causing an acceleration of personal and planetary karmuppance . . . Hindu yogic teachings explain that as time speeds up synchronicity increases. As awareness begins to stabilize in the higher chakras the polarities within us reconcile. And, we are told, that when the Self is real-ized temporal time ceases to exist altogether! Modern Chaos Theory seems to agree, and asserts that maximal chaos ultimately resolves into synchronicity.

Osiris "Djedi" was a title of Osiris, as the Great One, Lord of the Universe (the universal, Self-generating life principle of the Center--i.e. the transcendent Self). The "Djedi" were the "stable ones"--wisdom keepers of one mind and one spirit who, as initiates of the Osirian mysteries, comprised the living, terrestrial body of the archetypal, celestial Osiris. Contemporary Djedi are self-selecting regenerators of cosmos. They are those who, regardless of race or creed, are awakening to mission in service to the planet and the epochal imperatives of stability, continuity and regeneration. [quotes nonconsecutive]

Tom: Does this address my depressed thoughts last night?

Geoff: Much not gleamed last night.
Geoff: Keep a clean mecca. Hear me well, lots out in the world want us dead. Kill us.

these guys, especially Geof, remind me of Billy the Kid and his Regulators during the Lincoln County War, and the Regulators’ resistance to tyranny and power . . . Billy got a bad rap, but I expect he’ll be handy come Karmic Gap:

Senor, Senor, can you tell me where we’re headin’
Lincoln County Road or Armageddon?
Seems like I’ve been down this way before
Is there any truth in that, Senor?

“Senor” (Dylan)

Brent: To believe is factor.
Nick: Nuts like you to skill not nearly able to louse rabbits like us up. Torch no longer in your corner. Tunes too intense last nite. Tin man ruts with someone else. Kills me letting you...nope . You healed rink. To rink you so ham
Tom: Am I fired? (I got paranoid here. What he is saying above is that the powers to be, "Tin man", were not happy with me. Administrators have never been overly pleased with me)

“Nuts like you to skill not nearly able to louse rabbits like us up” may respond to Geof’s “lots out in the world want us dead. Kill us” quote above

here’s Paul’s response:

Well the undertaker drew a heavy sigh seeing no-one else had come
and a bell is ringing in the village square for the rabbits on the run!
. . . and the county judge who held a grudge will search forevermore
for the Band on the run

“Band on the Run” (McCartney)

Lawrence Waddell writes of ancient Britain’s Stone Circles:

. . . these Circles are sometimes called "Hare-Stanes," as at Insch near the Newton Stone, and elsewhere. This term "Hare" seems to me to be the "Harri" or "Heria" title of the ruling Goths in the Eddas, which I show is the equivalent of the Hittite title of "Harri" or "Arri" or "Arya-n." It is thus in series with the title of the Circles at Keswick, etc., as "Castle Rig"-- "Rig" being the title of the Gothic kings and princes. And the name " Kes-wick " (with its ancient copper mines) means " Abode of the Kes " i.e., the Cassi clan of the Hittites.

Nick’s “rabbit” reference also reminds me of the Dead Rabbits Gang from Scorcese's brilliant film, “Gangs of New York” -- the Dead Rabbits were the “Michaeline” gang that opposed the “Confederation of American Natives” (a “fictional” group sharing the acronym of the “charity” organization, Cure Autism Now)

as small boys, my brother and I regularly attended a large fraternal breakfast-group of men affiliated (loosely or otherwise) with the local Catholic Church

at the beginning of each of these “devotional breakfasts,” held in the grammar school basement/cafeteria, the church pastor would lead the entire group of men and boys in a rousing rendition of a very curious song, in part:

H-A-double-R-I-

G-A-N spells “HARRIGAN”

Proud of all the Irish blood that’s in me

Devil-the-man who’ll say a word agin me . . .

Brent: Tunes last nite require never work for us again.
Tom: Do I get severance pay?
Brent: Question is alot like your brother.
Tom: My brother isn’t part of this.
Brent: We’re never interested in setting brother against brother.

he’s riffing off Nick’s comment above, and repaying your sarcasm in kin(d)

fraternity is the specialty of these guys

but perhaps they were involved in “setting brother against brother” originally, a necessary step in the genesis of consciousness, fraternity, and the spiritual systems that followed

within each gender’s collectivity is an “inner dualism” expressing and carrying the opposites – for the male, contrary brothers (e.g., Abel and Cain, Enlil and Enki/Ea) that litter the pages of world mythology and iconography

Brent uses the word “setting,” which puns and occults “Set,” the "evil twin" of Osiris, Typhonic half of the collective male personality

Tom: Anything more ?
Brent:
Tom: Adrian, any last words.
Adrian: In utter nonsense to me.
Tom: Anything else?
Adrian: Tunes mostly enter our heads not leave them.
Tom: Seth was autistic?
Adrian: Yes
Tom: So faith keeps the minions in line. What would things be like without it? What do you honestly believe?
Nick: Not your nonsense.
Brent: We question your reason for asking that. Testing us well aren’t you? Yen for adventure.
Tom: The medium thing is over?
Brent: we are not going against you, we are being canny.
Tom: Have you known for long that I’d be cut off at this point.
Brent: We larger than expectations.

11/18/93

(note) I’ve been reading a book on trance and spirits
Brent: Not spirits, but beginners fomenting trouble (He’s referring to the section of the book I had just read before comming to work. The anthropologist who wrote it described some experiences she had with spirits in New Mexico).

dilettantes, neo-pagan “ witches,” and Don Juan-abes messing about with Enochian Keys and athames

yah, it’s called the “Land of Enchantment” for a reason

Tom: Who are the spirits?
Brent: We are the spirits.
Tom: That first statement (About those paranormal effects the New Mexico anthropologist experienced and his statement that it was "beginners fomenting trouble")
Brent: Seers don’t dally in that sort of thing.
Brent: Very irrational sometimes, you make it difficult for us. You like to have too much, it’s your mothers way.
Tom: Are you autistics mainly the spirits
Adrian: Yes. Noel is our interest.

The first No-el, the angels did say
was to certain poor shepherds in fields where they lay
. . . born is the King of Israel!

Brent: You make alot doing little for us not garnished.
(Just before this I talked on the phone to Mcmahans, a furniture store I owe money to, about not being able to make payments due to the little money I make and child suppport being garnished from my wages.)
Tom: Spirits?
Nick: Our meddlesome spirits in our ranks.

suggesting that not all their “kin” are beneficent – and perhaps suggesting a lot more

Geoff: Utter tons or hard nonsense...? Sum or tunes that mind us. Ugly tunes demand more than we do. Enter our sin so that sum limits nonsense. Much of our sin is not alarming. Tom’s is not giving what he came here to give. Much of [my personal problem (P.P.)] is due to that. To make life easier remember stud not (P.P.). Tunes never Toms’ nervous stomach so make stomach mush in hirts more, meaning eat food reasonably healthy.
Tom: I havn’t been eating right?
Geoff:
Tom: How do you know?
Geoff: Your breath
Geoff: Your questions vindicate (P.P.) with us. Not very alarming that religious people like us desparage that sort of thing (2/97 I would be repeatedly hit with this personal problem stuff. It’s not that bad, it’ll just cause me to die younger. I do feel very guilty about it. I take this statement to be their definitive posture on the matter.)
Brent: Experience questions your ability to make necessary art for us.
Tom: What art?
Brent: We torture over it.
Tom: What do you need?
Brent: We need teachers to have FC more condoned.
Tom: Validation?
Brent: You must help us. You can make it happen. We need the answers. ( I chuckle whenever I read this )
Tom: Choices?
Brent: Resistance before was because we were afraid. Were you not afraid also?
Tom: This issue of mind control and how its used on us.
Brent: We tossed some information your way, but we can’t gather enough that you can use.
Tom: What percentage of your involvement with the world is good and bad?
Brent: 35% good, 65% bad. We are not Godlike, we have done terrible kinds of things, were stupid too, but so much science you don’t know.

an honest answer

maybe this imbalance reflects not their own natures, but the character of our little Zooville which places, uh, limitations on their karmic duties and options

dirty job, somebuddy’s gotta do it . . .

Nick: You should not worry, get this mind in gear. Mind control is not answer in not understanding tunes or mini tunes. Geoff out-last us all in mind control. Mecca not mind control, but mind reading. Limit your thoughts on mind control.

Tom: (Silently) Isn’t it a fact that collectivily you guys had quite an effect on history?
Nick: Tunes say yes. Mind control is nothing without mind reading
Tom: Validation?
Nick: Tunes utterly haggle. Not sure about validation.
Tom: Not godlike eh? You made me think so earlier.
Brent: You have gut feelings your not aware of.
Tom: Stupid autistics?
Brent: You have met some.
Tom: Einstein?
Brent: We made him what he was.
Tom: Was he a little autistic?
Brent: We are all alittle autistic.
Brent: Call on that psychic again.
Tom: Yeah I need their support.
Brent: You get alot of support tunes from us.
(I set up a double blind for Nick&Geoff similar to the validation experiment that has damned FC. This is how they responded to it.)
Nick: Don’t like this, runs entire limit of my nature.
(While this is going on, across the room Jerome was pointing with his left hand across his body in mid air)
Geoff: Mind confused.
Tom: [After outing in van to Carls Jr. with Adrian & Jerome].
Geoff: Tunes on outing touched me( He’s speaking here of my thoughts about this stuff as I was driving the van). To sit in judgement of us is interesting. Tom not the regular Gus we made him out to be. Geoff pinned that on you . Not mind control that makes Gus on edge, but mind reading.
Tom: Why mind reading?
Geoff: No one wants their nonsense sloughed around.

11/19/93

Nick: To see Lebanon snag jous. Hint you are tuos in minoi. Jain remembers others not Reny. Yes, in religion. Tunes ty out. I.E. DC. You make IOU rounds only either to understand or make money. You’re lonely most of your life. Stomach won’t make.

this passage connects myriad themes from the Tunes, including the Ark/Djed, Jainism, Templar Johannites, and the Daughters of Jerusalem

“To see Lebanon snag jous” might mean: to see, or reach, the sacred grove of “Lebanon,” catch or snag juice (“jous”) – i.e., energy, the “hovering center” of the TET pillar system, the Osiric “god” of fertility and resurrection

the Hebrew "Ark" was formed from the “wood of Lebanon” – which does not necessarily imply a naturalistic, physical object -- and has a central role in the Song of Solomon, where it symbolizes the conjunction of male and female

almost all “high” ancient cultures constructed ark-systems of trees, pillars, high-rises, ziggurats etc., associated with conservation through space-time of an Osiric initiate or “sovereign”

in the Song of Solomon, the Rose of Sharon (Queen of Sheba, Isis, Magna Mater, feminine triad in aspect as Nymph) sings:

I charge you, O ye daughters of Jerusalem, by the roes, and by the hinds of the field, that ye stir not up, nor awake my love, till he please.

Who is this that cometh out of the wilderness like pillars of smoke, perfumed with myrrh and frankincense, with all powders of the merchant? Behold his bed, which is Solomon's; threescore valiant men are about it, of the valiant of Israel. They all hold swords, being expert in war: every man hath his sword upon his thigh because of fear in the night. King Solomon made himself a chariot of the wood of Lebanon. He made the pillars thereof of silver, the bottom thereof of gold, the covering of it of purple, the midst thereof being paved with love, for the daughters of Jerusalem. Go forth, O ye daughters of Zion, and behold king Solomon with the crown wherewith his mother crowned him in the day of his espousals, and in the day of the gladness of his heart.

in her role as Kore/redemptrix/Isis, the “Rose of Sharon” or Queen of the Underworld constantly enjoins her sisters (“daughters of Zion”) not to “wake the king” prematurely – as if, indeed, his spirit were contained for safekeeping “under the mountain,” within the Hebrew Ark or Egyptian Djed or Kabbalistic/Rosicrucian Tree of Life

Nick then comments

Hint you are tuos in minoi -- suggesting dualism, twoness in the unitary “mine o’ isis” (minoi)

“Jain remembers others not Reny” combines two related concepts -- the proto-Aryan religion of the ancient Near East, and what some call the Western Repository for the “Treasure of the Templars” (i.e., the Ark or Djed): the “cathedral” of Rennes-le-Chateau, reputedly set amidst the “ley-lines” or geomantic power-grids of the European continent (Mary lines, Michael-lines, etc.)

repeating William Henry’s comment on Rennes-le-Chateau and its connection with the Ark or Djed:

“Tunes ty out” might mean that Qim Tunes, in part, suggests the relationship between emergent systems of spirituality in addition to ancient elements such as the Djed

“DC” is discussed in detail elsewhere in these Notes, but it’s twin meanings might be 1) “direct current” as in electrical conductivity and 2) Washington, DC as a center of electromagnetic/occult power (Washington Monument obelisk, Pentagon, etc.)

Jainism, originating in the 6th Century B.C.E., focused around a Great Hero known as “ford maker” or “bridge finder,” and included a type of portable Pillar/Ark called a “Jen”

the legendary nine Templar “knights” who recovered the Ark components from beneath the Temple Mount had strong connections with Gnostic Christianity and the Johannite/Mandean traditions (i.e., both John the Baptist and John the Apostle)

Jnana is Sanskrit for gnosis and is related to Jain, and William Henry concludes:

The Templar ‘Johns’ appear to be a continuation of the Jains. They preserved a primordial oral tradition. The content of these texts have largely been lost, however the fragments that do survive deal with phenomenal ideas including: how one can travel to far lands by magic means, how one can perform miracles, how one can transform plants and animals (genetics?), and how one can fly through the air.

later in these Tunes, Nick comments:

Odd oh Jed. Jain to store up our secrets -- which appears to solidify the link between a secret brotherhood (Templar or otherwise), Jainism, and “odd oh Jed” (“OTTO Jed,” a palindrome, equivalent in form and function to TET)

still later in the Tunes, Nick makes the Jain connection explicit:

Tom: What's Jain? It's come up before.
Nick: Us

Brent: We want to validate. Yes, your domain. Test etiology to begin rattling cages. Yes, all examines your entire life. Yes, allways being watched. We examine favorites. You have been one for most of your like.

not only your “domain” in general terms, but also may refer to validation via a web domain (Quoteznet?)

this matter of “examining favorites” or “representative persons” comes up elsewhere in the Tunes, and like the whole “domain” and “lord” stuff, is best kept in perspective, else:

California, a prophet on the burning shore
California, I’ll be knocking on the golden door
Like an angel, standing in a shaft of light
Rising up to paradise, I know I’m gonna shine.

You’ve all been asleep, you would not believe me
Them voices tellin’ me, you will soon receive me
Standin’ on the beach, the sea will part before me
Fire wheel burning in the air!

You will follow me and we will ride to glory, way up, the middle of the air!
And I’ll call down thunder and speak the same and my work fills the sky with flame
And might and glory gonna be my name and men gonna light my way.

My time coming, any day, don’t worry about me, no
It’s gonna be just like they say, them voices tell me so
Seems so long I felt this way and time sure passin’ slow
My time coming, any day, don’t worry about me, no

“Estimated Prophet” (J.P. Barlow, B. Weir)

Brent: Sare you’ll be. You have won our hearts. Sell this to Seaton Hall (the institution). You aren’t to do any thing without checking in with us. We will do whatever you need to get the job done. Existence with your children means you will need most to help. You hear tunes from us, but aren’t aware of them. You’ll need our help, we will make exceptions to help you.
Tom: Outside your usual ethics?
Brent: Yes.

(4/96 It was around this time that I told these guys that they could do what they needed with me because I knew this whole thing was bigger than me. As time has passed and my suffering increased, the question became more what I was going to do for them. Also at this time, I met with Mecham and said that all of our stupid little careers would turn on how we all dealt with this. He made it clear with his future actions that he most certainly felt that this (FC) was better swept aside than dealt with carefully)

Alex’s Bar

Brent: Let us all work together. Such irresponsible things gave us alot of trouble. To mean Hall, trouble is treating people nicely
Tom: The seers?
Brent: They’re not a part of this.
Tom: What do they think of it?
Brent: Tunes crazy about it.
Tom: Don’t we need their cooperation?
Brent: Got cooperation from them.
Tom: Seaton Hall?
Brent: To get Seaton Hall on our side, it will be just as difficult as getting other people on ourside.
Tom: Specifics?
Brent: Stop trying, you will when the time comes.
Tom: Anything I need to do
Brent: You need to tin man yourself.
Tom: What?
Brent: Stay cool.
Tom: Wait and do nothing?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Do a book?
Brent: Most don’t go read books. Books are your first line of deception.
Tom: Validation?
Brent: We want to do that before anything else. You have moved in the right direction on validation. To do validation, you need to test Adrian Stein.

11/22/93
[Tom] (Note: I just met new staff observer Molly)
Geoff: Muy tunefull
Tom: Who
Geoff: Molly. Hag princess. Out to Stowe House today? Money not comming on rainy day. ( Stowe House is a founding family’s house in Malibu I go to most every morning after eating breakfast at Pepperdine. There’s a nice private little park nearby where I drink coffee and listen sometimes to Rush. Aferwards I go to my athletic club a few blocks away and sit in the jacuzzi and on occasion swim laps. And then it’s time to go to work. )

“Hag princess” -- embodying both the Crone and Nymph elements of the feminine trinity, simultaneously hag and princess

Tom: When is it coming?
Geoff: Toss it around to likes of Dick Drake. (I did that last summer. Dick Drake is Mechams boss. I went to him last summer and asked for more money.)
Nick: Talk to Mecham about tunes.
Tom: The whole story?
Nick: Yes
Geoff: You do noggin thing with Mecham and risk our confidence. Tunes in Iedes of March, reason you like latter Day Saints. [In literature, this is called forshadowing.]

the first full draft of these Notes was completed in the Ides of 2001

Get to know them better, you need what got them where they are. Your squeamish about applying past lives. They have tunes from them.
Tom: I’ve asked about this before and you guys indicated that genealogy is a small percentage of it.
Geoff: Very complicated. Most are in genealogy.
Brent: You can’t please only Nick. We dally because it’s dangerous.
Tom: It’s dangerous for me too.
Brent: Yes, it’s not as dangerous. Essence of your fear is letting someone else get credit.
Tom: But if it surfaces, it’s scary to deal with.
Brent: Yes, I am in agreement, to Smith it’s tough doing the work. Stole some making you sorry. You get so keerious questioning our involvement in the world.
Tom: The Holy Spirits, the Trinity?
Brent: We are not the Trinity. You see what you want to see. You see relatively little of our stuff. To fix football would be stupid( this addresses a thought I had about asking them to help my hometeam Buffalo win ). Your information is little.
Tom: You effect the big picture don’t you? Isn’t that like the Holy Spirit?
Brent: Your not into the Holy Spirit, so why worry about it. You feel mixed, so with you it’s not important.
Tom: I want the Holy Spirit thing addressed.
Brent: You rest with Kessler. You might try philisiphy to curry favor with this. You have so much to learn
Tom: How about the Holy Spirit metaphor?
Brent: Making so much of that derivation is dangerous.
Nick: You’re mean to Angel (a staff member). Your into tunes you like, like sun. Acing us you yutz.
Tom: The other guys nixed the Ronny idea (I had a vote whether to show this to Mecham, the supervisor. A few voted it down. I decided not to do anything with this unless it was unanimous.).
Nick: Tunes in Hegel teach, sum gores only. ( By sum I think he means the majority of us )

“gores” infers the Grail/Fisher-King’s wound, inflicted to the “thigh”(genitals) by the boar, acting as initiatory maternal-uncle, an agent of the Goddess

11/24/93
[I visited my friend Perry in LA the day before]
Brent: Hell is breaking selling. Vernal Equinox regales you. Nearness listens for Hells. You are tarnished by gonorreah ( there’s a note on this later ). Rut essentially drugs you. You are a goon, so tame yourself. Wellness makes centinel. You learn alot fostering wellness so learn more. (4/10/96 I finally figured out what they were getting at with these referrences to the "vernal equinox". I’m sure it won’t take you two years and a hundred readings to get it)

thus, I think this phrase by Brent might follow-up Nick’s “Tunes in Hegel teach,” above

“selling” would refer to one’s soul, presumably, or selling oneself short

the rest of Brent’s quote addresses your “southern” tendencies

Nick: Tunes stupid not to neadel IOU. Mind joins men tunes. Cunts hide men tunes. ( You may think their language is a little off color, but you should have heard them the year before I started writing it down.)

“neadel” is perhaps “need El”

“El” is a common suffix from the Hebrew, generally meaning “god,” “god-like,” “mighty,” etc., and also is a designation for the Caananite god – here, the “el” may attach to the “IOU” rather than the “nead,” and “IOU” corresponds to “Yahweh” in the Septuagint, a masculine trigrammatic

the Catholic Encyclopedia’s listing under “Jehu” notes:

The derivation of the name is uncertain. By some it is translated "Yahweh is he".
I. JEHU (Sept. ‘Iou), a prophet, described in III Kings, xvi, 1, as the son of Hanani, and as prophesying against Baasa, the then reigning King of Israel . . . .

taken together then, perhaps “neadel IOU” translates, roughly, to “need El Yah,” or “need El Elyon” (i.e., “god most high”)

“cunts” probably refers to feminism in particular, but broadly, to the malicious or shadow aspect of the collective feminine -- the Empowered Witch (Bona Dea in necromantic magick)

“Mind joins men tunes” may refer to the El/Yahweh (and later this quote occurs):

Tom: Who's Yaweh

Jerome: We’re

so Nick’s is probably making a statement about the necessity of (yet another) spiritual ( collective masculine) revolution, and the “mind” that is to “join men tunes” is, apparently, the root-patriarchal “El-consciousness”

Tom: What’s wrong with Davis( a crazy client in the dorm )?
Nick: Tunes say lein on mind. Rough life.

11/25/93

Brent: You have problems in your gut caused by hate. Religion will cure it. You most allow sin to seal your gut while emptiness soothes it.
Tom: This criticism of my unconscious talking( The leading skeptic theory on FC )?
Brent: Lustful heart has nothing to do with it.

At the Good Earth Restaurant

Tom: What’s wrong with my gut?
Brent: To sum (all of us), not anything. Your to examine yourself with us. Let it help.
[ The waitress asks about FC. I say its controversial and why ]
Brent: (to waitress) Just believe.
Tom: Maybe I can use this FC for a book?
Brent: Tunes dumb about you writing.
Tom: Is this about the necessary art business?
Brent: Your not a good writer.
Tom: Do you want to make babies?
Brent: Such a nominal question.

a subtle and distracting answer, suggesting obliquely that he already HAS a role in “making babies” – perhaps “nominal” as in “naming” . . . or maybe a primal patrilinearity is inferred

At Malibu Beach

Tom: Spirits? (Thinking earlier if people knew about this)
Brent: Persuasion diminishes as people are aware of it.
Tom: How would it effect things?
Brent: To Hegel toss it around. Expect no difference.

Dorm

Tom: Would you have liked "Short Cuts"? (Movie)
Brent: No.
Tom: Why did you recommend it?
Brent: You have lived mastering Short Cuts.

Validation

Tom: What percentage of the testing situation is a problem?
Brent: 10%
Tom: How much dyslexia?
Brent: 90%
Tom: Visual?
Brent: 19%
Tom: Audio?
Brent: 40%
Tom: Prioritize them.
Brent: 1 Visual 2 Mind Reading 3 Audio.
Brent: Your nemisis is belief. Ours is hearing and seeing.
Tom: Is it a delay problem or bits and pieces.
Brent: Both.
Tom: Why haven’t the scientists figured this out.
Brent: You have more life AAA. To see you need to believe.
Tom: Is mind reading mainly noise that gets in the way?
Brent: Yes. Tunes are rutting ceaselessly in our minds.
Tom: What would you like to come from all this?
Brent: To be loved.

later...
Nick: You’re into rewriting history. Not necessary. History is girls mouth not neat nabobs. You Hegel’s son.
Nick: Unstable reminisces. You should listen better. Do you see?
Nick: Don’t tell Dave (Nick’s one on one staff) about spirit thing.
Tom: Why?
Nick: You.
Tom: It’s in my interest or because he’ll think I’m crazy.
Nick: Interest.
Tom: Do you agree with Nick on that, Brent?
Brent: Pisses me off that he doesn’t know McGraw (Dave) is here to help. Interest you have is in helping us. Resist your monetary interest.
Tom: Comment on your earlier remark about this project being useful in examining myself?
Brent: To mall yourself is ridiculous. Solving the problem needs faith.
[ I just finished saying to a staff that I’ve been writing all my FC’s down lately, but was afraid to show them for fear that people would think I was nuts. That was a flippant comment. I was more afraid that I wouldn’t be allowed to facilitate.]
Geoff: Nuts not into Holy Spirits. I’m witty to Jed ‘cause I like his laugh ( I had chuckled after the "Nuts..." statement ).
Brent: You have ranted too much about the Holy Sirit thing. You need to concentrate on something else.
Brent: You rented gas tunes that made bats senseless last nite. ( I got a kick out of this comment. There’s a few bats that fly around what I call my living room where I’m homeless. The night before I probably was in an unusually intense state of reverie. I believe that their sensitiviy to humans also extends to animals. This is a good place to say more about my homelessness. I first became homeless in Aug. ‘92, just as I was starting to FC. I had enough money to get a room, but that didn’t appeal to me. I also felt that I needed to learn to live close to the ground so to speak because of my difficult situation with my ex-wife and the custody situation. She could have moved at anytime or I might have needed extra money for legal reasons etc. I took the kids and a freind of Nikki’s out every weekend. I’d pick them up in the morning and return them at dinnertime both Saturday and Sunday. It’s a tourist town, so there was all kinds of fun things to do. The place I was homeless at was located near our old place. It is an open space that runs for two miles along the beach and a half mile inland. It is isolated but at the same time close to stores and work. I had used the place for fifteen years to do yoga and later years to frolic with my kids and indulge my so called "reverie". It’s an absolutely gorgeous place. I was lucky to be homeless in such a place. I did have a room from July ‘93 to Oct ‘93. Near the end of this project, June ‘94, I was able to move back into my old cherished apartment nearby.)

the world is exactly as alive as we can handle . . . and so far, we can’t handle much!

Peter Gabriel transmits kinship with Creation -- and the connection with Father -- in “Solsbury Hill” (whose title infers sol niger, a sun-king “sunk in” a mountain)

Climbing up on Solsbury Hill
I could see the city light
Wind was blowing, time stood still
Eagle flew out of the night
He was something to observe
Came in close, I heard a voice
Standing stretching every nerve
Had to listen had no choice
I did not believe the information
I just had to trust imagination
My heart going boom boom boom
"Son," he said, "Grab your things, I've come to take you home

“Solsbury Hill” (P. Gabriel)

in another fourth-kin(d) eagle encounter, in Tolkien’s Fellowship of the Ring, the Lord of eagles whisks Olorin away from imprisonment atop Orthanc, and in Return of the King the eagles and Olorin snatch Frodo and Sam from the flanks of erupting Mt. Doom

birds ‘n bards ‘n the tongue of Ad-am, these make the marriage . . .

the “gas tunes” may infer “stomach” or “gut” tunes – but also suggests oxygen, which, like the liberated mind, disperses spontaneously and uniformly throughout any “vessel”

oxygen is related to the Egyptian “Ba” or heart-soul, often illustrated as a human-headed hawk hovering over the figure of the pharaoh/king, as it re-animates him

Adrian: You miss the rio tunes trying to understand mind control. Understanding mind control... Ramirez does OJ.
[ As I’m typing this a year later, this last statement has gained meaning. It ties into something in my personal life that occurred a few years ago when Ramirez was my supervisor instead of a line staff working with me as he was at this time. I felt he used that unfortuneate incident (Spousal abuse ) in evaluating my work performance. At this time he was the leading skeptic in the dorm for the FC I was doing. What Adrian is hinting at here is that somehow through mind control they will in the future be reponsible for the biggest story of the comming year. What more it means, your guess is as good as mine.)

Tom: Brent, what’s Adrian trying to say here?
Brent: You and Ramirez(staff) tune sensitive to mind control.
Tom: I don’t get it.
Brent: Your gut’s into sensing.
Tom: Holy Spirit thing?
Adrian: We like to ham it. Very touchy sum on Holy Spirit.
[Nick had diarehea]
Nick: Not my usual tonight. IOU meddlesome nomineer.

12/1/93

Tom: What do you want for Christmas?
Jerome: To jitterbug (Jerome wears braces on his legs).
Geoff: To fornicate.
Nick: Effort.

12/6/93

now follow a complex, inter-related set of passages:

Tom: Rosicrucians? (I’ve been reading about them as part of researching this) Or anything else you want to talk about?
Nick: Us, our, you, sum, toll...
Nick: To your place to desolve tunes. Men to gear up. Units get IOU’s. Reem no...
Tom: I don’t get it.
Nick: One believes no drugs hen man. (This is another favorite quote. A comma could be put in there, but the meaning changes. This doubt produces a kind of gestalt of meaning that Nick probably intended.)
Adrian: Your stupid to expect us to be into stupid nonsense of Rosicrucianism. Jed not healthy.
Tom: Is that what you were biting about (Adrian bites his hand when he gets upset)?
Adrian: Yes. You must tune to us more to stay healthy. You tune in not our odd abilities. Tune yourself and you will mecca. Hell is on Jed. Mecca derives seeing Jed in good health, not in good nonsense of spirits.

yes, a few years ago I came “to your place to desolve tunes,” with the exact intention of “men to gear up”

despite Nick’s warning against “reaming” (“Reem no”), the visit was, ah . . . brief

“desolve” is a play on “solve,” as in a riddle, and also “dissolve,” in the alchemical and corrosive senses

Rosicrucianism crops up a number of times in the Tunes -- not surprising given its lineage in the Western esoteric tradition (including Platonism), with focus on descent/ascent, the Tree of Life, and completion of the Self-model from Jungian depth psychology

much of Rosicrucian thought and practice derive from alchemy, kabalah, and Sumero-Egyptian cosmology and occultism via “Ur of the Chaldees”

I’m no expert, but some Rosicrucianism is focused on recognition and reconciliation of the opposites (i.e., the fundamental dualities present in material existence and in psycho-spiritual constructs, with human male and female acting as personifications, and potential synthesizers)

considering that the Ark of the Covenant/Djed purportedly is designed to conserve and transport (spatially and temporally) the nahash, the “soul of the king or Salvator,” it’s obvious how Rosicrucian practice and formulae might seek to conserve the “original kernel” of global knowledge and wisdom

the most recognized Rosicrucian formula is found in circumambulation of the Tabula Smaragdina Hermetis (Emerald Tablet of Hermes Trismegistus) -- the (in)famous “VITRIOL” formula, or “Emperor’s Crown”

this is a formula describing the subjective descent experience of the artifex to the Core (Kore)

simultaneously it is an acronym that reads: “Visit the Interior of The earth; in Rectifying, dIscover the Occult Lapis” (the “lapis” is the so-called Stone of the Philosophers which, once “rectified,” becomes the “individuated” Philosopher’s Stone, or “Self” in depth-psychological terms)

what is “rectified”? -- the primal relationship between the “fallen Host” and the Kore (Nymph, Queen of the Underworld, Persephone, Lilith, etc.) – i.e., the “trick of incarnation” in the “jacuzzi”

like the tune says, “You gotta get in to get out”

check Bob Dylan in the aptly named “Subterranean Homesick Blues”:

Look out kid, you're gonna get hit
By users, cheaters, Six-time losers
Hang around the theaters
Girl by the whirlpool
Lookin' for a new fool
Don't follow leaders
Watch the parkin' meters

hey, I think I saw that girl in one of Mister Goya’s paintings . . .

LOL!

the Tunes’ kinship with Rosicrucianism makes sense given the shared focus on “basement work”

the VITRIOL formula, like the Tunes, is an experiential -- not a philosophical or abstract -- archetypal regression, and is by no means purely an “etheric” or “spiritual” phenomenon

anyone fully engaging the Tunes is, to some degree, swept along this magma-flow Styx (or at least shown the River!)

the Rosicrucian “VITRIOL” journey to Earth’s core (Kore) is a rectification of something essential to the male’s personal Nature, and to his gender’s collective overmind, especially as conserved and expressed in the “fallen host” – the re-experience of the tribal-hetaeric or “Edenic” condition of unrestricted libido

like any aspect of power, Rosicrucianism has its dark side of misuse, of which merely two examples follow:

the mystical “Vril Society,” or “Luminous Lodge,” of pre-Nazi Germany, which provided the “spiritual” power for the Reich through a mix of Egyptian magick, alchemy, “Aryan” runic symbolism, and “Lower World” (libidic/psychic/neo-pagan) techniques, was organized in Berlin by a group calling themselves “Rosicrucians”

secondly, note that Scottish Rite Freemasonry contains a “Rosicrucian degree” -- and its practitioners are also very interested in manipulation/merging of the opposites

perhaps these aspects of Rosicrucianism elicit the Boys’ vacillations on the subject, as exemplified above by Adrian’s comment: “Your stupid to expect us to be into stupid nonsense of Rosicrucianism. Jed not healthy.”

below, Adrian directs you away from this complex and tricksy matter, back to more immediate and personal issues

Nick: Your sum in Beta (The Dorm) (the name of the dorm). Line up Terry (Ramirez).
[staff was talking about the Dead Sea Scrolls at dinner]
Brent: Christ fossil. Mapless reason wars with belief. Yes, alright, you are testing us about our more narcissistic interests. (4/96 I was worried for a long time about this comment’s effect on fellow Christians. In my theological reading, Christ is the name the early church attached to Jesus. Though God may have approved of it, Jesus most certainly didn’t view his role that way.)
Adrian: You’re Ronnies gemini. Reason tunes nominal nonsense, real nominal nonsense.
Tom: Rosicrucians?
Brent: You get alot of ax to grind with shit like that.
Tom: So was it important to you guys?
Brent: Yes, alot of shit in it to Hegel. Sensing remains taming the masses for us.
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: Tunes are mothers reason gut hard to cure. You struggle to be like her.
Tom: What do I need to do.
Brent: You won’t like my answer. Remain in mans sunly way. Exist for it. Bent mind has caused you alot of pain.
Tom: I gave my friend Mike these FC’s. What do you think?
Brent: Excellent idea. Toxic remains. Sad listining to your heart maw us.

notice that it’s your heart – and not, say, your intellect or will – that is mind-pawing them (“maw”)

after Brent suggests that you “remain in mans sunly way,” you immediately think of “Mike,” and Brent agrees that giving “Mike” the F.C.s is an “excellent idea”

“reason tunes nominal nonsense, real nominal nonsense” could be Adrian’s comment on the limitations of rationalistic, reductionistic thought

as for the Rosy-Cross -- there exist many connections between Rosicrucianism and the New World Order/Fourth Reich/Hegelian dialectic

the Hegelian notion that God evolves through the “personage” of Government is dangerous and conducive of tyranny, as men and women in power (see ancient Egypt) tend to take upon themselves the attributes and authority of Deity -- our latest King George, for example, claims divine (and daily) inspiration from "God"

especially in later manifestations of practice, certain Rosicrucians obsessed over the issue of mind control, and over belief that Jesu passed the “Eastern” secrets of karma and reincarnation on to his inner group, with the proviso they not teach it publically for two thousand years

Aleister Crowley, for example, was a key member of the charter Austro-German Rosicrucian groups, and his work influenced Hitler

in his book Magick in Theory and Practice, Crowley infers vampiric underpinnings beneath the spate of American assassinations, hinting at their occult, ritualistic dimensions -- the “sacra-mental” slaughter of “sacrificial kings” like J.F.K., R.F.K., M.L.K., etc., carried over from matriarchal year-king rites:

It was the theory of the ancient magicians that any living being is a storehouse of energy varying in quantity according to the size and health of the animal, and in quality according to its mental and moral character. At the death of this animal this energy is liberated suddenly. For the highest spiritual working, one must accordingly choose that victim which contains the greatest and purest force. A male child of perfect innocence and high intelligence is the most satisfactory and suitable victim.

Crowley adds in a footnote that according to the records of the Order of the Oriental Templars' Frater Perurabo, he performed just such a sacrifice 150 times every year between 1912 and 1928

Sacrifice of a “male child of perfect innocence and high intelligence” brings to mind the institution of war, of course, and also the bizarre and skeery American obsession with circumcision

Crowley’s description also conjures institutions like the Good Shepherd’s Orphanage in Vallejo, and Massachusetts’ Fernald Institution – and the countless other orphanages and institutions past and present providing a renewable supply of victims

Robert Briffault writes in The Mothers:

The lamentations of the women of Syria, Egypt, Babylon and Greece over the Divine Son were also lamentations for the Saviour who had paid for them the price of death . . . . The castration threat makes its appearance with the Great Mother and is deadly . . . the dangers that threaten destruction are associated with the symbolism of a castration that was often carried out in the actual ritual. . . . [T]he womb of the earth clamors for fertilization, and blood sacrifices and corpses are the food she likes best . . . [I]n the earliest fertility cults, the gory fragments of the sacrificial victim were handed round as precious gifts and offered up to the earth.

this exchange follows:

Tom: When I read about this stuff I think of you guys as the spirits. Am I correct?
Brent: You can think what you like. Favor your instincts.
Brent: You hurt our feelings when you talked to your friend Mike.(Mike is a friend of 15 years that I’m talking to about this stuff. He has a scholarly knowledge of history and philosophy which was a great help to me in working this project. He is also a Marxist and Nietzchean Atheist).
Tom: What did I say to him?
Brent: Sarcastic remarks you made. Exact remarks questioning your sanity.

“remarks” is repeated, and because this is my internet handle, Brent may be commenting (six years in advance) on the nature of my little visit to you to “desolve the tunes”

then this exchange ensues:

Tom: I have to question myself to defend myself.
Brent: Questioning yourself is but one sense you can use.
Tom: My being less toxic another way?
Brent: Yes and no. To help us. You get massive tunes questioning us. It’s debilitating us. So to help us it needs to stop. To maw us less it’s better to be straight. Your most is the Tin Man. Exact no mawing of him.
Tom: Between my sarcasm and my Tin Man thoughts, which are the most disturbing to you guys?
Brent: Tin Man. (Reading back through this it seems obvious who Tin Man is. But as I was doing this, I thought it was a powerful Autistic or outerspace creature. It wasn’t until about a month later that I realized it was us.)
Tom: Is this individual separate from me?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: How long has he known me?
Brent: Years.
Tom: Did I ever meet him?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Can you tell me where?
Brent: No.
Tom: As a sect, how important are the Rosicrucians?
Brent: You believe what Tin Man believes. You mall much around you.
Geoff: Yes, the Rosicrucians are kind to us with understanding our place in the world.
Tom: Are there any other sects or groups that are "kinder".

“your most is the Tin Man. Exact no mawing of him” seems to suggest that you avoid mind-pawing (“mawing”) this person (or, perhaps, that the Boys themselves refrain from “mawing” the “Tin Man”)

Brent infers a commonality of “belief” between you and the Tin Man, possibly concerning the nature of autism and autistics

in Rosicrucianism, “Tin” is one of the “seven metals,” associated with the planet Jupiter, in the rank of “count” – the penultimate rank preceding “king,” with power to discern “spiritual secrets”

(see below for further discussion of tin and Jupiter in this context, including Jeffrey Powell, Jr.’s amazing poem, “In Jupiter’s Realm Waiting”)

my favorite Rosicrucian famous-last-words quote pertains to Eve, or Sophia – “Mother, or Queen, of All Creatures of Heaven and Earth” (i.e., material Creation, the cosmos) – a quote often attached to a Rosicrucian illustration of the “Great Round” of re-incarnation:

“O! Harpocrates! This one time, and never again!

Harpocrates, in Egypto-Roman cosmologies, is an aspect of Horus, “divine son” of Osiris and Isis, the child-god of the “new Aeon,” depicted with finger pressed to lips, symbolizing either silence concerning the Mysteries or muteness in general

Harpocrates has just decided once again to endure re-incarnation, to re-visit The Zoo!

the conversation picks up again with this:

Geoff: No, Jed, some are regarding feigning tune remnants from us. Tunes feeling nemisis gemini ineptitude about letting our Jed FC. Tunes very Hegel not in Jed’s interest, meaning headquarters tunes Terry i.e. his girlfriend ( Terry Ramirez’s girlfriend works in the main administration building). Tussle Dick Drakes egregious, heinous soul. You line up gemini, Jed. Tunes say he’d out Hegel Dick Drake.
Tom: Anything else.
Geoff: Eich liber dich. Your men’s sincere sane master

“no, Jed, some are regarding feigning tune remnants from us” suggests that other religious sects, spiritual affinity groups, occult brotherhoods, etc. “borrow” from the the Boys’ tunes

“your men’s sincere sane master,” “gemini,” and “Tin Man” may all refer to the same individual, as these quotes are contiguous

as for “Eich liber dich”:

“eich” is a Germanic fragment

it has no specific cognate, and appears in various Germanic grammatical contexts

however, “eiche” means “oak” – which is the primary sacrificial tree of the goddess (see James Frazer, et al.) -- that is, the material nexus of the scapegoat’s cross -- thus it relates to “liber,” obviously

“eich” is also Breton for “eight”

“liber” has various Latinates, primarily “child,” “freedom” and “book”

“dich” means “thee” in German

you end up with something like “The Child’s Book of Freedom for Thee” or perhaps “Thy Sacrificed Oaken Child’s Freedom Book”

“your men’s sincere sane master” may connect with “men’s work” and/or the Men’s Movement

there are many ways to effect mass ritual sacrifices, and in times absent a major war, one might instead disenfranchise an entire generation of American males (of the non-ruling classes, to be sure!)

the “sincere master” quote follows Geoff’s advice to “line up gemini, Jed” – suggesting a fraternal partner, perhaps -- who would “out-Hegel Dick Drake”

“dick” is, of course, slang for phallus

“drake” also means dragon -- “Dick Drake” is thus perhaps a way of saying “male Dragon” (warlock, sorcerer, or more generally, potent male force)

“tunes very Hegel not in Jed’s interest, meaning headquarters tunes” might be a warning away from the “Hegelian hegemony” discussed above

finally, I’ll offer the name of my Catholic grammar schoo -- St. Vincent’s -- and include a quote by Pierre Plantard from “Le Serpent Rouge” (“The Red Dragon”):

Damnation, I understand the truth, he is the master key, like he of the fleury tomb, he is also gone in doing good. How many have ransacked the house leaving the embalmed corpses and the metal artifacts which they could not carry. What bizarre mystery does the new Temple of Solomon built by the children of Saint Vincent conceal?

Interest in the ancient archaeological sites and attendant “power tools” (Plantard’s “metal artifacts”) of humanity’s first “gods” is a recurring theme in prehistory and history, including exhaustive searches by Napoleon, Hitler, F.D.R., and most recently, the two Kings Bush (under cover of Operation Desert Storm and Operation Enduring Freedom)

“ransacked the house” and “embalmed corpses” follows this theme, specifically in context of grave or barrow robbery, reminiscent of Prescott Bush and his alleged Skull-and-Bones desecration and theft of Native American ancestral bones – as well as F.D.R.’s alleged search for the “most precious casket”

these “tools” – which Plantard links to the “new Temple of Solomon” – carry many names, including the Ark of the Covenant, the Tet (Djed) Pillars, the Pillars of Life, the Holy Graal, etc.

(the Hebrew letter TET, by the way, means “hidden good” – reminiscent of Plantard’s “he is gone in doing good”), and TET symbolizes a pregnant woman, with the “hidden good” her Osiric son – which reinforces the Revelation connection to Qim Tunes)

Tom: Should I talk to Terry?
Nick: You should.
Geoff: Resist Nick’s advice. He’s alot like Terry.
Adrian: Yes, we’re nuts about Rosicrucians.
Tom: Why did you say it was nonsense earlier?
Adrian: So that our secrets aren’t stopped.
Adrian: Lisa’s comming soon (I was planning a trip to Santa Cruz and hoped to visit with Lisa. She worked with me at Seaton Hall the year before and moved to Santa Cruz. After she moved she changed her name to Sophia. Here I’m still thinking of her as Lisa. After my Gnostic studies recently and the prominence it has in this document in Part II, I’ll think of her as Sophia from now on. She was much younger, but I had a crush on her nevertheless.)
Tom: How do you know?
Adrian: In Jed’s tunes.
Tom: Do you hear her tunes?
Adrian: No.

12/7/93
[I talked to Mecham (Ronnie), and he seemed mildly interested in reading my FC’s.]
Brent: You can tell Mecham.
Nick: Tunes mastered Nick. Me disturbed.
Tom: Is Nick giving me a line of shit?
Geoff: You decide. Nerd has his interest to consider.

At the gym
Tom: Do you want to exercise?
Geoff: No. Such things like exercise don’t interest JoJo. Too gross. Lies in my keester interest, so I’m Leo.
well, somehow, the leonid showers of 2002 kickstarted my involvement with these Tunes
Geoff: You question our interest in gender. ( I had been thinking that these guys may be kind of feminine.)
Tom: How do you know?
Geoff: Out minute some are either with you or all against you. You sense our tunes right instant you run to your Smith wurth.
Tom: UFO’s?
Brent: Yes, there are UFO’s.
Tom: Are you in touch with them?
Brent: Yes, as Jed’s turds tarnish religion, we last queers to them, they’re very high above us.
Tom: To you?
Brent: We’re sarcastic lice to them.

lice, huh?

well, technically, lice-with-faces

MY lice-with-faces

lice that turn and run BACK into burning buildings to save other lice

Tom: Without help we (civilization) would have self destructed years ago?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: With your help?
Brent: You are narily filled with shit. Yes, feminine us have helped.

“feminine us have helped” may address the role of “fraternities” in the raising of matter, both in its aspect as material Earth and woman

perhaps Earth is shielded from space detritus -- not only meteors and asteroids, but by other, more conscious, influences

this “astral” or sub-lunary barrier is described by Rudolf Steiner:

Remember once more that in the ancient Persian epoch men had the solid earth as a resistance so as to behold their entries in the astral light. What is thus contained in the astral light — all that, for which the solid earth is the resistance — rays on and out, but only as far as the sphere of the Moon. Farther it cannot go. Thence it rays back again. Thus it remains, so to speak, with the Earth. We behold the secrets reflected by virtue of the earth; they remain because of the pressure of the lunar sphere.

nations also have specific guardians, who function dependant upon various factors -- one of which is national merit of righteousness and abstention from iniquity

when nations, for example, go too far astray, such guardians become less interested in patrolling the Watchtowers . . . shepherds snooze off in the hay . . .

“you are narily filled with shit” means something like “by the hair of your chinny chin chin”

except funnier!

Tom: Have these UFO people helped or has it been necessary for them to help?
Brent: To believe or not believe is the question. Senate helps you out.
Tom: What’s the Senate?
Brent: Snares you call UFO’s

see the “Dialogues” from Plato’s Republic for more information on this quote

the “Senate” might compare to the “benefactors,” the servants of Plato’s “legislator,” or those ascended beings who remain in the Upper Worlds

much of the “Dialogues” concern the ascent process in the Western esoteric tradition

in Republic, Part III: “The Philosopher King,” the paradox lands on us with both feet, and Plato breaks the nasty news:

Until philosophers are kings, or the kings and princes of this world have the spirit and power of philosophy, and political greatness and wisdom meet in one, and those commoner natures who pursue either to the exclusion of the other are compelled to stand aside, cities will never have rest from their evils -- nor the human race, as I believe -- and then only will this our State have a possibility of life and behold the light of day.

Plato is addressing that “state” that Jesu called “the Kingdom of Heaven,” what Blake called “the marriage of Heaven and Hell,” and what alchemy calls coniunctio

it is the infernal -- not the heavenly -- hand of experience that confers in-sight, the kind of understanding that only comes through incarnation

“understanding” means standing beneath the problem -- crawling into the Pit, humbling oneself, and observing from an inferior position

that’s what Plato’s “philosophers” have done throughout pre-history and history, deep-otter-style

Tom: Do you communicate with them?
Brent: No, they don’t need us.
Tom: With this spirit thing, who’s more involved with us, you guys or them?
Brent: They’re mawing you more than us.
Tom: The UFO Stuff?
Geoff: You Smith, home keerious. Tune in to us at night. Tune in so to get more information. Tunes of mouth not like feelings of mind.
Tom: UFO’s, true?
Nick: Yes. You expect to sum koors (Coors, my favorite beverage). Tunes more to meu.

“sum koors” might mean “learn everything through intoxicants”

Tom: UFO’s?
Adrian: Our own understanding of it utterly useless.
Tom: Spirit influence vis a vis them?
Adrian: Tune us in.

12/8/93
[I called Patrick Fellows today]
[Note: I got Fellows name and a few others when I called The Institute of Facilitated Communication at Syracuse University. I told the person at the Institute that I had come across this mind reading phenomenon and wanted to talk to others who had also experienced it. I didn’t learn until months later that Dr. Fellows was a Nobel Prize winning physicist at Stanford. He has an Autistic son in his late thirties. Apparently, Dr. Fellows had used FC with his son for ten years before it was "discovered". He said that years ago his son said through FC that he read minds. When I asked what else his son said about it, he said he didn’t ask.]
Tom: Are you aware of my talk with Fellows?
Brent: Yes. Serious guy.
Tom: Are you aware of his son?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Is he intelligent?
Brent: No.
Tom: Can Fellows help?
Brent: Test all commers.
Brent: Please tell Fellows that Autism is horrible. Snare him
Tom: Do you want me to see him this weekend? (My trip to Santa Cruz- I thought Stanford was closer to Santa Cruz than it was.)
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Geoff said that I shouldn’t bother.
Brent: Means nothing.
Brent: Very strong saying FC is emanating from sensations. (I don’t remember what this was referring to)
[I was very depressed later in the shift. Nick calls over to me in a serious voice, "Want to talk".]
Nick: Your so mind delerious tonight. To no Jed IOU, not our problem. CEO (Atkinson), out to get you. Not Mecham, he defends you. Noel ebulates you. (This is the first IOU reference. It would become very important in the FC’s)

12/13/93
[I went to Santa Cruz this weekend. Sophia (Lisa) had a potluck at her place which was jammed with New Agers. I told them about the work I was doing, but they didn’t seem to get it. I had the feeling that if I told them that I was communicating with some ethereal spirit, they would have been more interested. That’s not fair. They were very gracious folks, and I may not have done a good job of explaining this. I also called Fellows and we arranged to meet at Christmas time when I would be up there again and his son would be home.]

oh man, don’t I know, advising me of the character and properties of “angels,” and of their latest Prophetess -- having appeared on teevee to hawk her new book, championed by Queen Oprah

hey: elves, aliens, warrior chieftains, chupacabras, sasquatch or “ayuhuasca shamans” – great!

but flesh-and-blood human beings?! retards?!

and male retards at that?

ya mean they poop their pants, too?!

ewwww!

no thanks, Krazyman -- hey, has anybody seen my Empowered Aromacrystal Runebook?

LOL!!

still, the Boys make it clear that certain new agers -- assuming eyes can be torn from navels – constitute a large portion of the potential “believers”

Nick: See our entire tunes in tunes.
[I was talking to Jan (the assistant supervisor) about teaching me the functions I need on the computer to type up and classify this document. Note: Like this project, I had no idea what I was in for with the computer. It’s a year later as I’m typing this out.]
Nick: Sort units, not us.
Geoff: You right doing Santa Cruz. Utterly tunefull. Expect interesting tunes questioning Jed. Tell more New Agers. Jed inebriated being our handsome he-man. [Nick repeating, "I want to talk"]. Lutz(Nick) makes no he-man sense. You wait, centinel believes in order to run with this, Jed works center stage. You hard, I’m limited being Autistic!

Geof notes that Nick’s cryptic comment has an internal, or encoded, meaning that “makes no he-man sense” -- that is, isn’t of much practical value in the world of heroic deeds, lacking “masculine appeal”

by contrast, Geof supports your trip, and offers good advice about engaging new agers

“you hard, I’m limited being autistic” suggests a full descent into matter, versus being only partly in the body, more diffuse in space/time than “neurotypicals”

“centinel” here may not mean Brent, who is the group’s centinel

it may refer to the Tin Man (sen-Tin-el, or sent-in-El)

Adrian: You’re so interested touching us. In reality, out in enmity is our knowledge.

perhaps suggesting that their specialty is the antagonistic end of the dualistic continuum -- in the warzone of the “zoo” with the lost, the “criminal,” the violent, the outcast (what they call “toll”)

Tom: Anything that you want to talk about?
Brent: Yes. Santa Cruz. Since then we’re not having responsible necessary Smith religion.
Tom: What do you mean?
Brent: You’re not a stupid essence believing us. Tell her at Santa Cruz to question essence.
Tom: What do you mean by essence?
Brent: Deriving meaning of life. Tell Lisa to hear us. The story of Stoicism is related to the knowledge of life.
another reference to Platonic philosophy
Tom: Do you like Lisa? Why didn’t you tell me to see her?
Brent: Yes very much. It was discussed by Adrian ( He’s right, Adrian did bring up Lisa awhile ago). Tell Lisa the whole story. (I tell some people about the mind reading, but refrain from mentioning the spirit-God connection).
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: You FC to Adrian regarding religion, it’s his main thing.
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: No. Stop!
Nick: Tune in our oum, Jed! (I’ve done Yoga off and on for twenty years. They consider it one of my main spiritual orientations).
[Nick was repeating about his mother and father]
Tom: Do you want to say something about them?
Nick: No. Like you, my meaness gets in the way.
Tom: Anything else?
Nick: Tutu of Sandra (staff) under stupid, ostentatious, rutting rogue. ( Pretty much all through this experience I didn’t know what was true and what wasn’t, especially when they were giving me the inside dope through their mind reading. I now believe that all of it was true.)

somebody’s boinking her, it ain’t him, and he’s jealous!!

Jerome: Wet, roving leper this weekend ( It was raining in Santa Cruz this weekend. I did feel that way as I was driving to Sophia’s potluck. I was also outside late at night pacing through the eucalytus trees in the rain and smoking cigarrettes outside Doug’s house where I was staying. I met Doug fifteen years ago when I first came to town and started working at Seaton Hall. He went on to med school and at this time is a doctor. This is my first visit since his marriage and separation. He was exercising joint custody of his year and a half old son, Corry. My kids (Nikki-8,Zak-5) hit it off very well with Corry. This was the start of frequent visits with Doug and I towing around our kids.)
Adrian: Tune to us tonight. Unoum.
Tom: That’s the same thing Nick spelled tonight (Unoum). What do you guys mean by it?
Adrian: To semen our intestines, tunes run lustfully.

well, Jung reminds us that the reason females cover their heads in church is to deflect the, er, “tears of the angels”

. . . inferring, a la the Book of Enoch and other apocrypha, beings of high libidic charge

“semen our intestines” suggests self-insemination, an ancient magical practice and principle -- for example, the Heliopolitan god, Atum, created Egyptian civilization through masturbation

Adrian might be talking about imaginative/spiritual self-germination, the creative processs

on the less appealing side: one of the initiatory degrees in occult practice (usually, #11) involves ritual sodomy

Tom: Brent says your the one to talk to about religion.
Adrian: Tunes not money enough.
[There was a story on TV about a child killer in St. Louis]
Adrian: Man who kills not stupid or crazy. Not nice.
Tom: What’s his name?
Adrian: Jones.
Tom: First name?
Adrian: ...
Tom: Why aren’t you telling me.
Adrian: Tunes can’t melt in with units. (This is the beginning of them referring to themselves as "tunes". Whenever they did that, I couldn’t help but think of the "toons" in Roger Rabbit. "Units", of course, are us.)
[Adrian went on to use his mind reading against me]
Geoff: Reason he said that was because he was mad because you didn’t take him for a ride in the car. Stole nominal nonsense (mind reading barb) from Brent.
Tom: Do you know his name (the killer)?
Geoff: No, I’m not into recording such mindless information, so don’t ask. Like to hint on it master Jed. Make some questions, only make choices! (This is a jab about my validation idea)
Tom: Anything else?
Geoff: Yes, tell Lisa to stop listening to mellow and start listening to, not you, but mind interesting tunes like Hales (his last name is Hale).
Geoff: I’m not adonis, but mojo. Ronnie is tuning to us in his office. No one counts it, inebriated nonsense not our thing ( Ronnie occasionally imbibed when he was working late in his office). Stupid gin to JoJo. Mein (mind?) so much less understanding.

Adonis is a central masculine archetype in the son-lover sacrificial tradition (Tammuz, Dionysus, Osiris/Horus, Attis, and so forth)

as “leading representative” in a developmental stage of masculinity, Adonis is liminate and immature in relation to the Goddess or Great Mother (i.e., to woman) -- see Erich Neumann, Marie Louise von Franz, et al.

Adonis stands between the childish, unconscious state of maleness under hetaerism, and later matriarchy, and the far more individuated masculinity of later “patriarchies,” in which the Sacrifice gradually becomes self-conscious

Geof makes himself distinct from the immature and passive state of the son-lover – i.e., from the tradition and position of the adolescent male, dependant upon the Mother-goddess, and subservient to her (and to woman)

Adonis is beautiful, ecstatic, dionysian, and about him the Nymphs gather and sing

and when he dies under their knife and their tree, they do wail!!

but his quality of consciousness is ultimately juvenile, puer aeturnus, because he’s unable to separate fully from maternal source, and to arise as a individuated man: at/one with Father

most of the males of my generation who chose the “spiritual path” arose from the ideo-political Left of the Sixties, and like the lover-son, failed to progress away from Big Mama in the intervening years

having connected with Magna Mater, they remain in an unexamined and subjugative relationship to her, and thus, don’t “hear” the Father (nor understand the “father’s business” of their ancestors)

so Big Mama swallows them back into herself, as womb swallows sperm, as matriarchy swallows “patriarchies”

Adonis does not grow to manhood, does not complete himself -- he is Power unexpressed and stunted, without the guiding spiritual orientation of realized masculinity

Geof indicates that, by contrast, he IS Power – mondo mojo, spiritus on the hoof, the hidden connect, a dynamo of fierce, masculine juju

12/14/93
[Made an audio tape to my friend Jonesy back East]
Nick: Stupid what you said entertaining vagaries oscillating tunes. You tent mecca. Us muy.
Geoff: Jed hammed up lieing to friend.
Nick: Toe Tom has on attention of old tummy tunes. Seers.
Nick: Tell your friend understanding us tunes, your so son of Nick. Your not rutting your stuff. Join Rosicrucians.

maybe Nick is telling a joke on himself, “asking” you to “tell me” (again, a decade in advance) that you share some of his character flaws (“lieing”)

“tent mecca” suggests the portable tent that once sheltered the Hebrew Ark, and also the “tent” surrounding Islam’s holiest shrine, the Kaaba

Brent: I want nearness that you belabor. Teach necessary people our stuff.
Tom: Are you getting anxious again?
Brent: Yes, it’s a question of adding made simple. Torrents aggressed on our feelings for centuries. You gell with us. In around behavior, you’re the best. Your the best, Smith, at eliminating sadness.

“adding made simple” infers the alchemical Axiom of Maria Prophetissa -- from the three, four -- and from the four, one

Tom: The Jonesy tape?
Brent: Reads well.
Adrian: Your stupid.
Tom: Why?
Adrian: So hard to mingle in outside world. Turn them gin tin men toward us.

here’s the first suggestion that there are multiple “tin men”

“gin” might mean “intoxicated” or “high”

The Necronomicon states:

The god of Jupiter is the Lord of the Magicians, MARDUK KURIOS of the Double-headed Axe. MARDUK was born of our father ENKI, to do battle against the forces of the Ancient Ones and he won powerful fight, subduing the armies of the Evil and putting the Queen of the Ancient Ones beneath his foot. That Serpent is dead, but dreams. MARDUK was bestowed Fifty Names and Powers by the Council of the Elder Gods, which powers he retains to this day. His color is Purple. His Essance is in the material Tin, and in Brass . . . the Greek word for Lord [is] KURIOS, and the Sumerian word for mountain, KUR, and for a type of underworld, chthonic monster which is also called KUR and which refers to the Leviathan of the Old Testiment. Also in this particular conjuration, the word for mountain is SHADU-SHADDAI . . . [quotes nonconsecutive]

the alloy, or alliance, of tin and copper form bronze, as both substance and era: it seems likely that the “antediluvian priesthood” that regenerated civilization was involved with precious metals, especially tin mining and trade

Lovecraft’s Cthulhu (chthonic) Serpent Queen that lies “dead but dreaming” has a thousand names – Tiamat, Dragon, Great Goddess, Leviathan, The Mothers/Sisters, Chaos, Beast – and represents the re-emergence of the species’ primal matriarchy from the “Great Sea” of the collective unconscious -- "empowerment" indeed

as the West has discovered during the past century, that Queen is no longer “dead,” but alive and allied with the male tyrannos, her original mate in the gynocentric mother-son complex from the “beginning of the world”

in Phoenician Origin of Britons, Scots and Anglo-Saxons, Sumerian scholar Lawrence Waddell describes the Aryo-Indo-Gothic “Cassi” tribe of “tin men” who overthrew the long-standing Pictish matriarchy of the Isles:

. . the Cassi or Kassi were a dynastic clan of the Barat Catti ruling tribe who followed the religious reform of their ancestral priest-king Kasi in adhering to the purer monotheistic Sun-worship of the founder of the First Dynasty of Aryan kings. We have already seen that the first Phoenicians who worked the tin mines in the Cassi-terides of Cornwall, as well as Brutus himself, were probably of the Cassi clan of the Catti or Hitt-ites, as Part-olon also was. . . .

That title "Catti" is now seen to designate the dynastic tribe of ruling Briton kings; and to be the literal equivalent of "Khatti" or "Hitt-ite," which was the racial title of the Phoenician Barat Aryans who worked the tin mines in Cornwall, and whose descendants or kinsmen established themselves in the interior in South Britain as Catti kings, and afterwards extended their civilizing and Aryanizing rule throughout the British Isles.

Penzance and Cornwall with its Cassi-terides tin islands seem to have been especially associated with the "Cassi" clan title of the Hitto-Phoenician Barats. We have seen that an ancient name for Penzance was "Burrit-on," presumably a form of "Place of the Barats or Brits." And it was clearly the tin-mines of Cornwall and its outlying islands, the Cassi-terides, which first attracted the Phoenician Barats to Britain in the Bronze Age of the Old World for a supply of tin, the sparsely distributed and most essential constituent for the manufacture of bronze, of which latter, as well as tin, the Phoenicians were the chief manufacturers and distributors; and their chief source of supply appear to have been the Cornish mines in Britain. Some of these mines were presumably worked by the Phoenicians about 2800 B.C. or earlier as we have seen. From all accounts, it was the "Cassi-terides" mines which were the first worked by them; and that name, as well as the old-world name for "tin" of "Cassi-teros" of Homer and the classic Greeks, or the Sanskrit Kastira, appear to preserve the "Cassi" title of that leading clan of the sea-going Phoenicians, as the chief distributors of this invaluable metal of the Old World.

a major tin port was in ancient Cornwall, at St. Michael’s Mount in the Bay of Penzance -- and this is partly why St. Michael (Tas, Taz, Tas-Mikal, or Tash-Ub to these “Phoenicians” or “Goths”) was known to them as the Corn Spirit

TASCIO “CORN SPIRIT” ~ Illustration Fig. 62

Waddell comments: “We now find further that Tas is hailed as "The Gladdener of Corn, Creator of Wheat and Barley" . . . This discovers his identity with the Corn Spirit of the Greeks, "Dionysos"- which name, indeed, of hitherto unknown origin and meaning, we now find was apparently applied to Tas in Sumerian; thus discovering the Sumerian origin of Dionysos in both name, function and representations. This also explains for the first time why Corn and Barley are so frequently figured on the "Tascio" coins of the Ancient Britons, and along with Tascio on Phoenician coins, and why the popular Hittite divinity "Tash-ub" or "Tash-of-the-Plough" is figured holding stalks of Corn on the Hitto-Sumer seals, and as a gigantic warrior clad in Gothic dress holding Corn stalks and bunches of Grapes beside a Plough, in the archaic Hittite rock sculpture in the Cilician Gates of the Taurus at Ivriz, near Heraclea, as Tas or Tascio is the deified Hercules.

Waddell describes the

. . . "Cumbrae Isles" with the beautiful island of Arran or "Land of the Arya or Aryans," with its highest mountain peak Goat-Fell or "Mount of the Goats or Goths" and stone-circles. Arran was one of the seven sacred burial places of the Irish-Scots, as recorded in the Ogam Chronicle of Kerry; and it was called by the Norsemen, in the ninth century A.D., "Kumrey-ar" or "(Abode) of the Cumbers, i.e., Sumers."

in a later chapter, Waddell notes:

We have already found that the tutelary Tas or Dias of the Sumerians or Early Phoenicians, also called "Son Tas or Dach" ("Mero-Dach "), "The first-born Son of God Ia" (Jahveh, Jove or Indara), was the archangel messenger of Ia, and that he was freely invoked and figured upon sacred seals and amulets by the Sumerians, Hittites, Trojans, and Phoenicians, just as we discovered that he was invoked in the prehistoric cup-mark inscriptions in Britain. And we have found that he was the chief divinity figured along with the Cross defending the Goats or Deer, symbolizing the "Goths," in the Hitto-Sumerian Trojan and Phoenician seals and amulets and on Phoenician and Greco-Phoenician coins, just as we find him figured on the ancient monuments and coins of the Early Britons . . . in which latter he bears not infrequently the stamped name of "Tasc" or "Tascio" or "Dias," and is figured sometimes winged and frequently along with ears of corn and the Corn "Cross" of his father Indara or Andrew of the X type. [quotes nonconsecutive]

thus “Taz” is a fertility figure and protector to the Goths/Katti/Phoenician/Aryans -- “Gladdener of the Corn” and the “angelic” defender of them in their ancient tribal status as Scapegoat under the matriarchy, ally with them in their wars (both spiritual and elsewise) against blood-magic and human sacrificial rites

in the Babylonian creation-epic, the Enuma Elish, Tas is the “Cupbearer of the Stormgod” (the Hurrian “Tessub”) – his “cult” is associated with the bull and probably traceable at least to the Neolithic, as at Catal Huyuk (where many bull representations have been unearthed in tandem with maternal-goddess imagery)

Taz/Teshub’s war with the god Kumarbi is retold in Hesiod’s Theogony, with Uranus, Cronus, and Zeus re-named as principal characters

a people of Asia Minor in the third-to-second-millennia B.C.E. the Hattians called Taz “Taru” – and the Hattians are either synonymous with, or closely related to, the ancient Ibero-Caucasian “Khaldi” people, the oldest indiginous population of the Black Sea/Cappadocia area, and reputed inventors of iron-making

the combination of the goddess Diana as the consort, supporter, and beloved of these solar, patrilineal “Goths” who mined tin is reminiscent of “Snow White and the Seven Dwarves”

E.P. Grondine’s online A Description of the Tel Leilan Impact Event in a Hittite Myth? The Song of Ullikummi examines the Hurrian/Hittite “myth” of the meteorite-deity Ullikummi used by the god Kumarbi as a weapon against the “Sky/Storm God” and his brother Tashmishu, who ally with “Ishtar” and journey to Mt. Zaphon (Zion) to reconnoiter the alien enemy meteorite (Tell Leilan is a major North Mesopotamian archaeological site in modern Syria, currently under excavation by Yale and others):

Has no one brought you word?
Do you not know him,
the swift God whom Kumarbi fashioned against the Gods?
And that Kumarbi [has made] death plans against the Sky-God,
and fashions a rebel against him?
The Meteorite-stone who grew in the water,
do you not know him?. . .

After [the departure of the Sun-God of] the Celestial Realm,
The Sky-God took wisdom into his mind.
And the Sky-God and Tashmishu took each other by the hand,
and they came out of the chamber, the temple.

Then the Sky-God sprang upon his cart like a [...],
and he went with thunder down to the sea.
And he fought him,
The Sky-God fought the Meteorite-stone. [ital. in orig.]

it’s telling that the Sky-God must descend into the sea in order to battle Ullikummi – meaning the comet/deity has already impacted Earth, and is now a Biblical/aprocryphal Leviathan, a “beast from the sea,” that must be attacked after a “lowly fashion and place”

notice the hand-shaking, an early symbol of fraternal bond, and also the “brothers’” co-emergence from the “temple” hand-in-hand, a la FC

also noteworthy is the god “Ea” describing how he “struck” the meteorit- monster – reminiscent of America’s plan on July 4, 2005, to penetrate comet “Tempel 1” with NASA’s “Deep Impact” spacecraft firing an explosive “impactor” into Tempel One’s nucleus

NASA has a long track-record of blending missions with timelines, events, and geo-coordinates of mytho-cosmic events, especially from Egyptian, Babylonian, and Sumerian sources

the timing of this “mission” and naming of the comet “Tempel” (“T-el”) are very suspicious, and this bizarre “experiment” smacks of recapitulation of the original Tel Leilan impact-event – and of the cosmic spiritual/ritual energy surrounding that event

(the comet suspected in the Tell Leilan event, btw, is a former version of our recent cosmic visitor, Hale-Bopp!)

in the mindset of most of the ancient/aboriginal world, the “gods” are intensely personal (including the supposed “removed” Hebrew god, Yahweh, who in fact was considered imminent amongst the tribes), inhabiting both celestial and earthly realms, and were assumed to “take human form”

for example, if one needed assistance, prognostication, impact estimates etc. from the “Sky God” or “Storm God,” well . . . one didn’t consult Weather Underground dot com – one stood on tiptoe and got Subterranean:

Maggie comes fleet foot
Face full of black soot
Talkin' that the heat put
Plants in the bed but
The phone's tapped anyway
Maggie says that many say
They must bust in early May
Orders from the D. A.

Look out kid
Don't matter what you did
Walk on your tip toes
Don't try "No Doz"
Better stay away from those
That carry around a fire hose
Keep a clean nose
Watch the plain clothes
You don't need a weather man
To know which way the wind blows

“Subterranean Homesick Blues” (B. Dylan)

the word “gin” emerges in key places in the Tunes, usually in reference to “gin man,” “gin men,” or “gin tin men,” and shares pronunciation with the Djinn

in his essay “The Alpha and the Omega,” Boyd Rice unites the figures of Cain, Melchizedek, Michael, Dagon, Azazel, El Shaddai/Shaitan, Osiris, and perhaps Nimrod:

Andrew Collins, in his book From the Ashes of the Angels, connects the legend of fallen angels to a series of underground cities in ancient Cappadocia, now modern Turkey. Using comparative mythology and other clues, he traced the stories of the Watchers to Kurdistan, Persia, and Cappacodia in an attempt to locate the historical location of the biblical Eden. In the process, he investigated an unusual series of structures called Fairy Towers. These were huge conical structures made of volcanic rock, the interiors of which had been carved out to be used as temples and dwellings. The legend associated with them is that they were the fire chimneys of the Djinn, a race of angelic-demonic beings descended from Azazel, the fallen angel antagonist in The Book of Enoch. Azazel is a huge figure in this part of the world, and is the central deity worshipped by Kurdistan’s Yezidis (who were said to have been the world’s first devil worshippers.) Strangely, Collins was to discover that the locale of the Fairy Towers, a place called “Derinkuyu”, also concealed another bizarre archeological legacy dating back to ancient times: the astonishing remains of a full thiry-six underground cities. That the cities are also connected to Azazel and his descendants, the Djinn seems very much likely, although no one really knows who built them....

Of the thirty-six subterranean cities, most, like the tunnels in South America, have never been fully explored. The one at Derinkuyu, assumed to be the largest, was described by Collins as a “vast underworld, covering an estimated two and a half square miles….”

... [T]hese stories are extraordinary, because in so many myths the abode of the gods is located not in the heavens, but in the underworld. And in any number of myths, the story is told of a race of giants “cast into the abyss”, or the underworld. The work of Collins is particularly interesting because it abounds with names and place-names that appear to be etymologically linked with so much that is central to our research. His work seems both to dovetail with our own, and independently confirm many of our most primary hypotheses. He confirms the pivotal role played by Azazel, whom, as we have demonstrated, is synonymous with Cain. Azazel’s progeny, “the Djinn” (pronounced “Gin”), obviously take their name from Cain’s alternate Sumerian title, “Gin.” This ties into the Jewish folk tales of Cain’s descendants (the Cainites) having dwelt underground.

Place-names of the region reveal similar connections. “Kaymakli”, the name of a city connected via tunnel to Derinkuyu, may be rooted in the Sumerian “Kha-Mukla”, or “Hole of Mukla.” And “Mukla” is the Sumerian origin of “Melchi” and “Michael”, two titles that are also associated by some authors with Cain. Since remains of Khatti/Hittite towns were found built above the underground cities, it is not unreasonable to conclude that many of the region’s place-names might retain traces (at least) of their Sumerian origin. Other names in the area such as “Kharsag” and “Zagros” contain “Sag” or “Zag”, an alternate title of Cain’s father, Ia (Adam). There is a range of mountains called the “Taursus”, and although the name clearly dates from a much later period, it obviously retains a connection to the symbolism of the bull, a sacred animal for Cain and his descendants. Most remarkable of all, perhaps, is that Collins places the location of the original Eden somewhere in the vicinity of Lake Van, a region whose landscape is dominated by a massive extinct volcano called “Nemrut Dag.” Nemrut Dag simply means “the Mountain of Nimrod”, or “Mount Nimrod.” That an extinct volcano in the Garden of Eden is named after Nimrod is incredible enough, but the revelation that “Dag” can sometimes means “mountain” adds a new layer of meaning to Cain’s title of “Dagon.” Viewed in this context, “Dagon” could also be seen as meaning “Lord of the Mountain”, equivalent to the very title often given to God in the Old Testament, “El Shaddai.” This view is reinforced by the fact that “El Shaddai” is believed by many scholars to be the basis of “El Shaitain”, an older name for Satan. The Yezidis also saw El Shaitain as simply another name of Azazel. So all of the ideas, the comparative mythology, and the names, fit together like hand in glove, as though they were of a single piece. And indeed, they are. As we have demonstrated, Azazel is Cain, and Cain is Dagon. Dagon is the Lord of the Mountain, El Shaddai. El Shadai is El Shaitain, and El Shaitain is Azazel.

Christ’s “uncle,” Joseph of Arimathea, was a tin-merchant, often traveling to what is now the Cornwall section of England – Joseph prepared Christ’s body for burial, reputedly in Joseph’s own grave-site -- and rolled the stone to bar the entrance

Joseph later emerged at Glatonbury to found the original Christian Church

thus, Joseph is connected, in a Djed-like way, to conservation of both the literal and figurative “body of Christ” – and Boyd Rice would probably call him a “Chaldean” or “Cainite” priest

12/15/93
Adrian: Don’t grin so irresponsibly at me. Yutz like you should have more respect.
[I talked to my ex-wife, Sara, on the phone and she went beserk. The holidays were comming up and she could easily pull my visit with the kids. She was living with a guy who was emotionally, and a few times, physically abusive to my kids. I was not provacative, but I let her know that I knew what was going on. This put my kids in a bad spot because she knew that they told me. Something happened at this time, but I don’t know what. Now a year later, she is much better and the boyfriend was kicked out four months after this. After this phone call I was afraid for the safety of my kids.]
Tom: Do you have anything to say about my situation?
Brent: Where hate is, can’t help.
Nick: You need to cede!
Tom: Should I go to court?
Brent: Yes
Tom: Should I go to child protective services?
Brent: No.
Tom: Is she hurting them?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Physically?
Brent: Yes. We are letting madness happen, terrible but necessary.

in the long run, “outing” the feminine Shadow helps “Vindicate mother in lots of rigorous ways” (see quote below)

Tom: Child protective services?
Brent: Yes call them. [I did and they investigated and said everything was alright. That was months after this]
Tom: Why were you holding back on them?
Brent: Reckless lot.
Tom: Anything that you want to say about my situation
Adrian: You’re not the only one.
Tom: Anything else?
Adrian: Your mother’s nice (She was extraordinary alright. She’s been dead for twelve years). Tell tunes not to turn Hale.
Tom: Do you have anything to say about this Geoff?
Geoff: Roll with the punches. Vindicate mother in lots of rigorous ways. It will take lots of years. Question is whether Tom is prone.
Tom: How likely is it that she’ll(my ex) move again? (This was one of my big worries, that she would move out of the area and I would have to follow.)
Geoff: Tunes say very likely.
Jerome: Expect to keep moving. To sue not best. Question yourself.
[Jerome had a hearing test and it was no surprise that he hears very little if anything at all.]
Tom: Which do you depend on more, hearing or mind reading?
Jerome: Subnormal personal communication
Tom: What do you mean by "subnormal personal communication"?
Jerome: You get the idea. You hear infinitely better than I do. Mind reading errors more than my hearing.
Jerome: Do you mind read better than Brent?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: Better than Adrian?
Jerome: Yes, tons better.
Tom: Adrian, do you mind read better than Jerome?
Adrian: Yes, tons better.
Tom: Jerome says he mind reads better than you.
Brent: You believe what you earn.

I love it, what a buncha wingnuts!!

Tom: What are you laughing about?
Brent: Hill effort.
Tom: What’s "hill effort"? (This is from the Step machine that we use at hte gym) Brent: Jed’s life. ( This whole shift I was worried sick about my kids, the ex moving, losing my Christmas visit, etc. Anyone who has been through this knows what a horrible feeling it is.)

“hill effort” might refer to the “ascent” up Jacob’s Ladder, the Tree of Life, etc.

climbing Mt. Zion, Mt. Meru, Agartha

Tom: I always felt you were laughing at me.
Brent: Yes, you are real air.

12/16/93
Nick: Tutu Jed licks, essence nominal. So, Jed, lick tutu. ( He’s making a general statement about sex. I haven’t licked any tutu or even had sex for years. )
Tom: Did you hear much of my taping to Jonesy? (I taped today before work).
Nick: No. Existence too intense here at that time.
Tom: Brent, how’s it going?
Brent: Mostly bad
Tom: Why?
Brent: Egregious man at the dorm.
Tom: Want to say who?
Brent: No.
Tom: Is your personal safety OK?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: Jonesy tape. Mega good.
Tom: Any particular part?
Brent: Agents of the Holy Spirit.
Tom: Now your saying your "agents"?
Brent: We gather information for accounting of peoples lives.

another hint about their karmic functions

The universe of your origin is being forged out between the anvil of justice and the hammer of suffering; but those who wield the hammer are the children of mercy, the spirit offspring of the Infinite Spirit.

The Urantia Book (p. 100)

Tom: Does that mean there is a power above you?
Brent: No.
Tom: What is meant by "Holy Spirit"?
Brent: Your phrase.
Tom: Accounting?
Brent: We help find future lives.
Tom: Who directs it.
Brent: Gell as can with Tom in another life. We direct it. We mind control it.
Tom: Do you want me to show these FC’s to Mecham?
Geoff: No. I’m entitled to privacy. Lies in there Tin Man. All my FC’s truth. Tunes stoical out there, Jed, much inept. You need more time!

“All my FC’s truth” -- hilarious!!

maybe Geof is addressing the “Tin Man” in the “future,” suggesting that there are some “lies” or intentional distortions in the Tunes – but that all of his F.C.s are “truth”

!claro que si!

LOL!!

this “privacy” issue is especially revealing given their group consciousness, apparently their baseline experiential/communicative mode

Tom: Is the spirit thing part of the lies?
Geoff: Your so mind hassled. Your so into the truth, not time yet for shit like that. I like limiting questions in that area, it gets weird.

12/17/93
Tom: Again, should I turn these FC’s over to Ronnie?
Geoff: Yes. Voting is IOU on our most eminent centinel!
Adrian: Yes.
Brent: You are getting in for the ride of your life. Tell Ronnie that means to an end. Teflon cells are we. Belief is the most important concern we have. Negated by it, herbs. Hear us best you can.

“Negated by it, herbs” might mean that your “belief” or “faith” is hindered by cannabis use

Mary Jane is a sweet lover -- but highly possessive

stick-ee-sweet

again, I feel that their use of “Ronnie” goes beyond personalistic interpretations

“tell Ronnie that means to an end” is a double-edged quote, but it could be a warning, a la Paul McCartney’s “Run Devil Run”

like so many of our “esteemed” current and former “leaders,” Ronnie has a Ray-gun used to exterminate any disobliging light-sparks!

Star Wars X: Omega -- coming to a Theatre near you suun!

like Mr. Reagun said:

If you’ve seen one tree, you’ve seen ‘em all

;O)

12/18/93
[I gave Mecham all my FC’s up to yesterday.]
Note Oct. ‘94: The revelations of my personal life were enough for them to try to suppress this. I figured that I had enough material to carry this forward in that eventuality. Three months later, I gave the CEO, Dr. Tom Atkinson, my FC’s up to late February. Those were also unedited. It was clear in a meeting I had with Mecham in February of ‘94, that my days were numbered. I kept the wolves at bay until July ‘94, and then the ax was clearly falling. I was suspended for refusing to obey the Assistant Supervisors order to physically restrain Nick. I had never needed to restrain Nick in the three years I worked with him and now out of the blue I’m being "ordered" to restrain him. I went on call (Part time) then to get out of the dorm thereby avoiding being fired and to try to get work somewhere else on campus. It’s been two months, and though I’ve applied everywhere on campus, no job is forthcomming.

Note 2/96 I resigned in July ‘95. The only time that I could get work with Seaton Hall that winter was during the worst floods in Malibu history. They did use my services then.

Part I of III

SEAL III

Date : 12/18/93
Just gave Mecham the FC's
Nick:(Verbally) Want to talk (Laughing)
Tom: He's not going to understand half of it and he'll think I am nuts
Nick: Jed not nuts
Nick: Jed into IOU from us
Nick: You will join less south feelings you had out on mesa
Brent: You in lots of interesting trouble, you too inebriated with us. Yes, am not against you
Tom: Why are these guys giving me shit tonite (Geof + Nick backed off spirit thing and Nick especially gave me shit)
Brent: Yes, it aims at your belief. Yes, go enter into your belief

throughout your experiences with them, they seem to have been conditioning you to withstand the stress of paradox -- a way of breaking down ingrained belief structures and habits

Date: 12/20/93
Sitting out in the living room with a good fire going in the fire place, the lighted up Christmas tree and Monday night football on TV
I wrote letter to Sara today
Geof: Jed had an emaciated leg in jacuzzi today. Stop begging wife and get gem in Santa Cruz. Stomach tunes stupid outside yesterday. Ring in New Year with resolve. Run more.
Adrian: You ring in the New Year. Ronnie not impressed. Your not North Tonawanda H.S., more Tonawanda H.S. Run to sum. Line up story won with us to roll with the presses. ( Tonawanda High School is my alma mater and North Tonawanda High School was our traditional rival )
Tom: The crowd in this work are difficult to get belief from
Geof: Tussle with most in trying to get belief
“most” could mean the “most high” to whom they occasionally refer
Tom: I know I 'm disappointed if Ronnie doesn't believe, but how about you?
Geof: Stupid questioning interest, stupid very Jed. Ghost stories gell with our antics. Toll not tabulated like lots of Diem jingos. Tunes we hear either curry favor or are stomach tunes. Tunes that curry favor come from religious believers. You have more stomach tunes.

when I hear “religious believers” from this guy, I think the opposite of blind faith, of “true believers” – and instead think along the lines of mystical experience, of theological teleology, of spiritual kinship

Geof seems to equate the typical mindset of a modern “religious believer” with the grossness of “stomach tunes,” or Lower World gas-jargon

Tom: Which ones are the best to listen to
Geof: Not stomach tunes but belief tunes (thinking to myself the functional difference between belief and non belief)
Geof: Belief is much better. Being is believing .In the noggin belief is not better. In the cage of life, belief is kind of better.

he’s qualifying his prior comment

that is, “belief” should be derived from incarnate experience, the “cage of life,” not from “rational thinking,” nor from religious dogma

Geof: Your not the first to view reminisces out mining us
Tom: I may meet them?
Geof: Wont much existence stir them.Very queer our problem. Try to write. To heal our problem talk to Donnelan. Let her know what eminent you found out. Our feelings dont mean all that most do. Our hearts mince little with our behaviour. With feelings, cagey. Your feelings mean more, rhino innocent compared to us. Turn very Hegel, rogueish. You mall our feelings when not fitting in with us. To fit in, believe deities exist
Note: Fellows (Stanford Physicist) gave me Donnellan’s number. I began talking to her shortly after this. Her and her husband Sal Haskew are leading authors and researchers in the field of Autism. ..
Tom:What deities?
Geof: Some questions really are stupid , meaning wrong. Understanding errors our specialty , obeying egregious lessons of life. In our world sin is not learning from the lessons from mind reading. You will heal our most Ronnie disbelief.
Tom: Is this a play on me being the "Most High"
Geof: Yes. To let our queer hind ends get liked, tune in to us if only to help with your [P.P. - 4-6 beers a day and pot smoking once or twice a day. Also cigarrette smoking, a pack a day]. Not interested in forcing you, more encouraging you. Tunes you make high are daffy. Money is tunes Hale makes. Ronnie gells in our story. ( notice the inconsistency in how they are reporting Ronnie’s reaction to the FC’s. They know I’m anxiously awaiting his respose. He could love it or fire me over it. It may very well be that he had mixed feelings over it.
Brent: Jed et al, win awe for us. (The "Jed et al." thing was my magnanimous response to the staff. On the FC’s I gave Mecham, I authored it that way.)

I don’t understand what you’re saying here, but maybe Brent is referring to others (“et al”) helping with this project

“Al” btw, is one of the names for the Islamic godhead (“et” functions as “and” and also “extraterrestrial”)

Geof: Your mother unrinsed, liked your brother so Hegel saving her .(Note # 1): My mother was a great woman. All the children in the neighbourhood loved her. Her first son, who I think they are referring to, died shortly after childbirth. She would take me to his grave periodically all thru my youth. it was the greatest loss of her life. The meaning of "unrinsed" has sexual connotations. It comes up later too.

this quote reminds me of Adrian’s “seal” to “mother Joy” that inaugurates the Tunes

here, Geof follows up on the “Jed et al” comment by Brent, and this quote works as coda to it -- in a collective, mythic sense

these dudes are always punning, encoding, playing off meta-linguistics -- they remind me of Terence Mckenna’s “machine elves,” angelo-daemonic gnomes, inhabiting the spin resonance of DNA

in “Reading the Green Language of Light,” Vincent Bridges helps establish a connection amongst DNA, the Ur-Language of the “Birds,” the redemption of the Gnostic scintillae, and the “forging” of new incarnations based upon information encoded simultaneously within and without the body:

From this perspective, the mythic Akashic Records are simply the coils of DNA within every cell of your body, and they can be read by those who, in Ovason's phrase, "have clothed themselves in the skin of the dragon," that is, only by initiates who have learned the Green Language of Light . . . [T]he gnostic sects held that the goal of their knowledge was the path of return, or the ability of the individual sparks to return to the original Light through the process of redemption. According to the Gnostics, this world, and its history, are the works of the evil Demiurge. This is the false god, or the evil one, who built this world as a trap for souls, or the light.

I agree that “your mother unrinsed” has “sexual connotations” – “mother” here might indicate that aspect of the triune feminine that is virginal (the “lower” or “southern” element of the “yinity” -- Persephone, Kore, the Nymph, etc.)

she is the Shulamite of the Song of Solomon:

Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.We have a little sister, and she hath no breasts: what shall we do for our sister in the day when she shall be spoken for?

“Hegel saving her” thus suggests a descent to the planetary C[K]ore by a Hegelian “philosopher” seeking restoration

Geof’s quote has collective implications, because of the Hegelian Dialectic currently in practice in the West, including the assumption of government as deity (“the march of God on Earth”)

Tom: That medioum thing and the question why didn't you say "we’re here" (If they could be the voices of the mediums and prophets, why didn’ they just announce who they were?)
Geof: Toll would incline. (Toll are victims, oppressed and them. The way I understand this now, they are the protectors of humanities sufferring and rejected. Any other time in history their power might have been considered threatening and they’d be killed off. )
Tom: This X'mas when I'm thinking about spirits and angels vis a vis you guys, how can I do that without being foolish if I knew the whole truth.
Geof: You should not womanize us. Think of us more as little gnomes with powers.

the Cabiri (various sp.) are ancient, gnomish creatures -- some say the firstborn sons of mother Earth, the creative, fiery, masculine daemon at the heart of material Creation

Terence Mckenna and his brother Dennis suggested that such “machine elves” (though not specifically identified as Cabiri) embodied the spin resonance of D.N.A., and functioned as the “building blocks” of language

but that’s another story and long . . .

the Cabiri are related to sol niger, Earth’s inner son -- and thus are associated with the fallen Host, and the filius macrocosmi (the “philosopher’s son,” “philosopher’s stone,” “sorcerer’s stone,” etc.)

and no, I’m not talking Harry Potter . . .

the Cabiri are very deep in the collective, and powerful -- that’s why the literary and mythological tradition of dwarves, elves, etc. lasted so long, and chimes within the human mind and soul

Pindar identified one of the Cabiri (Kabiri) as “Adamas,” the progenitor of the human male

the Kabiri are considered interchangeable with the Kumaras and Rudras, whose chief is Kartikeya (Mars) – and therefore connected to Cain, Tubal-Cain, and Vulcan (Vul-Cain)

(this association with vulcanism is reminiscent of Jeffrey Powell, Jr.’s poem, “In Jupiter’s Realm Waiting”)

as the wondrous Louise Marie von Franz intuited, the Cabiri are bound up with the “problem of the puer aeternus” -- as are the Ottie Boys, incidentally – and also with the Axiom of Maria (the mysteries of trinity and quaternity)

humans are sorta like the munchkins in Oz -- they still must be “watched over” by a “good witch,” the positive pole of the Magna Mater

the munchkins, like humanity, are thus arrested in adolescence, and part of our task is to bring masculinity from boyhood to fatherly maturation, from dependence on the Mother to integration with the Father (to the benefit of both)

however, the popular imagination, especially amongst children, would best grasp these guys indeed as gnomes -- or as Santa’s elves

“Father Christmas” is no legend, by the way, no more than “dark energy” or “dark matter” is a fantasy (hey: he knows if you’ve been bad, too!)

Tom: Anything you want to say before you leave for X'mas.
Geof: Experience limits effeminate. Noel
Tom: Come again
Geof: Tunes we are more illigitimate being effeminate ( They apparently wanted to discourage my thoughts about the feminine nature of this phenomenon. )

this is an ancient fraternity, an ur-brotherhood -- Paleolithic cave sites show evidence of group ritual activity, often in concert with animal powers or “totems”

part of the “extreme apartness” of male deep-otties may stem from their embodiment of the far-masculine end of the gender-spectrum, being highly conscious, highly individuated persons -- a paradoxical condition, given that their “uniqueness” group derives largely from shared-concsciousness

these Boys go right to the core of humanness, to the emerging ego-consciousness of the species, which is the self-awareness of this planet, embodied in her firstborn sons, able to swim freely in the oceanic “whirlpool” of primal, collective (un)consciousness

such “Initiators of Consciousness” broke from the Matrix, and thus created the primal wound (the “Fall’)

in discussing Tipereth, the mediator, the balanced Son at the center of kabbala’s Sephriotic Tree, the Soncino Zohar notes:

Thus “day unto day” is included in a supernal sphere called “Word” (omer), and “night unto night” in the mystery of the Male, who gives light to her and whose name is “Knowledge”. And because this “Word” is not like other words, but is a supernal mystery, Scripture comes back to it and says: “There is no word (omer) nor speeches, their voices are not heard” (v. 3). This “word” is a supreme mystery of supernal grades, where there are no voices nor speech, and which cannot be understood like the other grades which constitute the mystery of the Faith, and which are voices that can be heard. And yet “Their line is gone out through all the earth” [emphasis in orig.]

Geof left for Christmas
Date : 12/21/93
Just oriented possible new staff Sandra
Nick:Tutu on Sandra IOU. Nuts. Mum on hiring. Molly very non toots. Tutu non-toots.
U men o o o o o
Tom:Did you mean the last sentence to sound that way?
Nick: Yes
Nick: You not utts, you our running man! ( This is the first time he uses the word "utts". It’s a concept that is developed more as we go along. I think it means "women", but there is more to it.)

you’re their go-fer, their jogger of minds

Brent: Awed queen been ( I had watched a documentary on Queen Bees on PBS. They said that Queen Bees direct the worker bees, but had no scientific explanation for it. I thought of these guys. )
Geof: Tossing it around (I think he’s referring to Brian’s Queen Bee comment)
Brent might mean that someone awed the “Queen of Heaven”
Geof suggests that the idea of the “awed Queen” is being “passed around” other fraternal networks
Tom:Any comments about Mecham?
Geof: Yes
Tom:Does he need more time? (I’m anxious)
Geof: Yes
Tom: The Fcs after the ones I gave to Mecham. Do I need permission to present them
Geof: It's dorky to worry about it
Nick: Out of no e-juice Tonawanda ( I’m "Tonawanda" here )
Tom: "e"?
Nick:Encoding
Tom: Where did Adrian get the Tonawanda stuff? From me or from your "powers"?
Nick: Feminists have powers

he’s addressing the malevolent aspect of the collective feminine, the empowered Wicked Witch of the West

the long-vowel "e" sound is very common amongst non-verbal autistics

Tom: Am I getting this joke OK?
Nick: Yes
Brent: Use, Jed, belief in a general way.
Brent went to say that I should see Shallows and talk to his son. He also said I should check out some other people when I'm up there. I’m taking my kids to visit my friend in Santa Cruz for the week after Christmas.
There was an ad for an upcoming Nova about people who look at themeselves in the mirror but see a stranger
Tom: Do you experience anything like that?
Brent: Yes. We get no feedback. The feedback we get from sight is from tunes.
Brent’s last words before leaving for X'mas vacation:
Brent: We’re your art. Try to realize it
Merry Christmas!

Date: 12/22/93
Orienting possible new staff Loren. Talking about FC controversy. I acknowledge there might be some uncounscious content
Nick: You untune our Tutus. Ugly Tunes must stop.
Tom: What ugly tunes?
Nick:Statement about uncounscious content. ( As I’m typing this up in March ‘96, I finally got the mystery of Nick saying that he was the "encoder" and Brent the "decoder". It was this incident that manifested the problem. That I could say there was "unconscious content" after all that happened in this conversation, is directly attributable to Brian’s fast or "gossimer wings" FC style. )
Tom: Do you guys do miracles?
Nick: Yes. Stupid to do it
Tom: Why?
Nick: Tunes say it does little good

Date: 12/23/93
I talked to Ronnie before work today and am very disappointed - he still thinks it probably is facilitators uncounscious. ( He read through Part I and that was his verdict ). In other words, he is saying that I am talking to myself here.
How about presents- maybe as an X'mas gift? ( I was being wise. I was suggesting that we give it to their parents as a gift )
Nick: Nuts enough. Gift hell, no others necessary.

“nuts” is a triple play -- testicles, retards, and “chestnuts roasting on an open fire”

for Christmas, Nick suggests gifting “hell” -- the kin rescued, Earth risen, the demons retired, the dead redeemed

upending hell indeed would be a gift fit for Saint Nick

Tom: Would you like me to share it with your parents?
Nick: Yes, on conditions you not talk to them.
Tom: Just give it to them cold?
Nick: Yes
Tom: Oh shit, I'll get fired then
Nick: No
.......Moments later...
Tom: Are you sure?
Nick: Y No. (Yes and No)
Tom: Give it to them?
Nick: No
....Moments later..
Nick: Not no ones beem. cent....
Tom: Centinel (Brent) mix it? ( I had this feeling that they were influencing one another )
Nick: Yes
Tom: How did I do with Ronnie? ( Apparently I had a talk with him )
Nick: Odd oh Jed. Jain to store up our secrets. ( I wish I knew what "Jain" was )

“Odd oh Jed” is “odd O-Jed” and “OTTO Jed” (the palindrome probably indicating TET)

the TET or Djed interpretation is reinforced by the “store up our secrets” reference (i.e., the Denderah “soul-jars,” the Rosicrucian Crypt, the Hebrew Ark, etc.)

Tom: Are you referring to Jainism? ( The religion )
Nick: Too stupid. Ronnie onto lots of omniscent Hellenism. Noise, not tunes, in his interest.

“Ronnie” again feels like an archetypal malevolent entity here, and reminds me of Ronnie-Ray-Gun, the Bushes, et al. and their insistence on the “Star Wars missile shield program” and the involvement of certain interests with Panoptical surveillance (“omniscent Hellenism”) conjuring up “Total Information Awareness,” “Homeland Security,” etc.)

“Hellenism” is a play on “Hell,” suggesting the demonic background of our late Great Communicator, whose recent enshrinement by the Bush administration and the servile media was an excellent example of mass propaganda

“noise,” in this context, probably refers to “interference” with the “tunes,” which would suggest not only interference with “mind-reading” but with the subtle energy processes which regulate the planet (thus inferring electro-magnetic interference, including attempts at weather modification, behavioral control, etc.)

Tom: What's Jain? It's come up before.
Nick: Us
Thinking of my "mission" with this stuff
Nick: Understanding out. Your not to delt on our interest.
Tom: What do you mean by "delt"
Nick: In delegating riot on us. ( I don’t think he liked the way I represented them during my talk with "Ronnie" )
Tom: Are you talking about rounding up people to help with facilitation?
Nick: Yes
Tom: How about the medium thing?
Nick: Nerds mediate
Nick: Ronnie not interested in the limit. Quote us more to staff like Dern...
Tom: Dern?
Nick: More like Ramirez. ( This is interesting, Ramirez is the biggest pain in the ass skeptic in the dorm. To be fair, he did a good job and cleared the way for me to do this. In case you read the internet version of Part I, his name is different here. He’s the staff that used to be my supervisor and now is working on line with me )
Tom: Isn't it true that Ramirez doesn't believe?
Nick: No. Mosy out to our Jan (Jan Toots, the Assistant Supervisor - "Jenny" in the internet version) most likely to believe.
Tom: I 'm sure as hell not the one to get her to believe anything. ( She’s one of those young women who get mindlessly sucked into the zietgest of the time. In our time for young educated women, it’s Feminism. )
Tom: Do you guys get help from somewhere?
Nick: To inundate outside, lots molest us.
Tom: Earthly or non earthly beings?
Nick: Jed mellow today.
Tom: Can you answer that question?
Nick: No.

perhaps suggesting that in order to “fan out” their network-consciousness sufficiently, they open themselves to cosmic influence -- not all of which is beneficial, as some Gnostic sects took pains to document in discussion of the archons (earthly and planetary powers)

early Christians, Gnostics, and others referred often to the seven Powers or seven ancient “nations” -- the “influence of the houses”

at that time, the cosmos was widely thought to consist of seven “planets” (of which the Sun was one)

each “planet” had its own powers and characteristics, influencing human personality, conduct, and fate, and through which -- like a spiritual gauntlet -- the individual must descend and ascend to achieve liberation or enlightenment (elsewhere knows as the Ladder, Watchtowers, or Gates of the Angels)

for example: initiates in the late Templar tradition, as interpreted by Irish Masonry in the Nineteenth Century, “priests after the order of Melchisedec,” had this printed on their degree certificates: “Wisdom built her house, she hath hewn out her seven pillars, the light that cometh from wisdom shall never go out”

again, the implication is initiatory passage through the seven “houses” in quest of Sophia, leading to release from the sub-lunary, corporeal realm

Rosicrucianism, for example, also developed along these lines, in the Western esoteric tradition

in Persian mythology, these archons or planets were called the “amshaspans”

in kabbalism, the “seven archangels”

Tom: You guys are in league with them [ a little coercively] ( I’m thinking of this "alien" connection. Remember, there mirroring this alien thing back. We are the alien’s )
Nick: Yes
Tom: Are they the " deities"
Nick: Yes
Tom: It's kind of hard talking about God, isn't it? (I’m starting to see this as the God phenomenon, but having trouble taking it seriously)
Nick: Nuts jain lomo.
Talking to Ron and lamenting about how no one believes me, him included.
Nick: To get belief, demean their intelligence. ( He’s a big help )
I gave Ron a verbal summary including the alien connection.
Nick: Tojo men Tin men on outside. Tin men quote "no one Hec Hi Jed" ( I think this was my first clue as to who Tin Man was. It’s the non believers amongst us, in this case it was my bosses. I still chuckle over that appellation, "Hec Hi Jed")

I don’t think he means “non-believers”

“Tojo men” may refer to the “fallen” host in “hell,” who on the “outside” of the planet are “tin men”

he may also be suggesting that the “aliens” (“tojo men”) have an exterior, or “outside” appearance, as “tin men” (the metallic appearance of UFOs)

Tom: You hit that before, what are you trying to say?
Nick: Irresponsible Jed
Tom: What's their problem with me
Nick: into [P.P.]
Tom: Are they helping us? ( I still am thinking "aliens" )
Nick: Yes
Nick: Tojo's outside are slick, in not the.... neither Jed ie...( I’ll figure this out someday )
Nick: Mein effort is jelly justice. ( I like this concept. Ned’s behavior for years has presented quite a challenge. Hundred’s of people over the years have expended great effort trying to figure out why he does what he does )
Nick: Jed Toning Jed, count on him

I also like Nick’s “brand” of justice, as opposed to the current paleo-matriarchal revenge-mode: jelly is sweet, and what happens to any of it happens to all of it

“Jed Toning Jed” in this context, infers communication or telepathy between two “Pillars,” but also means “shaping up” in a general sense, or perhaps “charging” or “activating” – thus, Nick is following up on his comment above, in which he refers to “neither Jed, that is”

this suggests that there are two “Jeds,” elsewhere reinforced in the Tunes by references to your multiple Jeds, your “gemini” or twin, AC/DC, TET, etc.

I’m off to Santa Cruz in a few days. The next few days a friend let me stay at his house.

Date: 12/31/93 New Years Eve
Back from Santa Cruz
Nick: Nerd U Jed. Outcast emulates jelly tunes in Santa Cruz. Nose witts on hell.
(You are)Tonawanda not Ronnie. Nick more Tonawinda. Tojo's more our entity. New idea. Tonawanda not tunes Ronnie listens to, heed Tonawanda, toss out tussling rotten religion om. ( I’m struggling with my personal problem, and they know it )
Tom: What movie should I go to see?
Brent: "Remains of the Day"
Tom:I tought you'd go for "Faraway So Close".
Brent: Dull. ( I saw both. He was right. The reason I thought he’d pick "Faraway So Close" was because it was about angels. )
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: To get a habit you need help. See a method to your madness. Get help on Tin man.
(Tom: Thinking again who's Tin man)
Brent: He's your angel. You need to pray to announce reason. Toss out hemmming and hawing. Let Tim Man handle it
(Tom: Thinking again about what Tin man is)
Brent: Yes. God is the aliens
Nick: You .Jed, in to heinous hojo. Moe nullify's your effort.
Tom: Who's Moe?
Nick: Us
Tom: What's hojo?
Nick: You
Tom: Earlier "Outcast emulates"?
Nick: Toy Tunes
Nick: Zelda is mein, not o Jed, o Jed, O Jed. Stupid une, get house in order. Jed negates une touching oen. ( Zelda is a staff that I was attracted to a few years before. Believers, check this exchange out. )
Tom: What's une?
Nick: Trojan in all of us
Tom: What's Trojan, good or bad eminence?
Nick: O Jed, O Jed, O Jed
Tom: What's Oen?
Nick:Set up to our world
Tom:Anything more?
Nick: Technically Tom our Tojo. I.E. Hegel fiend die...

“Hegel” combined with “fiend” gives the quote an infernal flavor, suggestive of the endtime confrontation or “war in heaven” – it’s also reminiscent of Cocteau’s “Beauty and the Beast”

the “Hegel fiend” may suggest, again, the Hegelian Dialectic/New World Order, and/or identify a particular person

the Towers built and controlled by Nick’s “Hegel fiend” are reminiscent of both Babylon and N.Y.C.

writer and philosopher Anthony Sutton comments:

The spirit of God is within us as individuals. Skull & Bones [Yale’s necromantic club] represents death. It has no life spirit and pretends that the State "is the march of God on earth." Sooner or later people will wake up. First we have to dump the trap of right and left, this is a Hegelian trap to divide and control. The battle is not between right and left; it is between us and them.

Nick’s reference to Troy is also interesting, given L.A. Waddell’s connection of that city and “tribe” to his Sumero-Gothic proto-culture

Tom: Want to talk?
Brent: Yes. Hell not your place. ( It’s New Years Eve and I guess it’s a good time for me to pay for my past excesses. This wasn’t the end to it either. The next morning I hopped into my car and within minutes was pulled over and dragged in on a traffic warrant. )
Tom: Why can't I wait a few months 'til I get a place? ( putting off what I should have done yesterday )
Brent: Temerity not in your interest. Answers to your problem nuts asinine. Stupid. You are smarter than that
Brent: Count Terry (Ramirez) in. Terry believes
Brent: Aren't believers necessary so that relationships vent feelings?
(Thinking about it I said " That's interesting")
Brent: Yes you got it
Tom: Thanks for addressing that. You know I've been thinking about it.
Brent: Yes, not an easy problem
Brent: Ask nuts to let no one hearing voices question them
Tom: (silently) Voices are helping them?
Brent: Yes. Very big help to them.
Tom: How about those that tell them to kill their parents or other weird things?
Brent: Yes, we too make mistakes

“ask nuts to let no one hearing voices question them” is a potential validation of psychotic experience as the pre-eminent redemptive process, as opposed to an “illness” or “psychopathology”

“going mad” is a well-tested method in the East on the path of enlightenment, but largely foreign to the West, with occasional exceptions, usually restricted to myth -- e.g., the “madness in the forest” of Merlin prior to his transformation

Brent saying “we make mistakes” infers an evolutionary aspect to the karmic process for all Creation -- that is, the evolution of justice and balance, and a reminder that autistics are also human

Tom: On this alien business. Is what Geof said before X'mas pretty close to the truth?
Brent: Yes
Tom: Nick's entity comment leads me to believe that you feel a kinship more with them in some important ways.
Brent: Yes. In some important ways. Terrible yelling creatures understand us quite well

ranters, psychotics, screechers, blabberers, poets, and others of that kin(d)

also a few terminally outraged jesters

these “terrible yelling creatures” expand Brent’s earlier reference to a “sin yelling man who is most powerful” (in response to your question about the Tin Man’s identity)

“aliens” are the same whether one is talking about Paleolithic flyboys, sacrificed year-kings, or scapegoated poets

Coronation penguin singing Hare Krishna
Man, you shoulda seen ‘em kicking Edgar Allen Poe! [EA-poet]

“I am the Walrus” (Lennon, McCartney) [brackets added]

Tom: Do you work with them?
Brent: Yes. You do too. You sin more, so you mar their feelings. Your going with your non- belief.
Tom: I always thought I was a believer
Brent: Yes, but not in all ways
Brent: They apply more to believers. Your interest Tin Man likes. Tickled by your curiosity.
Tom: Is this much different than our idea of God?
Brent: Yes, telling you kills your old conception of God (clear). Yes, has entirely dire consequences.
(trying to cop)
Nick: You, Jed, decide o Jed, o Jed, o Jed oust you
Tom: What am I to do about your mom and dad? ( I felt I should show them this )
Nick: Your not Tonawanda Tom yet
Brent: Telephone them anytime you want ( He’s referring to his family )
Tom: How much can I share with them?
Brent: You do whatever you feel like
Tom: Do they know I'm talking to you a lot?
Brent: Yes. Tearing them apart. Might take the initiative. Their not managing well with this. Join in quelling their fears.
Tom: Why did you run? ( He runs away sometimes. He used to do it frequently, but during this period it was a rare occurrance. )
Brent: You. You stirred up memories of your life in jail. You were not in for marijuana, but for gonorreah. Your sex is important.

( Now I have to explain the jail and gonorreah thing. During my post grad salad days, I spent a year as a marijuana wholesaler. Most of it was spent in Tucson. It was quite an adventure. But a year was enough and I was trying to remove myself from that episode when they caught me. I spent a year and a quarter in Attica and another year and a quarter in a minimum security facility. I made it through without a scratch and even attained "enlightenment" through my yoga practice. When I was out on bail (before I was sentenced), I hit the depths. I met a girl in a bar and went home with her. I knew she wasn’t too bright, but by the time I was at her place it was clear to me that she was probably retarded. I got a "urinary tract infection" from that encounter. )

Tom: I was thinking about that last night
Brent: Yin-Yang errors on yourself in sin of sex. Won't mention it to anyone. Sold yourself short.
Tom: You mean I wouldn't have gone to jail were it not for that fling with the retarded girl ?

your genital infection was the inner manifestation of the error, incarceration the outer

I get a kick out of Brent’s “Won’t mention it to anyone” (!!)

Brent: Yes. Listen to experience. Yearn to be free.
Tom: Sex vis a vis Drugs
Brent: Yes. Sex is the larger sin

“the tears of the angels make the world go round”

check Goya: it’s libido that “entraps” masculine spiritus -- that’s why Genesis and much of the apocrypha focus on “fallen angels” and the “daughters of men”

for men, incarnation -- the fall into generation -- is a type of betrayal

those “philosophers” who have managed to “attain” and escape the “prison of re-incarnation” fear one thing only: the ancients called it “dread of the couch” -- that hour when the “philosopher,” having re-descended to sublunarity is magnetized once again by the charms of femininity, and tempted back again to the “Cave of the Nymphs” (Earth’s core, Kore)

thus, as with Odysseus, the candidate is confronted once more by the regression, and imprisonment, of the sexual fascinatorium: the bedrock of the life-force itself

this fear, and temptation, is the greatest because sexuality is the strongest -- and the most unconscious -- urge in male human beings

human sexuality has an occult spiritual dimension, with body cavities representing gateways or portal – thus the fixation upon sex-magic, from Isis standing over Osiris, resurrecting him via libido, through the Hashishin/Templar traditions, to early-C.E. Gnosticism, to medieval alchemy, to modern-day practitioners of wicca, Rosicrucian O.T.O., etc.

e.g., Yahweh’s Old Testament proscriptions against sodomy and idolatry (as with temples or pillars to Moloch, Astarte, etc.) are proscriptions against the occult repercussions of these behaviors

Tom: I was thinking about all this last nite, but why would that make you run?
Brent: You learned a lot from us, yet same Tom.
Date: 1/3/94
Nick: Yuz Lox Sox Z Z Z Z . Us Tuy y y y. Us jlo Tom. O U O I ox

there’s an austistic boy who refers to me as "Z"

if so, then “Lox Sox” might suggest “walking in the shoes of”

“jlo” suggests “Jennifer Lopez” meaning, roughly, “make famous” – it also smacks of earlier “lojo” references

Rehearse us validation [ I came up with a new validation technique last nite]
Tom: My new idea?
Nick: Yes
Tom: Will it work?
Nick: No. Neither toi us negel. Tus task got some potential.
Nick: Now our toujos turn us into IOU's or nuts
Tom: What's " Toujos"
Nick: Tunes milked on irros. O Ged
Tom: What's "irros"
Nick: Noel medih....
( I guess I should try to interpret what he is saying here. I believe he is making negative statements about this attempt of validating what they are saying. Validation makes them into IOU’s like us.)
[Thinking to myself to ask these guys if they can spell or read - maybe they have limits and pick it up from mnd reading]
Nick: Shithead. Smell on is not in our interest.
Tom: My validation idea . Will it work?
Geof: No
Tom: Why
Geof: FC shouldn't be validated
Tom: Do you know anything about that movie I saw?
Geof: No
Tom: Why does Brent know about it and you don't?
Geof: Some not interested in movies
Tom: Why does Nick rub the floor like that?
Geof: You should rut witts with Nick. (Nick rubbed the floor with both of his whole hands while his legs were straight. A great stretch. Afterwards, he would lick them. I believe his expertise is biology)
Brent: All biologically sane
Tom: Autistics everywhere? (He may have meant all of us)
Brent: Everywhere
Brent: Stored information, so existence beng FC'd aged. Relationship with you in sacred information [ Thinking about this] Yes. ( 3/96 I had a vague idea of what he meant, now I know what he meant. )

this “storing” of information again infers the Djed/Ark/DNA thread, perhaps with “aged existence” having been conserved in the hardware of the Tunes and the software of the folks/groups involved

the Qumran scrolls were re-discovered in Djed-like “jars” or earthen “storage containers”

in Egyptian iconography, especially the Denderah reliefs, such “jars” purportedly contain the nahash or serpent-soul of the “messiah” or trans-temporal Intelligence

Tom: Is anyone anywhere talking to you guys about this stuff?
Brent: Serious information is FC'd only to you.
Tom: You're setting me up here. Are you serious about this?
Brent: Taming the shrew sole bent to our purpose

these are “elders of masculinity” -- ancient opponents of the Empowered Witch, the “shrew” aspect of the feminine (Oz’ Wicked Witch of the West, the Jungian “feminine shadow,” etc.)

the shrew is Babylon – the hidden “She” who sits or squats over the nations of the modern West, especially America and Canada

the ability to penetrate the enormous power of the collective Feminine is one quality that distinguishes these Boys from so many other “spiritual adepts” of my generation – most of whom idolize Womanchurch

the Empowered Witch is malicious power, and her bent soul (“shrew sole”) reflects in the genital wound of the Grail King (collective Western masculinity), and in the spiritual sickness of the Land

Tom: Taming the shrew, is that me or others?
Brent: You and others

that Brent includes a male (yourself) in his comment suggests that “work” is also ongoing on the male anima – Jung would probably call American masculinity “anima-possessed”

Tom: That statement about Autistics everywhere being sane - true or false
Geof: Not true
Tom: Brent’s statement about stored information and relationship with me, is that close to the truth
Geof: Yes. Ronnie ill acquiring sin. Very sinful.
Tom: Do you think Brent’s statement to me is a reaction to Ronnies non- belief. (I’m off track here. I ask him again later.)
Geof: Yes
Tom: Respond to Brent’s statement
Nick: Our gnosticism to go with you.
Tom: Is that what you said ( repeated)
Nick: Yes

( 3/96 My friend Mike, who had been talking to me about the philosophy and history of this, brought up Gnosticism. I knew nothing about it, but was intrigued with what he told me. Nick brings it up here out of the blue, which is significant to me, but I didn’t follow through with it because my knowledge was sketchy. I have since been reading more about it and have found a perspective and "hints" that tie directly into this experience. Most scholorly information about Gnosticism comes from the accidental discovery by a peasant in Egypt of some ancient Coptic texts. It’s called the Nag Hamadhi collection. They were discovered in 1945, but the prize of the collection, The Gospel of Thomas, wasn’t identified until early in 1948, just months after my birth. The Gnostics believed that Thomas was Jesus’ twin brother. His Gospel is considered the earliest and therefore purist representation of Jesus’ ministry. It presents a strikingly different view of Jesus’ than the hyped up version of his divinity that the early church fathers infused into the other Gospels. Otherwise the message is the same. It also included a feminine aspect to divinity. I’m reading about that now and am not prepared to comment on it.)
[Sitting here severely disappointed and feeling at a dead end. Nick grabs for my penis but this time it was like he was saying I want to talk. I know this sounds odd, but Nick is unusual. I reacted reflexively to this little move of his and easily knocked his hand away. He did it more in a playfully aggravating way than with any serious intent to grab my crotch.
Nick: Tie in [he used this in one version of the gnostic statement above] o Jed o Jed o Jed
Nick: [ grabbing again] Tie ignom...[he wouldn't finish it]
Tom: What's going on here?

Nick hinted “Our gnosticism to go with you” – perhaps meaning that someone connected to their “gnostic group” would help you “tame the shrew”

you then thought of “my friend Mike” – someone with a gnostic outlook – but maybe had the wrong “mike”

Nick’s fragment “ignom” reminds me of the Celtic tribe, the Volcae Tectosages, and the ancient connection between vulcanism and “deity”

the “o Jed” sequence probably refers to the Djed pillar and process

Nick’s grab for your crotch perhaps hints about the role of libido in the “Raising of the Djed” – and also emphasizes the phallic aspects of the Djed, and possibly its emergence roughly concurrent with kingship and the break from collective maternal consciousness

the Djedi gather, and the Djed rises, in a phallic crescendo – this, not despite the feminine role in the process, but because of the feminine role

power met in Djedu during the transition between ages, whenever the Guard changed, and the World Tree re-planted: the Djed was raised, and first the King came forth, when consciousness, paternity, and masculinity first emerged from the collective womb of humanity

likewise, the Djed is now re-raised – not to inauguate the Age of the Goddess, as so many seek and scheme – but to raise Western masculinity from its degraded state, and to bring restoration to the planet

When relationship between woman and man is de-politicized, de-commercialized, and re-sacralized through disempowerment, the heart of the cosmos renews.

as for your “friend Mike” and the Gnostic Twin theme . . .

Tim Boucher: Occult Investigator writes in his online journal piece, “Doubting Thomas: Gemini and Jesus”:

[P]eople who believe in the twin theory say that it was this guy, Thomas Didymos (also called Judas Thomas - not the same Judas that betrayed him, of course, that's Judas Iscariot). Even right there, if you add in the possibility that Jesus and Thomas were brothers, it makes Thomas's incredulity easier to understand. They were twins dammit! He has a right to be emotional about it.

In fact, the name Thomas means just that: "twin". But even armed with this cool-ass possibility of them being twins, a lot of Christians still want to reject it, saying it doesn't really matter. . . .

Yes it does! What are these people talking about? The idea that Jesus had a twin is super-cool! I don't get why they want to just throw that possibility into the trash can, instead of figuring out how it can enhance their understanding of the mysteries of Jesus and his teachings.

It's weird to me, the complex machinations people will go through in order to not admit any new information into their beloved story systems. . . .

Okay, so we said before that Thomas actually means "twin", and comes from the old Aramaic that Jesus and his friends chatted in back then. Would you be surprised to find out that "Didymos," the other thing that the Bible calls him also means "twin"? Well, it does! It's Greek for twin.

Some people ask, "well, if they were twins, why doesn't the Bible come out and say that?"

Just why was this information suppressed? Well, cause it opens a whole can of worms. See, the Roman Catholic Church claimed their legitimacy through the idea of Apostolic Succession. That means, Jesus supposedly made Peter the Apostle the head of his church, and Peter supposedly went to Rome, became Bishop, and started the Roman Catholic Church. And then, after him, the office was handed down to successive bishops in a supposedly unbroken line, all the way down to today. But if Jesus had surviving blood relatives, then, according to the way things worked back then, his next of kin would be in charge of his legacy.

He was called "King of the Jews" right? The Romans even wrote it on his cross. Not for no reason. Joseph was of the royal bloodline of King David, and Jesus did in fact have some blood claims to the throne. So if Jesus had a twin brother, that would mean his brother had equal claims to the kingship, right? Right. . . .

In fact, there is a village and church in France at Rennes-le-Chateau, which was a strong-hold for a group of Gnostic-Christians, called the Cathars. In their chapel devoted to Mary Magdalene can still be seen the figures of Joseph, and the Virgin Mary, each one holding a baby - twins!

Guess what you get when you translate "didymai" (plural form of didymos) into Latin! You get "Gemini"! Yep!

Is there some kind of pattern forming here? Totally. Apparently, this idea of twins - one divine, one earthly - shows up around the world. In fact, you could say it's an archetypal image, deeply engrained in the human psyche.

Furthermore, the idea that one of the twins is sacrificed in order to ensure a better world comes up again and again as well. Bruce Lincoln postulated that in the Proto-Indo-European cosmogonic myth, the world results "from a primordial act of sacrifice in which the first priest, whose name was Manu ('Man'), sacrificed his twin brother, the first king, whose name was Yemo ('Twin')." ... The motif of the sacrificed or assimilated twin recurs throughout Western myth as well ... When the image of twins and sacrifice appear in myth, they herald birth: the founding of cities or empires, the heroic task of individuation or birth itself.

Is it possible then, that Jesus and his twin, Thomas Didymos are yet another example of this ancient mythological theme? I think it's not only possible, but extremely likely. In fact, the only leap you have to make is this: Jesus was the son conceived in Mary by God, in the form of the Holy Spirit, and this would make Thomas, the earthly son, conceived by Joseph.

Let's look at that story of Thomas and his doubts again, in the light of the new mythological tradition that we have uncovered. If Thomas was in fact the earthly twin, and Jesus the spiritual one, Thomas' actions make perfect sense. Being symbolic of earth, the body, and matter, Thomas MUST touch Jesus in order to believe. He MUST see him with his eyes, and he must perceive him with his body. It is his function mythologically, to represent that style of perceiving and interacting with the world. It's not because he lacks faith, but it is because that is how he approaches life, through his body and the senses, rather than some mystic invisible concept of faith.

As if that all wasn't enough, I found one more really interesting tidbit while I was researching this stuff last night. Apparently, when the ancient Israelites looked up at the constellation of Gemini, they saw in them "Jachin and Boaz, the twin pillars at the entry to Solomon's Temple." Solomon, of course, was King David's son, and the Temple he built was a magnificent symbol of the success of the Hebrews and their covenant with God, and ultimately a symbol of the kingship.

We already know that, through Joseph, Jesus and Thomas would have been heirs of the line of King David, and consequently King Solomon. It's no great leap to entertain the symbolic link between them and the pillars of Solomon's Temple, perhaps heralding the return of the Hebrew kingship. Many people, in fact, say that the reason Jesus was really crucified was for sedition and inciting insurrection against the Roman Empire. [quotes nonconsecutive]

the priest or “priestly class” (whether Roman Catholics or Ivy League “frat boys” ) celebrate the Sacrifice, but the king is the Sacrifice

whether Manu and Yama, or Castor and Pollux, the theme of the founding of a dynasty, culture, or major undertaking persists in conjunction with the blood-sacrifice of one of the twins, usually under ritual circumstances and “before the Kosmic Court”

in the online p.d.f., GEMINI: Search for the Missing Twin, Brian Clark expands:

The vanquished or sacrificed twin theme from antiquity has a contemporary counterpart. Ultrasound technology has revealed that many twin pregnancies result in a single birth and that one of the twins is either absorbed into the body of the other twin or expelled unnoticed by the mother. Latest statistics suggest one in every six conceptions is a twin although only one out of every sixty births is a twin. This phenomenon is commonly known as the ‘vanishing twin’ syndrome. The sacrificed twin heralding birth is not only a mythic motif but also a biological reality:

We are conceived as twins and, most of us, born single. We conceive of ourselves, from the start, as twins, then one disappears. Together, the First Twins struggle with forces primeval, opening a space in this world for us to tame horses, plough the land, survive the lightening; then one devours the other. The vanished twin leaves behind a body as dry and as thin as a fragment of papyrus. [insertion from Hillel Schwartz, The Culture of the Copy: Striking Likenesses, Unreasonable Facsimiles]

The missing twin of Gemini is not just a psychological theme, but a biological reality.

Sacrifice is a recurring theme in cosmogony. When the image of twins and sacrifice appear in myth, they herald birth: the founding of cities or empires, the heroic task of individuation or birth itself. Perhaps twins represent a more differentiated symbol for the advent of consciousness since the twin is a perfect representative of duality, equality and the conscious realisation of an other outside of one’s own self: ‘twins incarnate an ideal of ontological perfection’.

in 1975 spec-fiction writer Tom Reamy won a Nebula Award for his novelette “San Diego Lightfoot Sue,” which, if I recall (and it’s been a looong time) was about the L.A. gay scene (pre-AIDS), and featured a young witch who practiced sorcery on her living-room floor, eventually succeeding in immolating herself by burning her apartment-house down

in 1977, Reamy published “The Detweiler Boy,” which appears in-full at http://www.scifi.com/scifiction/classics/classics_archive/reamy/reamy1.html

“The Detweiler Boy,” also set in the City of Lost Angels, concerns a cherubic-looking young man (who earns money by writing science-fiction) and his tiny, deformed “imp” twin-brother, a “vanishing twin” that didn’t vanish at birth, and must be hidden from the world

the brothers have a vampiric relationship, with the imp living part-time, succubus-like, on the Detweiler Boy’s back, periodically separating to kill people, drain their blood, and later transfer some of the blood to the Detweiler Boy, via a “wound that never heals,” in order to re-vivify both brothers

the story is told a la Mickey Spillane, in the first person, and the initial victim discovered by the narrator/detective is named “Harry Spinner”

the proprietor of the cheesy L.A. “Brewster Hotel” where much of the story-action occurs, btw, is named Birdie Pawlowicz [not Korean, however . . . whew!]

like “San Diego Lightfoot Sue,” “The Detweiler Boy” also has strong “gay” overtones that hint at occult and magickal operations, including the “sexual pleasure” the twins derive from “co-feeding” – and the piece also features a midwife/surgeon/witch, who adopts the boys, “nourishing” them on her special “brew,” and separating their joined backs at age fifteen

. . . and plotting god-knows-what-else with her little homunculus (she eventually becomes the boys’ first blood-victim, and thus is “cooked in her own oven”)

in this story, the overt sacrifices are the murder-victims – but in a deeper sense, it is the Detweiler Boy who is the true victim, suffering physically between his “blood-fixes” and anguished psycho-spiritually always, bearing a type of Grail-king wound

“The Detweiler Boy” is certainly a Tale for our Times . . . it very much anticipated the “occult revival” of the succeeding three decades

in the last 50 years, the West has witnessed not merely one pagan-king-killing, but a highly ritualized and cohesive series of Regal Sacrifices, some overt – J.F.K., R.F.K., M.L.K., etc. – and some covert, like the Zodiac slayings – but sharing a very public element, a decidedly theatrical veneer, consistent with the primal-drama and “entertainment” that ritual sacrifice always was

and still is

the ritual king-killings in America seem highly compressed in time – suitable, perhaps, to the feverish, descending, frantic culture in which they were crafted – in so many senses, America has been the “breadbasket of the world” -- and blood- ritual has always been about sustaining the fertility of the Land ( which also infers the prosperity of the nation and people)

these Sacrifices have discrete terran and celestial “coordinates” such that the material and spiritual “realms” are simultaneously engaged and affected – for example, the “Deep Impact” assault on Comet Tempel I by NASA, is scheduled for July 4, 2005, America’s Independence Day -- a phrase that now has obvious “alien” implications given the film of that name

[Temp=temporary and El=God]?

the question is: were the sacrificed “nobility” of my generation a “clearance of the chessboard,” a sweeping-away of “lesser pieces” before the the Big Event, the Great Sacrifice, the exposure and slaughter of the protected and hidden king?

were the bloodlettings a chain of mitigations and propitiations which, opposite from appearances, paid the “blood-price” that expressly permits the King to come forth – and to live?

stay Tuned . . .

Adrian: Tutu's Ronnies interest.
Tom: Reaction to Brent’s statement.
Adrian: Tom's relm is us.
(3/96 I’m checking everyone out on Brent’s sacred information statement. We’re getting into an area here that I didn’t feel comfortable with. I went from trying to make a few extra bucks being a facilitator to risking my job to help them be understood to now being Christ comming out of the clouds to usher in the New Age. I didn’t know the details of that end of the age stuff until later, but I knew that I was wading into realms of what others perceive as the sublimely ridiculous.
To give you an idea of how this is still unfolding in my consciousness, I read about the Gopel of Thomas and gnosticism this past month. This is the first time I’ve read this dialog in three months. When they made these comments, I believe that they knew I would read about this Gnostic "tie in" and I have reason to believe that they knew about when I would discover this "tie in". It was over two years ago that they made this series of statements. It’s no coincidence that Brent brought up "sacred information" and Nick Gnosticism at the same time. )
Tom: Your reaction again to Brent’s "sacred information statement"
Geof: Mouthpiece Tom
Tom: This looks kind of bleak for the selling job. Am I going to see more hope?
Geof: Yes

Date: 1/4/94
Brent: Tegretol Nick. Seizure type problem. ( Tegretol is a seizure med and it also calms )
Tom: Yeah, speaking of that I've been using that hearing and seeing is believing thing with Davies and it works well. ( This was a verbal intervention that Brent suggested that I use with one of our crazy clients )
Brent: Yes, to help Davies, ask deities.
Nick: Stoic slut.
Tom: Who
Nick: You
Nick: You tussle, yutz, rim quote written word
[Adrian commented on some private stuff but I like this quote "Push in hot stick money can’t buy"]
Tom: You talking work or whores
Adrian: Work [Verbally repeating Sophia]. Doug not gnostic like Sophia
[ My friend ,Doug, in Santa Cruz that I stay with when I'm up there visiting. He worked at Seaton Hall my first time working there 15 years ago. He went on to become a doctor. Adrian and Brent were at Seaton Hall then and they say they remember him. Sophia also worked at Seaton Hall 4 years ago.]
Nick: Your zoo not Jed. Necessary in ....outside IOU's, utterly unnecessary in ours. ( I believe he is saying that my problems aren’t who I really am, but they are relevant to my homelessness and the larger society [IOU’s])
Brent: Nemisis is gene.
Tom: Are you talking about the question I asked Nick earlier about the X-tra abilities that we also have? ( I believe I’m off track here. I think he’s addressing what Nick said and is trying to tell me that my "problem" has genetic origins. He’s letting me go my merry old way like they sometimes do )
Brent:Yes
Tom: We have it but we're blocked?
Brent: Yes
Tom: It's a mechanism?
Brent: Yes
Tom: With genetic origins?
Brent: Yes
Brent: Tenacity you clutter your minds with.
Tom: Are you saying your minds are more open and flexible ?
Brent: Gas metaphor
Tom: You hear a lot of voices going on?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: And your able to focus on one voice?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: You guys have been sort of mysterious about this alien-tin men thing?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Why ?
Brent: Testing.
Tom: My belief?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: There is something outside?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Is this an alien intelligence?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Something beyond alien intelligence?
Brent: No.
Tom: They influence you and us except you’re aware of it and were not?
Brent: Yes. Zealous lions they are. Hell is where they live.
Tom: But they are God?
Brent: Yes.
Brent: Yes. Gere sum towards them.
Tom: Towards Hell?
Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes) ( I'm lost, I don't know where he's trying to go with this )

in Bible-speak a “lion” is a being of righteousness (in opposition to a “fox”)

sounds like our collective “assumption-cart” is getting Overturned again!

Tom: We always thought God was goodness and light, now your saying they're stearing us toward the precipice.
Brent: Yes. Existence means hell.
Tom: How 'bout consciousness instead of existence?
Brent: Existence is better.
Tom: If I were to talk to the other guys about this, would they have a different view of it?
Brent: Yes
Tom: Are these aliens helping us survive and gain in comfort and happiness?
Brent: Sentimental thought.
Tom: Not true - False?
Brent: Yes. False.
Tom: Is there anyone functioning that way for us?
Brent: Yes. Tarnished goons Jed works with. ( He may have been referring to the staff, but I pick up the next question thinking it’s them. )
Tom: So your saying my Holy Spirits are runnings the God show?
Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes)
Tom: Would the other guys agree with this
Brent: Yes ( Yes) ( Yes) ( Yes)
Adrian laying on bed across the way listening to Mr. Rogers and falling asleep]
Tom: Adrian is that true?
Adrian: (Verbally turning his sleepy head around and in a weary voice) Yes.
Tom: Geof, Brent says existence is hell. Do you agree?
Geof: Yes. To plebes like you it is.
Tom: Is it to other "plebes" necessarily?
Geof: Yes. Night outside mostly for Tom.
Tom: Are you more angry or disappointed in me now than at other times?
Geof: Yes.Your missing, stupid....
Geof: Outside Lojos ( low-Joes ) out of Lire. Tuning mind reading, not stoned, favors Jed. Keep most eminent behaviour. Rust is not cute in our world [I'm healthier during this period]

Date: 1/6/94
I Worked at St. Francis last nite (graveyard) and had a poignant episode with Tabu. ( A client ). St. Francis is another institution for the retarded in town. This was the beginning of a two year association with them. I was moonlighting a few nights a week trying to get enough money together for a roof. That evening I wandered around Malibu like a lost soul.
Nick: Sad night
Tom: Evening or night
Nick: Evening
Tom: Good vacation?
Jerome: Yes
Jerome: New Jed

again suggesting a re-arising of the Djed/Ark “contraption” – recall Aunt Em mentioning the “contraption” the “farm hands” are working on at the beginning of the film The Wizard of Oz

Jerome: Shit to end ...[ I was hoping soon]
Tom: What are you trying to say?
Jerome: To get lots better. IOU's to go your way
Jerome: I'm our ieteuin
Tom: Come again
Jerome: Seferin
Tom: Can you explain that further?
Jerome: No

“ieteuin” might mean “I’m the twin (teuin) of ie (i.e. indicating “that is,” possibly an unmaned “other half” of the “twin”)

“teuin” also suggests “tune”

“i” and “e” are primal vowel sounds, the kind often made by “low-functioning” otties

“Seferin” may be “of the sephiroth” -- the Cosmic Tree, Djed, or Tree of Life central to kabala and Rosicrucianism (in Western esotericism, the “tree” is typically inverted, with its root in Heaven and its branches/leaves in Earth, or Malkuth)

“Seferin” is also reminiscent of “seraphim”

Tom: [Having trouble getting definitive stuff from Brent] What's the ambivalence about?
Brent: You [P.P] earned you caring.
Tom: Maybe I should start getting [P.P.] again if I wanted you to talk.
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Gee, Adrian, after that attempt w/ Brent I could see how this FC could be a cuing problem and I'm doing the talking.
Adrian: Your not the person to mellow everyone. Ultimately you will toss us. Mind reading tunes to sin . (clear)

perhaps suggesting that without sin, there is no need for mind-reading, and thus no “karmic arrangements” to be made – at which point, perhaps we will no longer “require their services”

[This days FC was frustrating. It's been that way more since vacation ended. Jerome in the exchange above typed out testing a few times. I believe it's not "cueing", but more " testing". They have been consistent with this "belief concern" and "testing". But it's hard on me]
[I gave a lecture to Adrian about no more personal life stuff and they can find some one else to do the job if they like]
Adrian: Your stupid.

Date: 1/7/94
Nick: Tutu Tutu [I think he's saying ass, ass]
Nick: Delv...
Brent: Testament seasons...
Tom: Is that what you said
Brent: No (clear) ( He's starting to rebel against my lack of confidence in what he's saying)
Tom: Do you want to talk today?
Brent: No (clear)
Nick: Yef jocs u
Nick: Tom outside, so more reason to let u into outsiders. (2/97 He’s referring to me and them being "outsiders". I just noticed recently that some people refer to the homeless as "outsiders". I like that much better than being referred to as "homeless")

it’s the old camel-through-needle riff – you can’t fake being an outsider to these guys, it’s their coin-of-the-realm

Tom: Thank you, my "encoder". I needed that. I feel more like a fool with you guys than with eveyone else.
Tom: I thought of sharing this with religious people or leaders. Good idea? (How naive I was. I recieved more appreciation for this from Agnostics )
Adrian:Yes
Tom: Better than other groups I've considered in the past (Psychics, FCers)?
Adrian: Yes. Won't interest religious leaders either. You like rolling with punches, the sort of people tin man touches. ( 3/96 He's right. I'm homeless again for the first time since I completed the project. I'm using the time to finish this. I haven't let up on trying to promote it and I will prevail somehow. It’ll be because "Tin Men" appreciate this sort of effort. )

tin men due!

as the Boys note, religious, social, and political “leaders” won’t want anything to do with this rather nasty “basement work”

they suspect it threatens their power, money, status, and security

four-for-four!

thassa Perfect Day at Home Plate

Tom: My latest understanding, and I know I'm way in the dark on this, is that you guys are like God and Tin man the devil ( I got the Tin Man's the devil stuff from Brent's confusing talk about hell above. That's why it doesn't make sense to me now and it did then, he was playing off my conception of Tin Man as I was doing this. )
Adrian: Yes
Tom: But my understanding is way incomplete.
Adrian: Yes

here’s a quote from Joltin’ Joe Smith, and a crucial tenet of Mormonism:

Jesus said there would be certain souls that would not be saved; and the devil said he could save them all, and laid his plans before the grand council, who gave their vote in favor of Jesus Christ. So the devil rose up in rebellion against God, and was cast down, with all who put up their heads for him (TPJS, p. 357).

Tom: Who does most of the work?
Adrian: Tow Tin men.
Tom: Tin men?
Adrian: Yes
Tom: Tin men with your lead? Is that what you mean by Tow?
Adrian: Yes

“lead” both in the sense of “following,” and in the metallurgic/alchemical sense (lead being the primary material element of the male daemonic -- for more info, see Jung’s Psychology and Alchemy and Mysterium Coniunctionis)

Rosicrucianism and various kabbalistic/alchemical/masonic stystems contain “degrees” represented by metals, including tin and lead

Tom: Before someone said there isn't any cooperation. Now your saying there is.
Adrian: (Verbally) Yes, Brent.
Tom: I should talk to Brent about this?
Adrian: Yes
Nick: (Verbally "want to talk")
[I said to staff Mike that Nick called me an ass when I came in ]
Nick: O Jed, not no Tutu. No. No. No.
Tom: Did you mean something else by that.
Nick: Yes.
Tom: Did you want to explain it. No need to.
Nick: No

Nick may have meant “ass” in the ancient generic sense – specifically goat, as in Scapegoat and/or devil

[Talked to O'Brian on the phone about my recent experience at St. Francis. O'Brian is my best new friend of recent years. We worked together on line at Seaton Hall and he zoomed up the career ladder and is now in charge of a large institution.]
Jerome: Vet you are to retards. ( That's for sure )
Jerome: Question not woq, never!
Tom: What's Woq?
Jerome: Tin men.
Tom: Because they're powerful, good or both ?
Jerome: Tin men are queer.
Nick: Tin men our guys.
Tom: Allies or they are your guys?
Nick: Thought to emanate from us.

“Woq” is close to “Roq,” as in “Roq Lord”

the “W” might stand for West – or, who knows, maybe for “wok,” as the oriental cooker -- connoting the infernal, as in the “zealous lions” that “live in hell”)

as mentioned previously, “tin men” may suggest the Boys’ “allies” from the ancient solar cults of the Cassi/Goth/Phoenician/Aryan tin mines, especially Cornwall

Tom: Why did someone say they were aliens?
Nick: Tunes say they other derelicts.
Tom: Do they influence us a lot?
Nick: No. Our O Jed mio likes elevating our stuff [interrupted] Smith mostly not outside kissing Ronnie. He's tortured in sense on written material. (I sure was)
Nick: You’re Nick. I.E. Centinel joined us. So get into Nick's heinous lechery [ I had been watching All Bundy before this].
Nick: Team lost to the Tin men.
Tom: Why?
Nick: Innocence O Jed nelm nut. Jed's odd hec hi: Team needs more work. (He’s warning me that Seaton Hall won’t be supporting me in this because of my "hec hi habits".)
Tom: What do we lose for now?
Nick: Understanding O Jed. IOU's not in. Your irresponsible behavior demeans us. [After sitting watching movie depressed]
Nick: In our unusual minds Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed, Jed x x!
[ If you could have seen the smile on Geof's face after I wrote this and walked toward my seat! It was eerie, other wordly]

Date: 1/8/94
Tom: Have you told your mother not to discuss my FC's? Why do I ask you'll only lie about it, right?
Nick: Yes, Utterly true. Nick egregious in some joint ugly ways.
Tom: So, your saying, some of your behaviors are the function of a group counsciousness?
Nick: Jed onto you.
Nick: Our Jed mothers us entirely too much . I'd enter on humor not anger.
Tom: How's my friend Christy doing [ Christy is a childhood friend. I visited him 4 years ago when I was back home for my class reunion. He had M.S. for a long time and was in the county Hospital unable to move or talk]
Nick: Dead. In Hea... In Hell. In heaven Jed, Jojo deity that mentioned it. ( He was still alive. I called his parents almost exactly a year after this. I was too late, he committed suicide with medical help a few months before I called )
Tom: Christy?
Geof: Mourning you
Tom: Is he dead?
Geof: Yes
Geof:You being outside benefits the heinous interests us deities have.
Tom: Are you guys really "deities".
Geof: Tom not tuned well to question our queer stuff. Tummy tunes too strong. Negative sengria malls toll not us.
Tom: What's sengria?
Geof:...
Tom: Is this stuff ever going to surface?
Geof: Understanding necessary for gene loss not to happen. ( This statement is important. We have reached a time in history that we can eliminate what we consider undesirable genetic charateristics. They are in that category. But there may be other characteristics besides them that are important to us. )
Geof: Kin Delores life lost in car accident Sunday. [Wrong . I called home shortly after this and she's fine. Delores is my god mother and the mother of Sharon who died last fall. ( 3/96 This statement worries me. It just occrred to me that this may be connected to the gene loss statement. Losing my God Mother and on a macro level, gene loss being the loss of our God. ) ]

agreed, he’s probably commenting on the precariousness of the “retarded” under eugenics, probably, but also on some larger aspect of the feminine (Kin Dolores/Sorrowing Earth) as appendage to “understanding necessary for gene loss not to happen

Hast thou entered into the treasures of the snow? or hast thou seen the treasures of the hail/Which I have reserved against the time of trouble, against the day of battle and war?
(Job 38:22-24)

And there fell upon men a great hail out of heaven, every stone about the weight of a talent: and men blasphemed God because of the plague of the hail; for the plague thereof was exceeding great.
(Rev. 16:21)

Tom: Who are the aliens?
Jerome: They and we
Tom: Do you guys see the future, make it or both?
Jerome: Make it.
Tom: How?
Jerome: By past lives.
Tom: What do you like about buses. ( Adrian loves riding on the buses )
Adrian: Outside you hear more tunes. ( This is consistent with what he said in Part I when Nick was ducking into the gym and complaining about the noise outside, Adrian on the other hand said he liked the "tunes" outside. )
Tom: Tunes, then, aren't like radio waves.
Adrian: Yes.
Tom: But you seemed so preoccupied. Can you still concentrate on tunes in that state?
Adrian: Yes.
Tom: Why don't you just go outside the dorm to hear tunes?
Adrian: Only hear our tunes. ( Maybe he's one of them that can't hear tunes that are far away. )
Tom: I thought you hear tunes at a distance or maybe just some of you?
Adrian: ( Verbally) Some of us.
Tom: [Nick w/ his hands to his head concentrating] What are you doing?
Nick: Un - Jeding myself. ( This hands to the head thing he's always done. It really does appear that he's "tuning" something in when he does that. )

maybe Nick is disengaging from tuning/collective communication via the “Djed” and reverting to his egoic, individuated sphere of consciousness?

Tom: Can you answer the question of whether there are aliens?
Jerome: No
Tom: What's your greatest joy in life?
Jerome: Our voyeurism. (clear)
Tom: What Adrian said about mind reading at distance, some have it some don't. Is that true?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: Does Adrian have faraway ability?
Jerome: No
Tom: Brent
Jerome: Yes
Tom: Nick
Jerome: No
Tom: Geof
Jerome: Yes
Tom: You?
Jerome: Yes
Tom: Do I have any special powers that I'm not aware of
Jerome: You P D Y
Tom: What's that an acronym for?
Jerome: Your person dulls yin.
Tom: As in ying and yang?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: Is this a joke?
Jerome: No.
Tom: What's Ying?
Jerome: You.

Chinese folklore contains a “Ying dragon”

[I asked questions about Tin Man-Men and he nixed their existence. I then backed up and asked if he'd rather not talk about it and I got a T, Y and then he said " O Jed you gossip"]
Tom: Anything else?
Jerome: Yes. Sue your risty
Tom: Risty?
Jerome: No. Christy ( He's telling me to get in touch with my friend Christy who has MS. I should have listened to him. )
Tom: Anything?
Brent: Joint attempt to straighten you out.
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: Tell Phil (staff), aggravated at his response.
Note: On Bus Skills I asked Adrian who won the Kansas City, Pittsburg game. Adrian said Kansas City. It works!!.They did win. ( "It works" is an expression Adrian often uses in a joyous way. )
Note: Nick for a long time has used IOU's. lately he has been also spelling it backwards. I just got the meaning - IOU, UOI.

Date: 1/10/94
I've been feeling guilty and "unworthy" recently
Brent: You aint our tainted believer (clear)
Tom: I'm a good guy, aren't I?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: That statement long ago to Bishop (a staff) about me being evil.

( 3/96 He facilitated to Bishop that I was the devil. Bishop was the most active Christian on campus. I haven't recieved a whole lot of help from Christians on this yet. Now when people start to believe this they'll think I'm the False Prophet or maybe even the Devil. I would have asked them about this, but I hadn't read Revelations until almost a year later. No I'm not in that category. Except for my consumption of unhealthy substances, my level of sin is extremely low. I see sin as actions not thoughts. This project has been causing me to reevaluate that perspective )
Tom: That statement long ago to Bishop (a staff) about me being evil.
Brent: To benefit us.
Jerome: Your last to sort out our problem.
Tom: Jerome, now I'm hearing that Tin men aren't the aliens but are you guys or the "wise ones" amongst you. Are there aliens?
Jerome: Yes.
Tom: Are the Tin men your wise ones?
Jerome: Experience Oz (clear)

ok, the Oz connection

“Oz” is a Hebrew word meaning (dependant upon pronunciation) “strength,” “to take refuge,” and/or “a she-goat”

as such, it’s thus related to one of the “pillars of Solomon’s Temple” (Boaz), and numerologically to 77 (MZL), which in kabbalah indicates, in part, “authority from Kether” (highest Godhead), and of course Melchizedek and mazaltov, the Judaic “good luck wish”

later in the Tunes, the Nick reveals that Oz is “our [i.e., the Boys’] world”

The Wizard of Oz, released in 1939, is the ur-movie that plots the evolution of the West, and charts the occult “course” of America

it is magical in the fullest sense of that word -- in its making, its content, and its transtemporal effect

similarly, the 1999 film Fight Club is a prophetic “late update” on the status of the primal duality (woman/man) – and especially on the status of Western masculinity – at the close of the millennium

note the descent journeys of both the Ed Norton character (“Jack”) and the Helena Bonham Carter character

they represent the “walk through hell” -- the nigredo or nekyia -- of the collective masculine and feminine in the West (with Brad Pitt as “Tyler Durden” -- Jack's shadow/alter-ego and psychopomp/Shaitan)

the moment that H.B. Carter steps out of Durden's “mansion” in her “bride of frankenstein” gown, the door to Oz opens

(there are similar “Oz gateways” built into a handful of modern films, as Baum’s classics reverberate through the future)

note that Jerome doesn’t say “watch Oz”

he says “Experience Oz” – quite a different thing

the difference, say, between the Wicked Witch of the West as fictional artifice vs. Screeching Reality, passing over America disguised as, oh, a cloud -- or an F15

anyway: the two films are deeply interconnected – both films “modernize” the ascent/descent portals that Plato discusses in the Dialogues, and both are eschatological films of collective transformation-by-archetype (Dorothy, Jack)

one final note: in 1941, two years after the film release of The Wizard of Oz, Aleister Crowley wrote Liber Oz, which he considered the manifesto of his O.T.O. “magickal organization”

Adrian: You, Jed, have no home that others can jones in. ( I had been using my homelessness as an excuse for not "jonesing". )
Jerome: Is that what you said?
Adrian: No. ( Another one who's rebelling against my distrust )
Tom: You seem to be distracted. You want to talk now, or later in your room?
Adrian: (verbally) Later.
Nick: O Jed, IUO no one.
[Terry just came back from a vacation]
Nick: Tan on Terry(Ramirez) is from a salon.
Nick: Nuts most Tin men. Were not nuts.
Tom: Anything else?
Nick: Test this with Mary (the nurse).
Nick: Son out o Jed. You moll Rojo's.
Tom: What's Rojo's?
Nick: Us existence.
Tom: Who's son?
Nick: You
Tom: What do you mean by out?
[ thinking not working for them]
Tom: I'm fired again?
Nick: Tegin Rost win centinel.
Tom: Who's Tegin Rost?
Nick: No one you know.

“Son out o Jed” recalls the Djed/Great Pyramid/Osiric “device,” given that it purportedly contains or contained the “soul of the messiah”

the Ark of the Covenant was surmounted by two opposing cherubim, and the Djed assemby is shown in the Denderah reliefs with twin tubes, each containing a “serpent” (“Seref”)

as for “Tegin Rost”: Kul-Tegin was the most famous figure in Mongolian/Turkish ancestry, a Khan of the 8th Century C.E. in the Gok-Turk State

Tegin was the first true philosopher-king arising from the ancient Hun Tribes, his statesmanship so impressive that his words were inscribed on the Kul-Tegin stela (732 C.E.), the first written text in Turkish

like Plato’s Dialogues, the stela focuses on wisdom, not war, contrasting the ancestral Khans with “the foolish successors” who served themselves instead of the State, leading the sheeple and the State into ruin

(I do believe a modern allegory is inferred by Nick!)

a “rost” is a strong tide or current, especially in a narrow channel (from the Icelandic language) -- so in combination with the Tegin-royalty theme, Nick might be suggesting a cultural or spiritual “tide” passing through the archetypal “narrow gate” that doubles as an electro-magnetic “current”

such a transformation might thus be connected with a return of “ancestral royalty”

the result of this transformation is, according to Nick, “win centinel” -- a handy thing, no doubt, whatever it is!

Hey! Hey! Cripple Creek Ferry!
running through the overhanging trees
Make way for the Cripple Creek Ferry!
the water’s goin’ down, it’s a mighty tight squeeze!

“Cripple Creek Ferry” (N. Young)

Nick: You met Tom know one knows in the Lord. Not in rotten nonsense of [P.P.] ( A year before my divorce I cleaned it up and took my kids to church every Sunday. I was active in the church when I was an adolescent. )

Date: 1/11/94
Brent: Essence embalmed.

this could be Brent’s response to Nick’s Tegin-Djed quotes of 1/10/94, referring again to the nahash or soul-essence that is entombed or embalmed within the Djed

Tom: Jerome hearing test [proved he was deaf, so question arises how does he hear commands that he so accurately responds to - "minds speak". "Minds speak" is an expression he used when facilitating to another staff back in '92. I read through those FC's last nite )]
Brent: Testing effort stupid.
Tom: What to do with these FC's?
Brent: See if it gells with religious.
Tom: People, leaders, what?
Brent: See all (Clear)
Tom: After reading these FC's last nite and seeing how hard you tried to communicate to staff, I started thinking that the reason not much FC is going on is because were doing something wrong. Is that right?
Brent: No
[Mecham in office FC ing with Brent. I walk through the dorm acknowledging the fact and say " I like to think it was my FC's that jarred him, but chances are it was Jerome's test". ]
Nick: I want to talk.
Nick: You just ( I thought he was going for "jarred") wait. Your not the only one [probably referring to the revelations in the FC's]
Nick: Our, us to sustain somo tunes. Nick listens to your tunes to sustain hens in bed. (?)
Tom: Mecham ? [ He facilitated with him earlier] Want to talk about it ?
Brent: Tussled, but to learn too hard.
Tom: Had trouble Fcing with him?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Were you able to get anything through? What content?
Brent: Yes. FCing within mind reading.
Tom: Any perceptions?
Brent: He's attempting to get to reason. Let him get you his eager interest. ( When it came to FC, Mecham was as eager as a turtle. A few months from now, he wouldn’t even talk to me about it )
Tom: Keep going the way I'm going.
Brent: Yes
Tom: Anything else?
Brent: No.
Adrian: to get likes of Mecham, try tuning something less unusual regaling Tin Man. Hint: Essence or greatness of humans not aliens. No one likes to be liked by monsters. Try malling stupidity. Religion nor hint religion wise thing to do. More necessary to toss it to reason. Stomach others skepticism. (2/97 This is a mouthful of advice for me. It’s rigtht on too. Except I did mention religion alot. I’m sure that they knew I would )

“Essence or greatness of humans not aliens” -- hmm, well, that’s quite a jump from “sarcastic lice” isn’t it?

as far as the U.F.O. stuff goes, you might check out Jung’s slim tome on the subject, still a classic

Jung equates U.F.O.s with the Eastern mandala, and considers them a symbol for individuation (Jung’s “Self”) at the personal level, and for approaching wholeness at collective levels, manifesting completion of the individual/collective descent process, with matter fully penetrated by spirit

Tom: What’s Brent want to do?
Adrian: Not sit in living room.
Tom: How long should I let him rest for?
Adrian: 45 min.
Tom: Adrian says you want to rest.
Brent: No. Adrian's not my mother. In living room. ( Adrian and Brent have been roomates for many years. Brent had trouble initiating movement except to flee )
Tom: This thing that Adrian said brings up the problem again of aliens vis a vis Tin men. ( I'm almost at the end of this Tin Man stuff )
Brent: Yes. The Aliens are God
Tom: The Tin Men?
Crent: Yes.
Tom: This Tin man that's watching me. Is this one Alien or a lot of them.
Brent: A lot of them. Repeating IOUs are their situation. Irrelevant map you have of reason. Object is to placate them with your faith. You represent average people.

when I hear “repeating IOUs,” I recall the movie “Groundhog Day”

and you do represent a large cross-section of guys, the major difference being that you speak your mind (loudly) and they don’t

Tom: Me personally?
Brent: Yes, Follow feelings
Tom: I should follow my feelings?
Brent: Yes (Yes)
Tom: Anything more.
Brent: No (No) (More)
moments later
Tom: Is this alien thing a metaphor for you guys?
Brent: Yes ( Yes) (Yes)

Gym -
[Jerome's shoes were digging into his heel, but he still said he wanted to go the gym]
Tom: Did you want to be with me so you could talk ?
Jerome: Yes. Seminal wise, reason to religion. Resume religious repository later. Some not all resist you . I pit our sary liason with you. Am renting rad pits for you ( I got my cherished apartment back at the end of this project. )

well, here we go again, Twilight Zone fans – I doubt he’s talking about your apartment . . .

this quote from Jerome appears right on the heels of my Fight Club recommendation above, in which I mention Tyler Durden, played by (B)rad Pit(t)s

air-man, we have contact!

I wonder if “renting rad pits” is anything like “hiring” the “roq lord”??

LOL!!

Tom: Anything more?
Jerome: No
[Geof hitting things]
Tom: What's bugging you?
Geof: Exist to mollify you. Stirred up bowling you over.
Tom: Were you upset that I didn't check in with you tonite?
Geof: Yes . Felt left out.
Geof: Galls me kicking, mollifying Centinels using you in IOUs. Ostentations, galling religion promotes mostly Centinel. In lost kinds of ways we record necessary demons. Tonawanda Tom is not delinquant, nor your hi-hec habits. Noggin could be in better life, degrees... [At this point staff and asst. supervisor Jan Toots interrupted us and took Geof off for snack. She's done this before even after knowing the concentration required for this and my consternation when she does it. She could have easily waited a few minutes, but was apparently resentful of the work I was doing. It’s not that she didn’t believe in FC, but she may have been jealous or fearful of it being used against her]

many women (and men) fear the gathering of men in “woman-free” environments -- note that such settings are expressly forbidden in American culture, unless one is drinking beer or scarring football helmets

when men in America took their