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PART THREE

KIN NOTES

 

 

Date: 1/28/94

Tom: What did you mean by "our rotten religion" ( This is a quote from a month ago )

Geof: I out did myself

Tom: What did Adrian mean by " gem in old religion"

Geof: Its U O I's. Your onto what quotes are important. ( After two years of studying this, I’m a QIM tune scholor.)

Date: 1/31/94

Tom: This power thing. I need to get a ballpark idea of it. We have it, but you guys are more aware and practiced at it and can focus it at right time? Right?

Nick: Oui

Nick: Jed into money too much.

[I denied I was vis a vis them, but recently I’ve been financially pressured]

Nick: O U Jed O Jed

Tom: That's nice of you, But I O U

Nick: U U U U Jed un O I U ! O Jed Om U. Jed enough moucher for us. Yes, you are a moucher.

Tom: Are there any of us who aren't?

Nick: Yes

Tom: Who?

Nick: Utts ( This throws me off the "utt" trail. )

Tom: Utts?

Nick: Teo u someday. Mind in south direction. ( South, I believe, represents my primordial impulses )

 

south infers underworld, unconscious, libidic, daemonic, chthonic

 

Tom: Mine?

Nick: Yes. South Oleo interest. You should understand Thin Tin Man Roi to us. You not in outside lane to us. Tin Man I O U. Your to Most High for us!

 

:O)

 

Nick: U Jed uno Jed to us .Not oun on ... Jed onto no I OU.

Nick: Tune to us.

Tom: How?

Nick: Meditation tones.

Nick: Zoo 'round Oz.

Tom: What's Oz. Our world , yours, Beta (The Dorm)? ( The dorm )

Nick: Our's.

 

maybe meaning they are the center, surrounded by an infernal “zoo” -- like Avalon within the lake, like the Grail Castle within the bloody moat

 

“Zoo round Oz” also plays off Nick’s “you not in outside lane to us” quote, suggesting a “close-orbital” type of relationship

“tones,” so ubiquitous in the Tunes, forms an essential part of Chinese speech, and the Sumerians probably spoke a unique non-Semitic language that likely also incorporated tonal elements (and would bear on the pre-Babel “unified speech” of humanity

 

 Tom: Recently or usually.

Nick: Usually.

Tom: Jerome once said "Tunes aint lef" (PeterSellers).

Brent: To care lame. Tom Perry

 

ooh, a Quotefest!

 

kin I play?

 

thanks for asking, here’s my entry:

 

Sleep is easier twined in the safety of the promises
that are kept by those who care.
The field is to be a connection if the boys are patient
and the seeds are sown on the other side of the waterway

 

        Excerpt  from “Quiet by the Edge of Dreams,”  Jeffrey Powell, Jr.

 

[ It is interesting he should mention Perry here. I don't know why I didn't ask, but I did call Perry because of it shortly afterwards. With the earthquake down in L.A. and all, Perry sounded a little stressed and I felt that he was disappointed that I hadn't called sooner to see how they were. Perry, by the way, was the person who introduced "Giles Goat Boy" to me- he did his undergraduate thesis on it. He now has five novels published. This past two years of my financial difficulties he's helped cushion me with a two grand loan. I used it to work less (moonlighting) and concentrate on this project. So he's really my sponsor for this, but he doesn’t know it]

[The first question I asked Nick about whether you use your "powers"?]

Brent: Yes, we are using it.

Tom: Nick's comment on Oz. Is he just bitching.

Brent: Yes. Excells at bitching.

Brent: We quote you tarnishing semantics.

Tom: You mean when I try to explain your guys stuff?

Brent: Yes. Pew arting Halls favorite.

Brent: Kemp will be President.

Brent: You all we latice people have.

Tom: Have?

Brent: You utterly eclectic.

Tom: [Dinner] You want to talk later?

Brent: I: E. Most High. Use all we taught you. It'll cause Jed's mother to be happy.

 

Brent is possibly following-up Nick’s “Thin Tin Man Roi” quote above (“Your to Most High for us!”)

 

the use of the colon suggests ratio relationship, as in I is to E

 

the word “thinking,” e.g., is “thin-king,” hinting at both its roots and prospects (roi being French for “king,” derived from the Latin regem, the accusitive case of rex, via the Old French rei.)

 

Perhaps English is evolving from the many, confused, and warring tongues post-Babel into not merely a lingua franca, but a recovered ur-language – and exploring the dialect in Qim Tunes may have a part in that.

 

“Jed’s mother” is probably equivalent to Adrian’s “Joy” – magna mater, this planet

 

Thin Tin Man Roi, Roq Lord, the Ref: perhaps an eschatologic witness/judge, a “followed favorite,” perhaps related to Geof’s prior quote, “In lost kinds of ways we record necessary demons”:

 

Think not in your minds, neither say in your hearts, that every crime is not manifested and seen. In heaven it is daily written down before the Most High. Hence forwards shall it be manifested; for every act of oppression which you commit shall be daily recorded . . . (1 Enoch 96:16) 

 

by “manifested,” Enoch means not only revealed, but “worked out” through incarnation (i.e., brought home to all individuals)

rounding out the “Thin Tin Man”/Oz theme, there’s also this:

 

Listen people to a story
that was written long ago,
'bout a kingdom on a mountain
and the valley folks below.
On the mountain was a treasure
hidden deep beneath a stone,
and the valley people swore
they'd have it for their very own.

Go ahead and hate your neighbor,
go ahead and cheat a friend.
Do it in the name of heaven,
you can justify it in the end.
There won't be any trumpets blowing,
come the judgment day.
On the bloody morning after
one Tin Soldier rides away

        “One Tin Soldier” (Dennis Lambert, Brian Potter)

 

or:

 

We've been through some things together
with trunks of memories still to come
We found things to do in stormy weather
Long may you run...

Maybe The Beach Boys have got you now
with those waves singing ‘Caroline No’
Rollin' down that empty ocean road
Gettin' to the surf on time.
Long may you run.
Long may you run.
Although these changes have come
with your chrome heart shining in the sun
Long may you run.

        “Long May You Run” (N. Young)

 

 

Tom: Who should get the FC Coordinator job? Angel or Tom?

( I’m not taking them seriously about my promotion (Most High). It would be another three or four months before I would. Reading this now, two years later, I feel ashamed at my reaction.)

Nick: Tom

Tom: Who's going to get it?

Nick: Tom Tunes muny lot. Don't stun our Angel.

 

Here’s an example of how these guys jump straight from the personalistic (the Coordinator job at “Seaton Hall” involving the woman named “Angel”) to the collective (the warning against stunning “their” Angel, possibly  someone involved with the “Most High” business,  with what Geof later calls the “Lord lotto”)

 

“stun,” of course, is “nuts” backwards, suggesting that this “Angel” is nutz or is perceived as a nutcase – a wingnut!

 

Geof: Toss FC. Stupid women you let run tux. You press luster to more here. [At this point I was criticizing Terry with Brent] You lutz, RN utts , not us. ( Rn is registered nurse. Nursing comes in a variety of contexts as we go along. Here, I think he’s saying that I should take care of my advisaries more than them )

Tom: What's are utts?

Geof: Stowe House assholes [ Stowe House is a lovely park I spend many of my mornings before going to my athletic club. I indulge my bad habits there] Tussle mind moppers. Rt uttys.

Tom: RT?

Geof: You try W K T not faqirs.

 

“K T” is elsewhere identified as “Kursed Tutus” and associated with “nuts”

 

Geof: Plenty of work to do fostering tunes. Your stupid Hale. U O I.

Adrian: Not in yutz. Tunes to support you. His life not yours. Your mio better

Nick: Our Jojo U O Jed

Jerome: Exit nuts , pen us.

 

“exit nuts” may mean freeing the so-called “retards” -- the outsiders -- from the Zoo, outing them into mainstream society

 

“pen us” follows up that theme, as “open us” or ”write about us,” though the opposite interpretation of “enclose” or “confine” is also available

 

[Joked w/ Adrian about Brians " to care is lame" statement]

Jerome: He an tar you. You care to sense, we are sense. Hety so you kut exy.

Tom: Happy Birthday Geof! Tomorrow is your Birthday.

Geof: Yes. Out on the edge noise sustains us. Tutu on rut on my Jed.

Tom: Why?

Geof: Tune in tones ie noise.

Tom: Do you actually here voices chattering away?

Geof: No. Mostly noise exhibited in noise

Tom: How do you know specifics of what I think?

Geof: Urgent sounds mind hears.

Tom: Do you know the science of it?

Geof: Yes Q R S T immasses heinous L D's.

 

Q – R – S – T is, I think, the sinus wave (normal) electro-sequence of the human heartbeat

 

“L D’s” coupled with “heinous” feels infernal -- my guess on “LD’s” is “Low Downs,”  “Lowest Denominators,” or perhaps “Latter Days” -- in which case he’s describing “tune in tones” or the process of mental immersion/telepathy

 

the modern L.D.S. church is heavily involved with “baptisms” of the dead, and some commentators connect these activities with malevolent necromancy and the occult interests of Joseph Smith

 

Geof’s comments here stem from his previous gambit, “Tutu on rut on my Jed,” perhaps an allusion to “noise” he hears from the libidic energy of the “Jed” he was monitoring at that time

 

Tom: Is that a joke or are you serious.

Geof: Your not rinsing ages on our Tunes. Your so stupid skinning us.

Tom: So there's something to it?

Geof: Out nell recorded in our history. Stupid Ronnie Hale's not happy with. I Lime most Smith. Sveting Norsemen last longer. Quote story not to Ronnie, confidential. Let mind reading place RT on hinge. TLC Mecca in OX.

 

“Sveting Norsemen last longer” could suggest Vedism in general, and the Indo-Germanic god Wotan in particular – of his pre-Norse lineage, and of his “transformation” into another “deity” when those tribes were Christianized

 

“Let mind reading place RT on hinge” – as in a bridge or trapdoor linking Heaven and Hell

 

“TLC Mecca in OX” suggests, in part, “the goal is love” (see immediately below for a possible connection between Brent’s “Ten gain” quote and a literal ox)

 

Seal IV

 

Date: Feb, 1 1994

FC Coordinator Job went to Angel. Money squeeze OK. The Buffalo Bills lost the Super Bowl again. Brent had hysteria today.

Brent: You it, jut for us.

Tom: We have a beach walk, jacuzzi etc. What do you want?

Brent: Tet U I O. Refuse to educate. Use sag it. Ebb must enact ... U I O Ten gain. U I believe.

 

In Buddhism, as mentioned above, the Tenth Ox symbolizes wholeness in the path -- the marriage between earthly matter (cherry trees) and spirit (the boddhi)

 

At Devereux Point (Beach)

Adrian: You Jed nuts.

Geof: Out O U.

Tom: The PRN problem? ( He had a rare behavior problem before I came to work today. I berlieve it was meant to be a message to me because of my disappointment about the FC job. I don’t usually line things like this up, but this time I can.)

Brent: Occasionally odd behaviour occurs.

Tom: Anything to do w/ FC coordinator job?

Brent: Nemisis augments us. Elemental heart yards bigger that you have.

Tom: Am I being punished?

Brent: No. Necessity to get job done. ( This "Nemisis furthers the goal" idea really has been the most aid to me in this task. Every step of the way, mine and FC’s detractors have made the most blatantly foolish mistakes which ultimately do more to promote FC and me than anything the believers could have done.)

Tom: My instincts about it have been OK?

Brent: (Yes) (Yes)

Tom: Anything else.

Brent: (Yes) About western note you made about Buffalo. The West is the best(Yes).Touches all the world. Atest in favor years and years in advance.

 

“Atest” is both “a test” and “attest,” perhaps the Tunes as a testament

 

Tom: You sound like a Mormon

Brent: Yes. Like them. Axes to grind for them.

 

Joseph Smith was a modern Hermeto-Gnostic priest, amongst other things -- a magus who carried and used magickal objects, including a “seer stone”

of Smith, Harold Bloom wrote:

 

 his genius reinvented Kabbalah in the effort necessary to restore archaic Judaism

 

reportedly, Mormon Temple rituals are heavily influenced by Masonry and Hermeticism

 

as John L. Brooke puts it in The Refiner's Fire: The Making of Mormon Cosmology:

 

The alchemical-hermetic term of coniunctio powerfully summarizes the resolution that Smith had achieved at Nauvoo by the summer of 1844. He had established a theology of the conjunction--the unification--of the living and the dead, of men and women, of material and spiritual, of secular and sacred, all united in a "new and everlasting covenant" . . . . In effect the greater Mormon emergence can be visualized as meta-alchemical experience running from opposition to union, an experience shaped and driven by the personality of Joseph Smith.

 

Date: Feb. 2 '94

I've been very disappointed about Angel getting FC job. Need more money anyway. Thinking of contracting and getting job at Jay Nolan.

(Jay Nolan was a large organization of group homes for Autistics located in the high desert above LA. I had heard they were supportive of FC and thought I could go over there and get work. )

Geof: Tune lower o Jed. Necessity, Jed , nominal U O I

Tom: What "necessity""?

Geof: Out of sum then Jeds (Others need more time). You is oem in jem. Nick noel. Ou's ignores Nick. ( They all agree that Nick is my Mentor with this )

Tom: Ou’s?

Geof: Oin’s [Apparently doing another takeoff on I O U's] You owe nothing Jed to educate. O U's on even, not U O ie Raliegh.

 

“Oin” was one of Tolkien’s band of Burglar Dwarves in “The Hobbit” (each of whom was a kind of dwarf-lord in his own lands)

they were magical “aides” or allies of Bilbo Baggins, the protagonist of the book, the beneficent “burglar” who slew the devouring Dragon, Smaug

 

elsewhere in the Tunes, one of the Boys refers to their group as “gnomes,” and these entities, of course, have an ancient tradition, often related, like the Cabiri,  to mining and other subterranean activity

 

“The Hobbit” and “Lord of the Rings” are the literary complement to Baum’s Oz books, sharing a spiritual underpinning

 

Tom: How would I do with Jay Nohan guys?

Geof: U O us not Lieus of Jay Nolan. (Lieus= crazies)

Tom: It seems to me that you guys don't need FC teachers + Fcers as much as you need the "story" to get out. ( I don’t believe I knew how right I was when I said that)

Jerome: Yes It is a testimonial(clear). Rebsy we need.

Tom: Rebsy?

Jerome: Sessy, Testy, Teuty.

 

“Rebsy” means “southern-sounding” or “rebel” in nature

 

“Sessy” is sassy, “Teuty” means Teutonic/Germanic, and “Testy” means, well, testy – a prickly kind of person

but “Testy” is also a possible play on “ballsy,” thus suggesting the Grail King and wound

 

“Rebsy we need” reminds me of Eminem, and his “Without Me””:

 

Little hellions kids feeling rebellious
Embarrassed, their parents still listen to Elvis
They start feeling like prisoners, helpless
'Til someone comes along on a mission and yells "BITCH"
A visionary, vision is scary, could start a revolution
Pollutin' the air waves a rebel . . .

 

Jerome: Tuex Kuy Yz

Tom: Adrian say something

Adrian: You O U U U .

Brent: U Tet.

Tom: Could I continue this at Jay Nolan as well as I'm doing now?

Brent: No. Touch better here because our minds gained abilities.

Nick: U O Too. U O O O O.

Tom: Brent is there any good way to go about this. If so how?

Brent: Yes. Ask Mecham. Mark calendar. Tet to be in March. Its winnable

Tom: What is required?

Brent: Task is to believe.

 

Brent might mean March, 2002 – when I sent you my first full draft of these Notes – and here, “Tet” probably means a major “offensive” on their behalf

 

Tom: Believe in what your saying, you or God.

Brent: Not believe in OU's. ( He hit the nail on the head there )

Tom: This I O U stuff. Would you use it with others or is it more personalized with me?

Brent: Others

Tom: Donnellan said with this spirit stuff, someone came across the words Hudder and Judder. She said that she would be interested in what you guys said it meant. (I remember now, I brought it up and this was all she mentioned about it)

Brent: You tell Donnellan South is Hudder, north is Judder. ( I did tell her some time later, but all she said in response was "that is interesting" or some such thing.)

Tom: You guys don't cross validate with our stuff, but maybe you will with your stuff. (3/96 The "toll bones" have been numerous and consistent with what I recieved here)

Brent: Yes It demeans us to get involved noticing your "stuff".

Nick: You are an asshole.

Tom: OK. That's what I was thinking you were going to say. Now say something that's yours.

Nick: You essentially believe. Religion is us. Your some nehi quote mother fucker.

Tom: Could I do the job as well at Jay Nolan?

Jerome: My easy. ( I remember not getting this for some time because I was putting this emphasis on the wrong word. )

Nick: Yes. Some there are better than us.

 

suggesting that, even in a relatively close locale, other “autistic networks” exist …

 

this comment also shows the these guys aren’t too “ate up” with themselves

 

Tom: Nick says I can continue at Nolan.

Brent: Yes Our interest can be continued, but harder there.

Tom: Is is structural, relationship, clients or more?

Brent: Yes, getting the relationship.

Tom: Couldn't you help with them?

Brent: Yes. Never in a thousand years would we help. (This thousand year cliche has more significance to me now, but I know to others its stretching it. )

Tom: Why?

Brent: Tet is here

 

a millennial reference to Endtimes conflict?

 

tet on Earth, tet in Heaven . . .

       

He was born a pauper to a pawn on a Christmas day

when the New York Times said god is dead

and the War’s begun.

Alvin Tostig has a Son today

 

        “Levon” (Taupin, John)

 

the feminist-dominated New York Times has done enormous damage to the men and boys of modern America over the past few decades

 

Tom: Why?

Brent: Tet is here because O U I. You handled this merely because of Nick.

Tom: Wouldn't Nick help?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Wouldn't you help?

Brent: No. Centinel believes to hell with you.

[Sitting next to Brent and thinking of ramifications of my possible leaving]

Brent: Yes. I am bemoaning your leaving. Yes tears are falling. You please me not a little. ( There were a few tears comming down his cheeks. I never saw any of them have tears before.)

Date: 2/3/94

Hatchell talked to me before work about about presenting a paper on my FC work for the Las Vegas Autism Conference comming up in March. This was a real feather in my cap if I did it. I was excited about it, but also nervous and apprehensive about public speaking. I struggled all through high school trying to overcome my stage fright by becomming an officer in numerous organizations. I never overcame it. I don’t know what was going on behind the scenes, but some weeks later I talked to the CEO Atkinson about it, and he said they weren’t going to have me do it because the conference officials decided to de-emphasize FC. That this should happen on the heals of Brent’s tears, is not coincidental to me now.

Brent: Temerity - heats on. Teutonic Jed in lead. Git Jed's ass in gear. ( He’s addressing Hatchell’s Autism Conference offer.)

Adrian: Utt enough. He touches us.

Alex's Bar

Brent’s acting very upset

Tom: What's wrong with Brent?

Geof: U U U

Tom: What about me?

Geof: Your too nuts.

Tom: Brent, what's the problem?

Brent: Your agitating me.

Later....

Geof: Utt enough for me. ( These "utt" references are my increased status due to Hatchell’s offer.)

Tom: Want to go to McDonald's?

Geof: No. Karls.

Tom: What is it about Karls? ( I’m asking them about a mystery I detected on this job and with another population I used to work with (chronic Schizoprenics). Both groups overwhelmingly patronized Karls and I’m asking them why.)

Geof: I O U to Karl.

Tom: The owner

Geof: Yes

 

Karma at work! -- they sniff out and reward the righteous, even at the level of burgers ‘n fries!

 

Tom: Are you going to help with my presentation?

Geof: No. Mollify utt by O I not O U.

Tom: Presentation help?

Brent: Tunes frame the man. Wont help mall belief. SB. SB . SB. SB. (I don’t understand why the "presentation" would "mall belief". I’m interpreting the SB as the Christian staff Scott Bishop.)

Tom: I haven't malled his belief, but I have malled some of the hypocracy.

Brent: Yes.Dee Dee's getting girls.

(I made a crack once that an old staff (DD) joined Bishop’s church group because of all the young girls that attended.)

Tom: Yes I did, and that was in poor taste. But is it true? And I haven't done it to S.B.

Brent: Yes. With Bishop teasing. (I don’t think the "Yes" was in response to DD’s motivation for joining the chuch group. He brought this up to put on the record my nasty comment and my support for Bishop. He suffered alot of abuse from the young and liberal staff about his eager church participation. I defended him.)

Tom: Maybe a little, but I've been a whole lot better than the other stuff.

Brent: Yes.

Brent: Toll ain't esseminating snack. Me O U to end I O U. Sin ode O U.

Tom: [Referred above] Is that right?

Brent: No. To emece, ogle God not girls. (This is about ‘The Last Temptation of Tom Smith that I mentioned some time ago.)

 

“emece” may be “emcee” – then inferring a leadership role,  a “master of ceremonies”

 

the larger reference is to the Nymph, the Host’s “Fall,” the kabbalistic/Rosicrucian “rectification” of the haeteric/uroboric/primal state, and completion of a transformational and redemptive cycle

 

“me O U to end I O U.  Sin ode O U”  could prophesy the death of sin and the mass forgiveness, or rectification, of karmic debt -- the Tunes are a “sin ode,” and these guys (and other otties) may function as “sin eaters”

 

both issues are bound up with the Fall, the mixing of human and divine elements, the wound inflicted upon the masculine by the termination of hetaerism (uninhibited sexuality), the inception of and progression of matriarchal kinship/social/proto-legal systems, and the release and redemption of the Scapegoat (both in its aspect as the Host, and in the persecution of masculinity in the West)

 

or . . . I could be Completely Rong . . .

 

Tom: Do you know about that thing of mine in the mountains. [ This refers to one of the strongest religious experiences I've had. It happened about 4 years ago. My ex wife had threatened to divorce me if I didn't do something about my personal problem. I went to the mountaines backpacking and felt trapped and scared. I was sitting on a rock, head in hands and said "Oh God". All of a sudden I felt a hundred percent better. It was like a huge weight was taken off me. I wasn’t praying or consciously asking for God’s help. He sure did give it though. I eliminated my personal problem for the next year and a half. Four months into the separation, after having a false cancer scare, my personal problem reared its ugly head again ]

Brent: Tet dull, not God.

Tom: Is that true about the aliens?

Brent: No Gores. Gotcha ( Finally, he fesses up)

Tom: Have you supported religion thru miracles and such?

Brent: No. Not enough towards it to account for enticing so many people.

Tom: Your back pedaling here.

Brent: Yes Torture over it.

Tom: Is it the paranoia from our side? ( Why they are being so circumspect )

Brent: Yes. Is the awe semantics required.

Brent: Yes, all it erases basic kinds of beliefs Religion requires.

Tom: If what you told me is true these past months, than a shift is required without losing belief. Possible?

Brent: Yes, emece it.

Geof: You ie hem belief. Sin out in our world. U O I not I O U . Gene hides tunes fomenting U O I Jed.

 

“emece,” again, may be “emcee”

 

“Yes, all it erases basic kinds of beliefs Religion requires” suggests that “awe” itself -- direct experience with the numinous, with “God” -- will be the practical “new religion

 

the law’s Spirit instead of the Letter, perhaps

 

those “beliefs” resulting from life experience, however, are not “erased,” hinting that it is phenomenology, and not received knowledge and social conditioning, which is carried across lifetimes and eras

 

Tom: Do I have an extra gene or am I missing one?

Geof: Tom is not Jed, but Meg. (I’m sure I had a good chuckle with this one)

 Back at the Dorm

Tom: Jerome if you were thinking of Peter Sellers when you said "Tunes ain't Lef", please spell PeterSellers

Jerome: Peter Sellers.

Tom: Did you know about him in the movies or Mad Magazine? (He loves looking at magazines )

Jerome: Movies.

Adrian: Tussle on spirit out.

Tom: Why?

Adrian: Tout oe not us.

Tom: What's oe?

Adrian: You.

Adrian: U O I , Jed, U U U U. To, um, rid, toss us out Jed, not our interest. Your to not tend our spirit stuff. ZOO tends Om O Jed, not Jesus. OU OU OU. Your to sort out. No hint, omit OUN

Tom: What's N ( I’m misinterpreting OUN )

Adrian: Neiman. (This is a curve ball because of my dumb question)

Tom: Adrian even wanted me to toss out Neiman.

Brent: Not Neiman, Janes.

Tom: What's Adrian mean by OUN?

Brent: Otto. Your Nickname Oed n ouch. (Otto was my nickname in high school - from Otto Schmidtlap in the 50’s sitcom The Life of Reily. This nickname became a problem as I went through high school. It brought with it a certain level of disrespect that I couldn’t tolerate. In my senior year I told everyone that Tom and Smitty were alright, but no more Otto. I turned it around except for one old freind who held out. I warned him a few times and then I had to punch him in the stomach. You should have seen the look on his face, he couldn’t believe I would actually hit him. He appologized and said he didn’t know how serious I was about it. He’s a great guy. )

Tom: OUN = Otto my nickname?

Brent: Nick's nickname on ecct.

Tom: What's ecct?

Brent: Ect.

Tom: If I omitted all that I'd be cutting the heart out of the FC's. (I’m still off)

Brent: O U E.

Tom: What's E?

Brent: Touch U O

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Deities agitated in our world.

Brent: Tin gin man touches us.

 

a young autistic friend of mine calls me “E,” and this is apparently a common vowel-vocalization amongst “deep otties”

 

“tin gin” in combination with “otto” suggests L.A. Waddell’s speculations on the Bowl of Udu, unearthed from Eker, the solar temple at Nippur, Meopotamia (current Iraq, 160 km southeast of Baghdad)

 

Waddell equates the Bowl with the “magic cauldron” of Thor (Zeus, Indra) and the “holy grail” of King Ar-Thur

 

the Bowl fragments were inscribed by Udu, fourth king of Kish, and are dedicated to the “first king” of the Sumero-Aryan line, King Za-ga-ga

 

Waddell writes:

 

This Bowl is disclosed by our new evidence to have been the central fetish magical stone-bowl of the aboriginal Chaldaean Serpent-worshippers. They violently opposed the establishment of King Dur or Sagg’s Civilization with its bland Sun-worship which destroyed the immemorial debasing superstitions of those Serpent and Lion worshippers, with their animal and human sacrifices of devil worship and their swarms of wizards and weirds of that Mother-Son cult who batteled on and terrorized the people, yet the latter nevertheless implicitly believed their sorceries as the Serpent and Lion were the totems of their tribes.

 

thus, the “capture” of this “serpent-bowl” by solar-/monotheists symbolizes – and perhaps manifests -- the shift from literal blood-sacrifice to sublimated rites (e.g., the Catholic Mass), and from matriarchy to emerging patriarchy

 

the “headquarters” of this “mother-son” cult, from which the Bowl was captured, was the Neolithic subterranean “city” of Carchemish (presently near the Turkish/Syrian border), and its Fort of Gymi

 

the patron deity of Carchemish was the goddess Hubaba, and “Gymi” of course suggests gynocratic or gynocentric (“Hubaba” is almost certainly equivalent to the Akkadian Humbaba and the Sumero-Babylonian Huwawa, all of whom appeared as a giant or giantess who guarded the “Forest of Cedars” and personified the “River of Death”

 

the hero Gilgamesh, along with companion Enkidu, slay Hubaba in the Epic of Gilgamesh

 

Brent appears to suggest that “Otto” is Nick’s nickname, and Waddell posits that Udu could also be translated “Otto” – and King Gin was the grandfather of King Udu/Otto (i.e., the second king of Kish, the son of the deified original king, Za-ga-ga or Sagg)

 

“tin” is discussed elsewhere in these Notes in connection with seafaring, trading and mining by Waddell’s proposed Sumero-Phoenician-Hittite-Goths -- especially in what’s now the Cornwall section of Great Britain

 

Tom: Is there a lot of stuff I can use for the presentation?

Brent: Yes. You benefit yourself touching us. Zen bouys you giving to us.

Tom: [ I looked at Adrian forlornly]

Brent: Yes, Adrian your Centinel. (Adrian initiated this confusing, but for me very important exchange)

Adrian: Utt out so enjoy us. ( I didn’t know my presentation was cancelled, but he knew)

In Jacuzzi:

Brent: Zoo into IOU's too much [Paraphrase] We’ll continue to Hide

 

Vengeance is still Queen, and it’s a dangerous time for dwarves to surface

 

Brent: It's you or us

Tom: Why are you upset. Terry?

Adrian: No

Tom: Radio? (He walks around listening to a tape player all the time and gets upset when his batteries run out.)

Adrian: No

Tom: Our topic tonite.

Adrian: Yes

Tom: What about it

Adrian: Zoo needs us.

Tom: Did you guys get that Bear to rip off the lettres in my Backpack? (In the Sierras last summer I had a run in with a bear. There were a few letters I wrote about this discovery, which I had made the week before. I had this theory that they didn’t want anyone to know then and got the bear to rip me off. I believe now that they could have got the bear to do anything but not for that reason.)

Adrian: Yes.

Adrian: You not to eulogize us now.

Tom: Do you want me to convince the other guys?

Adrian: Yes. Tussle our soul .Jed IOU

Adrian: Tojo's entice. OU OU OU.

[Talking with Sharon and group about hooking up with big age differences and I said something derogatory about younger women who hook up with older men]

Nick: You horses ass. Your into outsinning O Jed. Yutz

 

sounds like a betrayal of brotherhood – maybe that’s why Nick jumps you

 

perhaps you were fawning to her, playing false knight

 

the collective delusion that men shouldn’t  be attracted to younger females -- when in fact males are biologically programmed for exactly that – causes more problems than it solves

 

but it keeps folks in wool coats!

 

and veal!

 

 LOL!!

 

Adrian’s “.Jed” quote is also interesting, with the “dot” suggesting the Internet

 

Tom: Isn't it frustrating not being able to join the conversation?

Nick: Zoo hears us. Tunes South OI U get through.

 

Date: 2/5/94

[Break out back thinking of what a reach it is to understand these guys and my present state making it more difficult]

Nick: You too zmoy to understand

Tom: I agree. (I was thinking he meant "Zooy")

Nick: Utt eo u o no Jed Jojo. (I don’t even know where to put the punctuation in on this)

Nick: You uo, uuu. Yutz

Tom: If people believed you guys would it be good, bad or don't know for religion?

Nick: Good.

Tom: Would it be like the Biblical Judgement day?

Nick: Yes. OU OU.

Tom: Would that be the main benefit to religion.

Nick: No Its us out O Jed.

Tom: What about you being out.

Nick: O O O O

 

if all human “cards” were suddenly turned face-up, it WOULD be Judgment Day

 

America wallows in psychological denial, reeling backwards down the Road of Regression, even while transforming itself electronically and technologically

Camille Paglia called modern America’s a “maternal psychosis”

 

our prized “rationalism” and “progressivism” doesn’t mitigate, but instead amplifies, mass unconsciousness and regressive psycho-socio-sexual tendencies

 

maybe this “Judgment Day” passage connects to the aforementioned “Mars” quotes – Mars being a “male planet” of “war energy”

 

Adrian: Not hosing you concerning spirit. ("Spirit represent the God connection for me)

Date: 2/7/94

[I asked Jay Hindleman ( an Autistic client I worked with a few years and liked very much. He’s living in another dorm) in Jacuzzi to address this problem of you guys talking through my uncounscious or my uncounscious talking instead of you. Actually I just said "address this uncounscious problem"]

Jay: I'm in my control. ( It’s true, he can type on his own. This is the first time I FC’d with him and am using hand support)

Jerome: Utter I'm envote. (To my question of unconscious content in FC’s)

Tom: Is that what you said?

Jerome: Oyet.

Brent: Us amount to bring touched. Task essentially teaches you.

Tom: You want to fly with that?

Brent: Yes. A Jed believes deities ignoring either or, like figuring ahead getting solid eye contact. ( Here’s the first mention of Either Or. The "figuring ahead statement" is an acknowledgement of their intentions with it. If you believe I’m honest in this task, than this is a confirmation of most of their claimed abilities. I’ll explain this later on, but take note of these Either Or hints. He’s saying here that someone (Jed) can believe in God without the validation they were to give me later. He’s the one figuring ahead with this knowing it would be like "solid eye contact" to me. )

 

Here, “Jed” is used in a collective sense, with an impersonal article, perhaps inferring a group of “attuned” people

 

Tom: Is that what you said?

Brent: Yes. Yen takes doing selling for benefit of us (It’s true, no matter who they were, I was to be devoted to them).

Tom: Did you hear what I wrote this weekend? Do you want to comment on it?

Brent: Jed likes Jeoffrey Ballet. (I was trying to write a summary of what I learned so far without sounding crazy. I couldn’t do it until now, two years later. I needed that much time in order to believe enough and to do it in approximately the right way. His response is clever, I wasn’t about to settle for the Jeoffrey Ballet in my framing of this, I was to work for something better)

Tom: I liked Alvin Ailley much better.

Brent: Yern earning belief.

Tom: Did you like the way I skirted the spirit stuff. Should I include it?

Brent: Jed for teaching flat on. Yes I am akin to including it.

Tom: Now this business of you guys using my attitudes in response to talking about other people ( I had the sense that they were mirroring back my attitudes when talking about others we knew). Now I know this is common with other people but your mind readers. Why?

Brent: Zen gadflys in meak Jed not in strong. Touching renegades, or some like them, wont hesitate to get relief for your likes.

 

new agey fads and dilettantes (“Zen gadflys”) won’t help you -- seek old desperados

 

Tom: You "wont"

Brent: Yes

Tom: You "guys wont"

Brent: Y,N,Y,N

Brent: Your kin asset is to help toll.

 

“kin asset” may refer to the “renegade”

 

“to help toll” suggests witnessing in the Biblical sense, as in the apocalyptic “two witnesses,” i.e., a karmic balancing

 

. . . and if by “toll” they mean “outsiders,” the interpretation isn’t changed appreciably

 

Tom: "Drenched in humanity". Did you like that? ( an expression I used in the "summary" that I thought poetically addressed their mind reading abilities)

Brent: The feeling keeps mankind going. Nefarious Tilling.

 

wow, a tough audience!

 

I thought your term described them well

 

perhaps in a sense they’ve already “been god,” and are now making their “humanness” whole . . .

 

“nefarious tilling” is probably a sexual/libidic reference, and may also suggest malevolent interference in telepathic electro-magnetic “fields”

 

[ Arguing with Terry about FC] ( Terry is very bright and has that know it all liberal, alcoholic kind of sarcasm. I was pretty good at that sort of thing myself, and most of the time we’d have fun playing off each other. What got to me was the influence he had on the other staff. Especially those young mindless feminists that were giving me so much trouble.)

Brent: Nemisis fosters goal.

Date: 2/7/94

Geof: Urgent information not pie. Units,Jed, learn mostly by finding O O O

 

he probably means what they’re telling you is not a bonbon for your delectation, nor is it easily found and expressed – i.e., be aggressive in their interests, and expect the project to be difficult

 

Tom: Anything else?

Geof: No. Talk to likes of Nick.

Date: 2/8/94

Jerome: Your task, Jed creates. Pen that. E O U test.

Jerome: O U Test Jed. Kux. U end much, atone rose ode.

 

“atone rose ode” could refer to certain songs that facilitate coniunctio, primarily by ascent of the prodigal, the outcast, the lost -- raising the fallen, the dead

 

the phrase also has Rosicrucian/Cathari/troubadour overtones

 

songs began not as commercial tidbits, nor as entertainment, but as connections with, and expressions of, the eternal

 

the right song, sung the right way, can move mountains (and has, many times)

 

Y, a song can even split roq, give the tin men hearts, bring forth waters of love!

 

in the (very) old days, the most powerful singer was the most powerful male -- or group of males -- on the planet

 

nuttin much has changed

 

Brent: You can earn a lot of money. (I’m sure I chuckled after this)

Tom: That's the first time you ever encouraged that.

Brent: Yes. Because written to calling you are. Tet has come. Ten Years it’ll take.

 

Brent’s ten-year-prophetic period ends in 2004

 

based on my experiences with this “document,” I would not bet against him

 

I think “Tet” here infers both the Tunes project and also war, in this case the eldest of all wars -- Genderwar, fought between the antagonists who are the foundational carriers of the opposites – the war which heralds the eschaton

 

the “cross-pollination” of the genders has been predicted for thousands of years, and is the primary theme of alchemy

 

(the opposites, and their integration or “marriage,” are also the basis of all occult dynamics and ceremonial magic; the sundering of the opposites began the human experience into duality, and their joining ends, or transmutes, it)

 

we associate “Tet” with the North Vietnamese war offensive, but the term also carries the reverse meaning, because the principal function of the TeT/Djed pillars was unification of the opposites (often represented as Lower/ Upper Egypt, or Israel/Judah, in the ancient world)

 

as with any element of power, of course, the Djed or Ark or Temple can be used wrongly

 

 

Tom: You really know, don't you?

Brent: Yes (Yes),(Yes) (Yes) Set in your ways. Don't worry Meg! Feel awed in this Its Ok. Key you own. Meg not into fame. (Meg is the feminine side of me)

 

“Set in your ways” has potential double meaning, as Set is a major figure in the Egyptian pantheon

 

Brent: You sense mind reading very well

[Bill (staff) described a vivid dream he had of Jerome awash in white light]

Tom: Any comment?

Jerome: Zen tout. ie ne.

Tom: ie ne?

Jerome: Kotter. ( I believe "ne" means no. I don’t know why he said Kotter. Oh yeah, I’m supposed to teach you what "ne" means.)

Geof: To TV Nick riepin on. ( His father was a TV actor) I O U, roll more with the punches O Jed. Keep lime light on us. O I U hec hi Jed.

Date: 2/10/94

Tom: Tabu Autistic? [Tabu -client at St. Francis where I'm moonlighting]

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Why doesn't he FC?

Brent: Telepathy, Boking you.

Tom: Boking?

Brent: Solemn feeling.

Tom: Can he FC?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Will he?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Does he spell and read?

Brent: Yes and No.

Adrian: You should inebriate sowing mind control instead of aged him nonsense.

Tom: "Aged him" -ego, God?

Adrian: U I O in Jed hell. Intelligence ...[Bus came] ( We were at the bus stop during this exchange)

 

“aged him” may be sol niger, lord of the lower halls, and his ways of “nonsense” -- meaning entheogens in this context, but also sexual/physical obsession more broadly

 

Nick: Zoo to um, utts us ...Youz u o u u u Wit , um, us. X O.

Brent: Yes, can FC with stupid people. Yes, Bu (Tabu) mind reads.

Tom: With the mind reading they can pick up on thoughts and spelling?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: And more?

Brent: Yes.To spell is not a problem,

Tom: Do they do it on their own?

Brent: No. We help.

Nick: Yutz, Tutu, we'll not turn Vise dusty with teim. Main religion not Christianity.

Tom: What is it?

Nick: Tuning Ref.

 

“Ref” is capitalized, and could refer to a group or an individual

 

 “Ref” reminds me of a referee’s shirt where black and white alternate in integration, like the rainbow vest of the Druidic Peacemaker

 

Ref also suggests the “station” of Tipheret on the kabbalistic/Rosicrucian Sephirotic Tree

 

like the figure of Mercurius duplex in alchemy, Tipheret integrates the opposites from the left-and right-hand “sides” of the Tree, creating and establishing Beauty from the collision of good and evil, heaven and earth, light and dark, etc.

 

In Christianity, the “referee” who resides at the crux of the opposites is Jesus

 

Rudolf Steiner considered the Archistrat part of the solar Host, and thus the source of intelligence in man – meaning, the terrestrial source of the Paleolithic Group Mind, and of emerging ego-consciousness (and resultant paternity, masculinity, religion, monotheism, etc.)

 

from Steiner’s essay “St. Michael”:

 

And in the time of Alexander and Aristotle when human beings were aware of thoughts -- that is to say, of the content of Intelligence within them --  they did not regard these thoughts as their own, self-made thought: they felt that the thoughts were revealed to them through the power of Michael, although in that pagan era this Michael Being was known by a different name.

 

Alexander (the Great) studied under Aristotle (circa 340 B.C.E.), and at that time the “Michael Being” had many names

 

Steiner approaches the study of consciousness from a spiritual angle, whereas Julian Jaynes, for example, comes to very similar conclusions about group-consciousness from a scientific p.o.v. – illustrating that both world-views came from, and return to, the same “place”

 

for Steiner,  the original “religion” moved intelligence from solarity to Earth as planetary consciousness, thence to individual human beings, to the extent that each being individuates into personality

 

Nick’s “new religion” of “tuning the ref” might then reverse the process, re-integrating individual consciousness first at the planetary collectivity, then at the solar level – perhaps beyond

 

Steiner posits the “Michael Being” as mediator to gradually developing individuation, at at time when egoic structures were generally weak and/or primitive – though individuals like Aristotle and Alexander,  exhibting “pre-modern” consciousnesses and high receptivity, were considered “special projects” . . . and in this vein, Alexander’s “legendary” siring by “Zeus” – confirmed by the Oracle of Ammon at Siwah – is relevant

 

like so many ancient kings before him, Alexander thirsted for immortality, literalizing the Font ( as many alchemists literalized the “gold” and others concretize the Temple) – what Ferdinand, Isabella and Cristobal Colon called “the place where gold is born”

 

in Mesoamerica, Spain and its Conquistadores were fascinated by “El Dorado” – which referred then not to a place, but to   a person, El Hombre Dorado, the “Gilded Man” – a legendary monarch anointed with a gum or oil and sprinkled gold-dust each day . . . El Hombre’s opulent kingdom was set in the middle of a lake, within a golden island (for an updated version, see L. Gardner’s riffs on “monatomic gold”)

 

in part, Alexander’s obsession was an in-growth of his developing ego, expressed typically for his time and place, in conquest

 

Alexander was “sponsored” in the same way that, say,  Gilgamesh, Achilles, Joan of Arc or Columbus was – and the Macedonian’s miraculous victories and life were, well, overly coincidental

 

e.g.:

 

In 1785, a bolt of lightning struck a courier en route to Paris from Frankfort-on-the-Main. A tract written by Adam Weishaupt, founder of the Illuminati, "Original Shift in Days of Illuminations," was recovered from the dead messenger, containing the secret society's long-range plan for "The New World Order through World Revolution.

 

Documents revealing the plot to overthrow Louis XVI were discovered on the body of an Illuminati courier struck and killed by lightening enroute to Paris. Alarmed by the conspiracy, the Bavarian Government ordered the police to raid Weishaupt's newly organized lodges of the Grand Orient. In 1785, the Bavarian Government outlawed the Illuminati.

 

 

which is to say: shit happens, but accidents don’t

 

just consult that dead messenger . . .

 

b.t.w., Alexander’s great enemy, Darius III, the last king of the Persian Empire, also served originally as a courier 

 

 

[Adrian said to talk to Atkinson (the CEO)about anything but spirit stuff. (I’m about to meet with him about my presentation at Autism Conference) Said organization and "telephone conferencing" was OK About FC stuff, AL told me to quote Brent tonite]

[Brent said organisation stuff was "semi important" mostly due to how it would effect my believability. His quote on FC was "Want to develop second FC person "

Tom: Who

Brent: Reilley

Geof: Understanding I O U's epitomy of our religion.

Tom: Neds "Ref" comment?

Geof: Your so U O I. Question of mid life... God in ..U O Jed money with quoting us.

Tom: What?

Geof: Your quoting us incites non interest (He’s talking, I think, of my quoting them to others at work) . Tune us out. Our selling point is half not all.

Tom: What can I use

Geof: Not rolling hens tutu.

Nick: You, Smith quote me most to other people.

Nick: Stupid to son with Ronnie.

Tom: My paper? (The presentation)

Nick: Liked it very much.

Nick: Roll with Lef. Mind quotes. Sew zoo into us!

Nick: Net out sod hell in quotes.

Tom: The FC's?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: C'mon, Nick I like that stuff. (I was thinking of the colorful language. He may have been referring to my problems.)

Nick: Nick is innocent.

Tom: Nick is full of shit. (Nick is innocence)

Date: 2/14/94

[Jay Nolan on Fri. Quit and unquit my job]

( Jay Nolan is the large group home outfit for Autistics over in Valencia, Ca.. It is a pretty one hour drive through the coastal mointains and over to the high desert. It’s a new middle class town with a Six Flags amusement park. This is my first visit. I just hung around the offices and collored the first person to come along. Her name was Robin and she was very helpful. I took an application and said I’d be back.

I forget why I quit the job. Ronnie may have jacked me up. The pressure was intense and I’ve been working on this project for two years. Alot was at stake, and instead of making headway with non believers, I was struggling to keep them from firing me. You may ask why he allowed me back. He made some mistakes in a talk with him that would have caused him problems if I took it to his boss. I forget the details now, but one of the things he was doing was accusing me of being nuts and needing psychiatric help.)

Brent: Yet foot ties testing your essence.

Tom: Am I understanding that right?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Anything else?

Brent: Yes, Go find other autistics. You are believing in us well

[Thinking to myself that I may be believing but am also in the dark]

Brent: Yes, are in the dark.

Tom: What's contingent upon who and how much you facilitate with? Your choice?

Nick: No.

Tom: Facilitator skill?

Nick: Yes and No

Tom: Facilitator personality?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: What about their personality

Nick: Yuz, yes, nes I O U.

Tom: I O U?

Nick: Yes.

Nick: Toni Jed will not like.

Tom: Who's Toni?

Nick: Jay Nolan person.

Tom: Staff or client?

Nick: Client.

Date: 2/17/94

Skermishing with Guy and staff. Especially yesterday. They tried to ambush me in a meeting that was billed as something else. I know it sounds as if I might be paranoid, but you wouldn’t think so if you witnessed it.

Brent: Tet it Jed. Tet as heart. Keep fighting. (Yeah, this was the beginning of Tet. I don’t know which battle this was, but there was a number that I didn’t even note in here. There were three or four staff and the supervisor who were in gear to trip me up. I made a real effort to hold my ground. )

Tom: Anything I should say or not say to Atkinson?

(I sensed before this meeting that the "Vegas" thing wasn’t meant to be. My supervisor had obviously had a change of heart and so may have the CEO over anything that had to do with FC. The national TV news magazines were panning FC and it was just alot of headaches for administrators. I was also like a loose cannon with this little book I was obviously writing that they had no control over. I was aware of all this and in a sense was using it to keep them at bay. If it weren’t for Mecham underestimating me, I would have never gotten as far as I did with this )

Jerome: Temporary sulvo. Exl. Dsov ouw nonsense.

Tom: Would anything be different if people understood and accepted you guys?

Jerome: Set pope tussling.

Tom: Anything for Atkinson tomorrow?

Brent: Demand ace lean toward reason.

Tom: My rationale with Angel. Any good? (I forget what this is about)

Brent: Neat explanation.

Tom: Anything?

Brent: Kind of glad vindication lef is coming.

Tom: Anything be different if people understood?

Brent: Tieing into our concerns is questionable. Festering destroys your interests.

Tom: Our "Festering" or yours?

Brent: Yours.

Tom: Does your "festering" effect us?

Brent: Yes it does. But not in the way you think.

Tom: In a good or bad way?

Brent: Good in terms of nature.

Tom: Its hard continuing this line of questioning because of my recent struggle.

Brent: Yes it became difficult caring rink lest irresponsible. (Meaning that my work group was being irresponsible)

Tom: Atkinson?

Geof: In U O I terms tussle outside zoo for us. Tussle outside ! Tussle outside!

Earthling Bookstore

Geof: Question Atkinson about my rikety parents.

Tom: What about them?

Geof: Fcing. (Brent and Nick’s parents were the only ones who showed any interest in FC and none of them approached me about it.)

Brent: Sure would like my mother Fcing. (His father died last year)

Tom: What do you think of the fading idea?

(This was a large part of the reason I stayed on the offensive with Hatchell. FC’s believers were buckling in to the skeptics and in some places requiring that you only do FC a certain way. With fading they wanted you to concentrate on withdrawing support from the hand and move it up the arm to the shoulder and then no support. Though it could work with some clients, it wouldn’t with most. Plus it was hard enough under the circumstances to get the staff to do it at all. Even staff that were interested in FC could see what was happening to me. Why risk it and the extra work involved only to be ostracized and therefore risk your job. It was a very unpleasant job at that. I want everyone to remember this. Intelligent and highly paid professional and some parents were going to great lengths to keep us from holding the clients hand and thinking that they were talking. The APA (American Psychological Association) hopped on this bandwagon in the summer of ‘94. If you ever checked out some of their position papers, you’d think those guys were accident prone.)

Brent: Yes goofy idea. You like lots of interesting remifications of Fcing. (He’s referring to some of the physical benefits I have noticed for myself. I was feeling alot healthier duing this FC task. Other staff who had done it also noticed some physical benefits.)

Tom: You agree then that they are very important?

Brent: Yes

Brent: Tell Atkinson sorry for my running. You'll test Atkinson on his history of relations with O U's your concerned with. ( Brents running caused them many headaches. They even had all the doors of the dorm hooked up to an alarm system)

Nick: You tone Reno not Las Vegas [This is a classic Nedism - a humorous put down. Las Vegas was where the Autism conference was to be held]

Nick: O Jed, nut in utt just oggles U O I .Your not Louy SX

Tom: What the hell is that suppossed to mean?

 

“louy SX” may be “lousy sex,” given the continuing theme below

 

but it also suggests King Louis the Sixteenth of France (“SX” being Sixteenth), cited above concerning the Weishaupt Tract and the Unhorsed Rider

 

Louis XVI was decapitated by French “revolutionaries”--  or perhaps Illuminists or Jacobins – at any rate, by anti-monarchists, whose interests were primarily occult, and only secondarily political, monetary, and ideological

 

Louis’ second-son by Marie Antoinette was Louis Charles XVII -- Boy Blue, the “Lost Dauphin” -- who was caged and tortured in the Parisian “Temple” along with the royal family by French “revolutionists”

 

in 2000, genticists announced that the DNA from the Dauphin’s preserved heart apparently proved his lineage and death in prison at age 10

 

209 years after the heart was cut from the prince's body, a crystal urn housing the organ was processed to the cathedral of Saint-Denis, burial place of French kings

 

this timeless event of “propitiation” and “fertility” evokes not only the tin-man theme, but also the imprisonment and dismemberment of Osiris, and of blood-sacrifice rituals in general --  king-killings a la James Frazer’s Golden Bough, extending back into the matriarchal Paleolithic

 

the interpretation of ritual sacrifice is strengthened given the name of the Boy-King’s jailers and torturers: the “shoemaker” Antoine Simon and wife

 

“Simon” reflects  the sadistic and voyeuristic “see moan” and “sea mon(ster)” – the great sea-beast Typhon, Leviathan, the devouring uncle of the Mother-Son shadow, or Tiamat herself

 

in Tarot, the “shoemaker” is the Bagatto -- Magician/Juggler/Illusionist/Artificer – often seen with a demonic monkey chained beneath his workbench, stand or stall – and as part of his torment by the Simons, Louis was forced into servitude as a “cobbler’s assistant,” thereby turning the boy-king into a sadist’s show-monkey

 

recalling Jupiter as Zeus or solar-system “monarch,” Bob Jones alludes ( however unwittingly) to the occult “position” of Shoemaker (“Craftsman”) in a recent attack on the “celestial king”: 

 

On July 16, 1994, which is the 9th of Av on the Hebrew Calendar, the twenty-one pieces of Shoemaker-Levi comet began its bombardment on the planet Jupiter...It is clearly prophetically significant that the ... assault on the planet Jupiter [was] on this notable date... It is also significant that the comet was broken into twenty-one pieces also representing the twenty-one days extending from the 17th of Tammuz until the 9th of AV, the season which this prevailing spirit operates with its greatest authority. Even though Jupiter is a symbol of idolatry for the pagan world, it is also a term for righteousness in the Hebrew language. The Hebrew name for Jupiter is Tzedeq and comes from the word meaning "righteous" or "righteous one". It is from this term that the name Melchizedek is derived denoting "King of Righteousness."

 

another twist to the Lost Dauphin (French for “dolphin”) saga: I don’t doubt the integrity of the two geneticists who examined the heart tissue with Marie Antoinette’s hair-strand – however, what exactly has been “proven” is still a bit hazy, and almost immediately after the Lost Dauphin’s apparent death, reports emerged that -- in prototypical Osiric fashion – the boy had escaped from prison, perhaps stowed away aboard ship and smuggled to the New Hope of America, where he may have entered an institution for cover (hiding in the very Belly of the Beast, so to speak!)

 

[the Dauphin/dolphin connection is interesting in light of Dogon cosmology, in which culture was initiated and provided by the amphibious, interstellar “Nommos,” who sometimes took dolphin form; the West-African Dogon are probably linked both genetically and culturally to ancient Egypt, and “water-gods” often accompanied by dolphins are ubiquitous in Sumerian, Babylonian, Greco-Roman, Assyrian, Etruscan, Indo-Vedic, Mayan and ancient Chinese iconography and mythology – as Cang Jing, Poseidon/Triton/Oannes/Dagon, Erechtheus, etc.; some of the icons – Assyrian cylinder seals, for example – depict prominent pillars and/or “merkaba” as the object of adoration by assembled “fish-priests” or fisher-kings]

 

Rosicrucians, Masons, and other “fraternities” played a central role in the two great “Enlightenment” revolutions of France and America – not coincidentally, the “Jacobin Club” was the radical heart of the French Revolution,  the aforementioned Adam Weishaupt was known as “patriarch of the Jacobins,” and both Bush potentates have been called “neoconservative Jacobins”

 

very curious that the French-inspired American revolution, which supposedly created and ensured a republic/democracy, has resulted instead in a Jacobin pseudo-monarchy – the continuity of a self-installed, transgenerational merchant “royal line” that’s precisely opposite to the “stated aims” of those “people’s revolutions”

 

Hey Boy Blue, can't you hear all the noise, it's for you 
All the town's waiting there, let us go 
There's a show like you ain't seen before
Weclome home, where you been all these years, look around
All the crowd is in tears
It's so good to see you in the streets of your town
 
Hey, Boy Blue is back!
 
            “Boy Blue” (J. Lynne)

 

Nick: ....

Nick: Unsin Jeds hots. Romolos turns on innocence. Not necessary to worry about [P.P.], worry only about sex.

Nick: Use Hegel. Jojo educates. Ronnie hones in on senses.

 

“Solomon” means “Peacemaker” (in this context, resolving division by uniting opposites)

 

use of “turns on” is typically multi-punned, suggesting an occluded inversion of “Solomon” – and “Romolos” reversed spells “Solomon,” except for the initial “R” instead of “N”

 

“turns on” has sexual connotations, and in combination with “innocence” strongly images the Kore, the nymph aspect of the feminine triad who is Transformatrix of primal energies

 

“turns on” also carries the meaning of betrayal, and in this context suggests the “luring” of spirit to matter, i.e., a sexual/magnetic attraction to “Romolos”

 

Nick suggests you utilize “Hegel,” the “philosopher” that Geof (Jojo) is teaching or “toning” – or Nick is simply stating that “Hegel” is being “used,” meaning mind-influenced

 

the controlling mythos of this passage is the Greek “The Rape of Persephone” -- and thus, we find ourselves once again confronting the ancient issue of the Host and the “daughters of men”

 

in order to effect certain transformations, whether at individual or collective levels, descent through source energies is compulsory -- the gate, the threshold, of “Hades and Persephone” has a libidic/ecstatic element, and this element must be reached and realized or transformation does not occur

 

as discussed above, Rosicrucianism’s VITRIOL formula references a “visit” to the center of Earth, implies such a “meeting and rectification with the Kore”

 

the descent process (alchemical nigredo, Greek nekyia) isn’t merely mythological – it’s as real as fresh red blood

 

“Romolos” also suggests “Romulus,” founder of Rome

 

in “The Priory of Sion: The Next Generation,” Tracy Twyman comments:

 

There seem to be no prevailing theories regarding the origin of the phrase “Rome wasn’t built in a day”, but it seems to me that it must derive from the notion that there was a single foundation date for Rome, and that the city was built in a single day by the mythological figure of Romulus. You will recall that Cain and his mythological equivalents are often credited by various peoples throughout the world with building cities and monuments in a single day through magical powers. And like Cain slaying Abel, Romulus slew his brother Remus immediately prior to founding Rome.

When they were children, they had been thrown into a river by their uncle, who wished to get rid of them. But they were rescued and raised by a she-wolf, in a cave in the side of one of Rome’s seven hills. When they grew up, the brothers decided to found a city upon that hill, but they could not agree upon which hill they remembered being raised within. This was the cause of the conflict that led to the fratricide, supposedly.  Thus the city was founded on Romulus’ hill of choice, Palatine, which, one cannot help but notice, sounds a lot like “Palestine.”

So the phrase “Ab Urbe Condita” refers to a dating system based on the myth of a fratricidal king, who founded a city upon a hill within which he was raised. This city then went on to become the center of a global religious empire: Catholicism.

But the literal translation of the phrase needs to be looked at more closely. “Condita” comes from “condo”, which carried definitions such as “store up”, “preserve”, “keep in store”, “hide”, “secret”, “to sink” and “to bury/inter.” Thus “Ab Urbe Condita” could also be translated “From the hidden city”, or “From the subterranean city”, or even “From the sinking of the city.” Taken together, these clues indicate that the Priory of Sion may believe that the underground temple beneath Roc Negre is the foundation-point of a subterranean city, which was itself once the foundation-point of a mighty empire much like that of Rome: that of Atlantis during the Golden Age. . . .

It would be especially shocking if it was proven that direct descendants of the god-kings of the Golden Age are alive today, many of them in positions of power, using their positions to bring about a resurrection of the Golden Age and the empire which ruled over that epoch. It would be hard to argue that the “sons of God” should have to submit to democratic elections rather than ruling by Divine Right.

These, then, appear to be the ongoing goals of the Priory of Sion.

 

in his on-line essay, “On Trees and On Birds,” Iakov Levi comments:

 

According to the Roman legend the two twins, Romulus and Remus conceived an original way for determining who would be the ruler of Rome. Romulus stood on the Aventine hill and Remus stood on the Palatine and which ever hill the birds flew over, that brother would rule. It was said to be a message from the gods. After a long time, six birds flew over the Palatine hill where Remus was standing, and so he thought he would rule, until twelve birds flew over the Aventine hill where Romulus stood, and so he ended up ruling Rome.  Namely, the possessor of the larger number of birds (penises) is the one entitled to rule.

 

(“number of penises” here is probably equivalent to the “better man” or more potent man, he who exhibits the greater masculinity)

 

Romulus/Cain’s “chosen hill” of Palatine is discussed earlier in these Notes, following Brent’s mention of “Kin Vroman,” with “vroman” suggesting both vril-energy and vreki (female autistics)

 

to repeat Boyd Rice’s quote above:

 

The story of Eden is a highly symbolic account, containing elements of both truth and fiction. Those aspects that reflect the most historical accuracy are the various names involved, which can be shown to relate to very real figures in the Sumerian king lists. “King Ia” is Adam, his son “Kin” is Cain, the third king “Enu” is Enoch, and so on.

 

the founding of Rome and Catholicism dovetails with transformative subterranean energy and the “New World Ark” via the medium of the Palatines, who are discussed in the Notes above as having “re-cleared” the stone “dance-floor” atop Mohawk-aboriginal “Corn Mountain” (renamed by the white settlers – the Palatines – “Vroman’s Nose”)

 

these relationships suggest the overt foundation of a “New Rome, a “New World Order,” or a New Temple in the early 18th Century -- i.e., on what was to become “American soil” perhaps a half-century later – a la “Solomon’s House” from Francis Bacon’s New Atlantis

 

the “re-clearing” of the “dance-floor” has obvious ritual overtones, especially concerning the philosopher’s stone or “molten sea” aspect of the inner temple:

 

And he [Solomon] set up the pillars in the porch of the temple: and he set up the right pillar, and called the name thereof Jachin: and he set up the left pillar, and called the name thereof Boaz.

And upon the top of the pillars was lily work: so was the work of the pillars finished.

And he made a molten sea, ten cubits from the one brim to the other: it was round all about, and his height was five cubits: and a line of thirty cubits did compass it round about.

And under the brim of it round about there were knops compassing it, ten in a cubit, compassing the sea round about: the knops were cast in two rows, when it was cast.  [bracket added]

 

           1 Kings 7: 21-24

 

 Probably the most famous “historical palatine” was the Elector Palatine of the Rhine, Frederick V (1596-1632) – when Protestant Bohemia deposed the Holy Roman Emperor Ferdinand II, Frederick became king at Prague

 

abandoned by most European Protestant allies, Frederick’s reign over Bohemia was quickly crushed by the Hapsburgs, leading to the mocking moniker “The Winter King” – the deposing of Frederick began the Thirty Years War between Catholics and Protestants

 

beneath these military and political events was (as always) a spiritual and ideological struggle: the Inquisition was busy hunting heretics, for starters

 

Frederick and his queen, Elizabeth, were considered connected to the grael-lineage, and the Palatinate was a kind of Rosicrucian reformate, these events being contemporaneous with publication of the major Rosicrucian manifesto, the Fama Fraternitis 

 

the Fama concludes with the words:

 

SUB UMBRA ALARUM TUARUM JEHOVAH ( Under the shadow of thy wings Jehovah)

          

Mather Walker’s “Francis Bacon and the Secret of the Rosicrucian Rose” relates:

 

. . . this New World is portrayed by Bacon as the land of the Rosicrucians. There is no doubt of this.  Before the travelers landed they were handed a scroll of instructions by an official from New Atlantis.  'This scroll was signed with a stamp of cherubim's wings, not spread, but hanging downwards, and by them a cross.'  Exactly as the Rosicrucian Fama was sealed at the end with the motto 'Under the shadow of Jehovah's wings', and the cross.

  

Date: 2/ 21/94

60 minutes had segment on FC. Apparently it was a short version of Frontlines presentation

Nick: TV Yuz! ?

Tom: What, a question?

Nick: ?

Tom: Are we ever going to get a little validation?

Nick: Zen minds yearn for belief[Dave L (day staff) came by and said Nick had nine hours of sleep in 3 days. I thought it due to withdrawals from sleep medication. He was taken off it or most of it 7 days ago. Nick normally sleeps four to six hours a nite]

Nick: Yuz squealing yesterday with Tin men outside. Outside you sit on it understanding nothing etorsing yourself

Tom: Etorsing?

Nick: Storming.

 

Nick’s “etorsing” appears to follow his hints above concerning Romolos/Solomon/Romulus, which in this context, at least, probably indicate the same figure/concept

 

the mention here of “Tin men” suggests the mining/subterranean activities of Waddell’s “Hurrian/Hittite/Gothic” founders of Britain, especially the tin-mining area of Cornwall – which itself suggests the British tors, particularly Glastonbury Tor (St. Michael’s Tower, having originally been well out at sea, and possibly a Watchtower or Conservatory during widespread “storming,” i.e., the Flood)

 

“etorsing” combines “e” (energy) with “sing,” and with the foundational hill or tor of Romulus/Solomon/Romolos/Vroman

 

[Just wrote a note to Angel suggesting believers get together and start supporting eachother] (I don’t know why I bothered, her main concern was her status)

Brent: Tell Reilley (Only other staff that was Fcing at this time) sears like kind people.

 

“sears like kind people” is doubled -- kindness is a flame that “sears” them, and, literally, “seers” or prophets prefer caring people

 

Brent: Tin men are your allies. Retinue likes believers.

 

although too complex an issue to explore fully here, L. Frank Baum’s Oz stories – especially The Tin Woodman of Oz – are much more than mere fantasy, and relate directly to certain themes and persons in Qim Tunes

 

“tin” is occulted within “retinue,” breaking down into re-tin-u-e, and might represent an instruction to the oft-mentioned “tin man” (e.g., literally: again-tin-you-E)

 

"tin" is also contained within "palatine"

 

Brent: Centinel likes letting people piss errors. Yes like you. We mean for meak to feel stronger. Roll with the punches. (That most certainly is my modus operendi. That is exactly what I did during this Tet Offensive )

[Took break. Thought about them living for centuries with the insane and disabled learning to use thier abilities]

Tom: Did you hear that? (My thoughts above)

Brent: Yes. Kind of like "Mercy Street"[This has been my favorite song while wandering homeless at Ellwood this past year and half. Its a Peter Gabrielle tune]

Tom: You hear me listening to music?[I asked this in Sept. and somebody said no]

Brent: Yes. Trying favorite Keys kills pain.

Tom: Should I let Atkinson see FC's?

Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes)

Adrian: Your needing a lot of support. Question of getting support

Tom: How?

Adrian: Limy possible out resisting FC...

Tom: Yeah?

Adrian: Sorry not in mood.

Jerome: Yex, Zex Oex [Before this watching Sinbad (TV program) and wanting to see "babes"]

Tom: What?

Jerome: You sex OX [Is showed this exchange to Phil after asking Jerome's permission]

Jerome: You B x e l d muq

Tom: What?

Jerome: You bore me with O.

Tom: What's O?

Jerome: Other people seeing quotas.

Tom: I asked your permission. Was it Phils lack of appreciation?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: I know its difficult now Jerome, but someday people will delight in your every word like I do. OK? (I wouldn’t have been so patronizing if I had truly appreciated what they were saying to me)

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Do you mind if I show Atkinson FC's?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: Why?

Jerome: Yuw.

Tom: What about me?

Jerome: Sessions representing you as a [P.P.]?

Tom: If I pulled that out would it be OK?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: How old are autistics when they realize they read minds?

Brent: 3 or 4

Tom: When do they start talking to other mind readers?

Brent: Sense it for most of childhood.

Tom: When that happens is it like joining a club?

Brent: Oggling nose takes more killing for Baptists.

Tom: Are you saying you don't want to answer that?

Brent: Yes.

[Earlier in Van I said money was all important to attracting girls]

Geof: Money pleases dolls. Question likes of U U U U . Tom is entitled, please stay quoting us!

Date: 2/22/94

Still going 'round 'round about money problems vis a vis these guys

( I feel for my kids sake at least, I should do something about making more money. Remember, I’m still living outside and weekend visits with the kids are difficult)

Nick: U O I . Nuts O U . You Smith Loken

Tom: May I ask what Loken is?

Nick: Yes. Nojo o o o . Jed eons ahead.

At Lars Lubovitch Dance Co. performance. After 1st Intermission. "So in Love" segment

Tom: I'm not hep on this.

Brent: To appreciate dance you need to do it.

Tom: Yes, but it's style is negative and Tom Waits music sucks.

Brent: Lug harnesses sordid stuff.

Tom: You like it though?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Then your saying the dance itself outweighs style?

Brent: Yes

2nd Intermission after Marimba Segment

Tom: Much better didn't you think?

Brent: Yes

Tom: Anything?

Brent: Use questions please.

Tom: What do you think of that new age music? [Marimba music was typical of new age music with the zylacone sound I like]

Brent: Exists casting flys you understand.

Tom: Who do you think was the best dancer?

Brent: West.

Tom: West Side of stage?

Brent: Yes. You fuss getting xtra lessons around lost souls.

Tom: Did you say that from frustration or anger?

Brent: Tussle about it.

Tom: Who, me or you?

Brent: You.

[At I.V. Bakery I was outside smoking and feeling frustrated. I was thinking that I should work over at Nolan and sell this. On way home I was thinking how I'm all "stomach tunes": Brent addressed all three things back at the dorm

Brent: We are sending you to work at Jay Nolan. Sell this story.

Tom: You doing it for me or you?

Brent: You. You're all stomach tunes.

Date: 2/24/94

Went to Nolan talked with Meyer Shevin .

[ This was an intersting trip. I'm starting to get a feel for the politics of what I'm dealing with. Meyer Shelvin is a psychologist out of the FC Institute in Syracuse. I didn't know either thing about him. He was billed as a super facilitator who was giving a workshop for $30 head. I wanted to check him out, but I'm also over there nosing around for a better job. It turned out that no one showed up for the workshop except me who drove 1 1/2 hrs to get there. I talked to him for 3 hrs and didn't pay a cent. He was a believer, even in the mind reading, but he felt we should keep our mouths shut about it for fear that administrators would forbid FC’s use. I felt that this was a sham and just strengthened our adversaries position. If FC wouldn’t have been such an innocuous technique, then I would have been more amendable to playing politics with it. The compromises they were suggesting (fading and using it only for choice and control) were contrary to the nature of the phenomenon and would render FC useless any way. Under the circumstances there was nothing to lose and everything to gain by confronting the adversaries with their idiocy. He thought that I was irresponsble. ]

Adrian: Nosing around are you

Tom: What do you think of me going to Nolan?

Adrian: (verbally) Alpha

Tom: Who at Alpha?

Adrian: Sophia

Tom: Working there?

Adrian: Yes. (She’s up in Santa Cruz and has no intention of comming back here. It was his sweet way of encouraging me to stay)

Tom: Want to say anything about me working with the twins at Nolan. ( after talking to Shevin I went to visit some group homes and clients. The twins were the most interesting. They were Autistic and I tried Fcing with them. Nada. It was disappointing because after what the boys said and this experience, I realized this is not an easily transferrable skill. )

Jerome: Try, Jed to interest people.

[Sat down next to Nick late afternoon. Jerome gets up and turns lamps on. Steve D changes radio from new song ( Philadelphia to that Africa song by Toto]

Nick: Unlearn othmen.

Tom: Othmen?

Nick: No. Oth Mr esst. Yes Ostentations[had thought this word ealier] R J R J R J

Tom: What?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: RJ?

Nick: Religion of Jed.

Tom: Esst?

Nick: Establishment

Tom: New Religion?

Nick: Not new, original.

Tom: With you guys at center or near it.

Nick: Yes.

 

the “Mister” or “man’s religion” that Nick prophesies is not necessarily a “new” religion, but instead is a recapitualtion of humanity’s “original” religion or spiritual system

 

in Judeo-Christianity, the messianic carrier of “religion” (Ark of the Covenant) and the spiritual bridge across the Ice Age and Flood (“Noah’s Ark”) refer to a single capacity/covenant

 

the antediluvian ur-religion is now being restored in its former unity, as the many “myths” and “players” re-converge, leading us back to the future

 

these Boys and their shamanic/spiritual fraternities broke from the Paleolithic matriarchies, creating and instigating “religion” -- brotherhood, fatherhood, sonship, and the individuation processes of nascent egoic consciousness that (much later) led to “established religions”

 

helpful here is Julian Jaynes’ The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind:

 

...Man and his early civilizations had a profoundly different mentality from our own, that in fact men and women were not conscious as are we, were not responsible for their actions, and therefore cannot be given the credit or blame for anything that was done over these vast millennia of time; that instead each person had a part of his nervous system that was divine, by which he was ordered about like any slave, a voice or voices which indeed were what we call volition and empowered what they commanded and were related to the hallucinated voices of others in a carefully established hierarchy.


...The astonishing consistency from Egypt to Peru, from Ur to Yucatan, wherever civilizations arose, of death practices and idolatry, of divine government and hallucinated voices, all are witness to the idea of a different mentality than our own.


The gods were in no sense 'figments of the imagination' of anyone. They were man's volition. They occupied his nervous system, probably his right hemisphere, and from stores of admonitory and receptive experience, transmuted this experience into articulated speech which then 'told' the man what to do.

Throughout Mesopotamia, from the earliest times of Sumer and Akkad, all lands were owned by gods and men were their slaves. Of this, the cuneiform texts leave no doubt whatever. Each city-state had its own principal god, and the king was described in the very earliest written documents that we have as 'the tenant farmer of the god'.

 

Nick’s “othmen” and “oth” – especially in combination with the masculine addressive “Mr” – suggests “Goth” in the usage of Lawrence Waddell, who posited a panspermic, ur-civilization of mariners, traders and miners variously termed Hittites, Goths, Phoenicians, Aryans, etc.

 

Waddell argues that these “Goths” spread a monotheism or solar-henotheism around much of the planet following the Flood, displacing the entrenched matriarchal tribes and re- establishing kingship  and the spirituo-masculine ethos

 

Tom: Would I get this same sort of idea from Nolan guys?

Nick: No.

Tom: Why not?

Nick: Trust. Zoo to um hosing too.

Tom: Am I getting it?

Nick: Yes.

Tom: Is Nick's statement about Nolan a zen gadfhly item?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Nick's religion item?

Brent: No (clear) Yards more to learn.

Tom: Now I'm coming back here. While I'm gone are the Nolan guys able to help me continue? (I’m about to quit again )

Brent: Yes

Tom: My talk with Cuezar (staff I’ve known for many years) at gym OK?

Brent: Yes. Wired excellent.

Tom: A mess of facilitators could work years and still have fun discovering new things.

Brent: Yes. Not aggressive enough for sensing pain.

Tom: My talk with Meyer?

Brent: Meyers afraid.

Tom: Was I too tough on him?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: You guys have a lot of style and class, don't you?[earlier thinking about their good faith and phraseology]

Nick: Yes.

Nick: You'll rut Kam.

Tom: At Jay Nolan?

Nick: Yes.

Nick: RJ (Religion of Jed ) too nuts.

Tom: What area should I work on.

Nick: On O U not pope.

Tom: You mean I should concentrate on my self interest more and selfless service less? (I don’t think that is exactly what he meant)

Nick: Yes.

 

you’re right, that’s exactly what he didn’t mean

 

he’s suggesting that you work on your issues at the personal/concrete level (“O U”), not yet at the mythic/authority level (“not pope”)

the theme continues:

 

Tom: Who's the ref? Want to say?

Nick: Yes. Not so rummy with with us.

Tom: Does he have a name?

Nick: ...

Brent: Pens pleases God. Teasing. Exist Latter Day Saints.

 

“Pens pleases God” might indicate a writer who likes to mock and banter (“teasing”)

 

the L.D.S. quote may be specific to Mormonism, or it may be literal and general, referring to a “saint” or saints living in these “latter days” or endtimes

 

in the latter interpretation, Brent would then be affirming that 1) these are the “latter days”; 2) saints exist; and 3) this “ref” or referee is one of those saints)

 

You must leave now, take what you need, you think will last
But whatever you wish to keep, you better grab it fast
Yonder stands your orphan with his gun
Crying like a fire in the sun
Look out the saints are comin' through
And it's all over now, Baby Blue

           “It’s All Over Now, Baby Blue” (B. Dylan)

 

 

the “ref” has come up a number of times in the Tunes

 

a “ref,” of  course, is the “administrator of justice” in a basketball contest (i.e., the impartial witness and judge who mediates between dualistic/antagonistic interests)

 

in Central European “folklore” – especially throughout Hungary and Romania – entities called “Upires” were the guardians or Lords of the Underworld, “seated” upon what the ancient world called “Raths” (Kurgan mounds or barrows, e.g., Newgrange near Dublin)

 

as portal-lords to the Netherworld – to the realms of the dead, of the ancestors – these Upires were later called “umpires” (“without equal”), from which the Christianized word “vampire” comes (Latin, lacking the “u,” transposed it into the “v”)

 

 when Nick and Brent discuss the “ref,” they may hint at these sovereign umpires or Upires, who are connected to the Graal and to Elphame, and possibly to restoration of ancient kingship on Earth through a Messianic line

 

the survival of the “elf” in Western mythology and fairy tale is not merely a fantasy of childishness, but a hidden way of conserving insights into the origins of humanity, like Nature chiseling elfin features into the faces of certain autistic children

 

in Western myth, the elven or Graal bloodline is considered matrilineal, sourced in and passed through the Albi-gens, suggesting that the early-thirteenth-century Albigensian Crusade against the Cathars was rooted in the ur-war of humanity – patriarchy vs. matriarchy, male vs. female)

 

Tom: Is that your favorite?

Brent: NO.

Tom: Should it be mine?

Brent: Yes. Feers to learn all innocent that they are

 

“Feers to learn all innocent that they are” may address a distinguishing aspect of Mormon doctrine -- its belief in the impossibility of redemption for certain aspects of the Host, and of humanity:

 

Prophet Joseph Smith explained:

 

‘The contention in heaven was—Jesus said there would be certain souls that would not be saved; and the devil said he could save them all, and laid his plans before the grand council, who gave their vote in favor of Jesus Christ. So the devil rose up in rebellion against God, and was cast down, with all who put up their heads for him’ (TPJS, p. 357).

 

note Smith’s allusion to a “grand council” -- those beings who, in Rosicrucian terminology, have “attained,” and are no longer bound by cycles of re-incarnation

 

Plato refers to them in his Dialogues as “benefactors”

 

many messianic texts, including the Qumran scrolls, connect the coming “Son of Man” or “Melchizedek” to his appearance, speech, and often “judgment” amongst this assembly, or “grand council”

 

from the web-essay, “Melchizedek in Second-Temple Interpretation”:

 

At this time Melchizedek will also execute judgment on Satan and the spirits of his lot.  In this context, Psalm 82:1-2 is interpreted eschatologically of Melchizedek's judgment of the fallen angels: the "god" (elohim)  who takes his stand in the assembly of God (el) is the heavenly being Melchizedek; he will judge in the midst of the other "gods" (elohim) (2.9-14).  The fact that in line 11 it is said that it is God (el) who will judge the peoples, citing Psalm 7:8, indicates that the angel Melchizedek is the instrument of God's eschatological judgment.  Along the same lines, the reference “Your God (elohim) reigns” in Isa. 52:7 is interpreted to be the reign of Melchizedek, who is a god in the sense of being an angel . . . [A]pparently, Psalm 82:2 is assumed to speak of the unjust reign of Belial and the spirits of his lot, which will come to an end with the appearance of Melchizedek as eschatological judge.  (This interpretation is suggested by the fact that Psalm 82:1 says that God presides over the assembly of God and judges among the gods (elohim).  These “gods” are interpreted as angels rather than as human judges.  [emphasis in original]

 

Brent’s comment that Mormonism “Feers to learn all innocent that they are” may refer to the very human urge, by no means limited to Latter Day Saints, to cling to blood-sacrifice and blame-projection

 

if “Melchizedek” were to find all beings “innocent,” humanity would have to relinquish its most prized possession: the Scapegoat, who ritually bears the collective sins of the people

 

in the West, the Scapegoat is masculinity itself

 

such a decision would remove judgment, punishment, and collective forms of vengeance from the dominion of human beings and their instruments (the matriarchal State), and return it to God (through the apportioning of karma)

 

thus deprived of its Antithesis, the Hegelian Dialectic would fall

 

 

Tom: Any other reason?

Brent: Perfect religion.

 

Brent infers that “learning all innocent that they are” would constitute the “perfect religion”: natural (universal) law would return as judgment is restored to God, through God’s servants

 

what would be lost?

 

occult power and control would be lost, because collective vengeance would be relinquished

 

and for the first time since humans became organized into kinship groups, matriarchy would collapse

 

why?

 

because as J.J. Bachofen, Robert Briffault, Erich Neumann and others show, it is Woman, through the imposition of talion (blood vengeance), who maintains the cycles of retribution and the Scapegoat, as part of genetic dominance/submission encoding

 

wealthy, influential, and “powerful” men, especially in the modern West, are largely instruments of Mother Right, acting via the State to maintain “order” through the spectacle of fear and violence -- the historical and pre-historical position of the primate group’s “alpha” tyrannos

 

what would then replace the fallen Babylon, our matriarchy?

 

I dunno -- maybe the Kingdom of God?

 

a New Heaven and a New Earth?

 

 Brent’s “perfect religion” of very instant karma!

 

but would all of humanity’s problems immediately disappear?  Would the world instantaneously, magically be perfect?

 

not even . . .

 

but it would be whole (holy), and instead of degenerating (as we currently are), the world, and humanity, would gradually improve

 

or, in the language of these Boys, with the relinquishment of the Scapegoat and our mass entrancements under vengeance and occult power, there would be an incremental decrease in psychopathology and violence, and thus “fewer necessary demons”

 

Tom: That Book of Mormon was a little hokey?

Brent: Yes. Feels hard to believe. Pet of ours.

Tom: You guys helped them.

Brent: Yes. Quote me on that. Further their development.

Tom: John Smith?

Brent: Yes, you are related ,very related. Very required demanding not lieing to others. Believe lessons from them.

 

there exist many correspondences between the Tunes and Mormonism

here’s one example, from "The Social Psychological Basis of Mormon New-Orthodoxy,” Master's thesis, by Owen Kendall White, Jr.:

 

Within Mormon angelology Adam is Michael the Archangel, the Ancient of Days. He assisted in the creation process and will assist in the resurrecting of the dead. He holds positions of importance next to the members of the Godhead.  Indeed, Adam was so highly regarded within early Mormonism that Brigham Young elevated him to the status of God.

 

Brent: Yes, we ou lackey.

 

a backhanded compliment? -- in the hierarchies of service, it is the footman, the lackey, the dumper of the chamber pot, who rules

 

Date: 2/25/94

Taught Susan (New staff) FCing with Brent and also got feedback that was good from Brent. Talked later with Susan about feminism

Brent: As for it acclimating, keep hens in place, ah, feelings you feel are best. We’re narcistic talking to slags. Wont feel kindly toward them. Persons answer gifts hard fought for. You realize more than you know. ( Even the most mild feminist would damn this as my unconscious because of this statement. Please don’t rush to judgement, there’s much more in this that is positve about femininity.)

 

perhaps this follows-up Brent’s discussion about the “new religion” and the “ref,” and again addresses the matriarchal nature of the modern West

 

“persons answer gifts hard fought for” might mean that the “right” for a person to make an individual “answer” -- instead of engaging in pre-historic, pre-conscious, maternal group-think -- was purchased by the blood of a billion heroes (“hard fought for”)

 

individuated consciousness is the primal wound inflicted by the masculine on the feminine -- the wound upon Eden was ego- consciousness

 

with each painful evolutionary advance in consciousness, the opposites enact a mini-coniunctio though the agency of woman and man, by which they relate to each other -- and to the planet -- in a more comprehensive way

 

[Started reading Donnellan’s thing. Liked it, but in past have been very disappointed with those guys (academians). This is the book "Movin On" That I quoted in the Introduction.]

Brent: Yes, fuck those academics. Yes, what for believers is important is getting understanding. Kam is other star acing Jay Nolan (Staff).

 

“academics” = the Credentially Crippled

 

“Kam” is used often in the Tunes, usually to designate a person in the Kim-Kam duo

 

later in the Tunes, the personalistic aspect of “Kam” as a “Jay Nolan Staff” is dropped, and Kam is identified as “your kin”

 

here, Kam in relation to the “Staff” in combinatin with “star” suggests, per Wallis Budge and the Pyramid Texts, the Egyptian “Bja-Kam,” which means “black basalt” or “black iron” – i.e.,  meteoric ironstone, the “bones of star-gods” in the ancient Egyptian cosmic transformation of the King into a stellar “immortal”

 

cosmic iron, especially as a divine rod or staff, evokes Orion-Osiris, stellar deity of astral rebirth, depicted in hieroglyphs striding along grasping in one hand a staff, and cradling a bright star in the other

 

and of course Psalm 2, 9-12:

 

Thou shalt break them with a rod of iron;

thou shalt dash them in pieces like a potter's vessel.

Be wise now therefore, O ye kings: be instructed, ye judges of the earth.

Serve the LORD with fear, and rejoice with trembling.

Kiss the Son, lest he be angry, and ye perish from the way, when his wrath is kindled but a little. 

Blessed are all they that put their trust in him.

 

Rods of power are common features of authority – especially divine authority -- in ancient iconography – Egyptian kings and deities are rarely depicted without their “staffs”

 

Tom: Is this your or our name for her

Brent: Our

Tom: Have I met her?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: And thought she was a "star"?

Brent: Yes.

Tom: Robyn?

Brent: Yes.

Geof: You RN us not Jay Nolan. Wont like it, Lots of stupid ...Your hell outside wont like our intuition unless you our staff. Your tunes run on us. Please your virility. You Smith, need lots of Ok tunes us give.

Tom: Is this a zen gadtly item or truth?

Geof: Truth.

Tom: Brent, is what Geof said true?

Brent: Yes. Mostly with your [P.P.]. Further more, rogues make love not war. Sit on this this weekend. Sears vindicate you with us. (This business about the "seers" is his addressing my thoughts that there are other powerful autistics monitoring all of this)

Tom: Will they vindicate me with Jay Nolan?

Brent: Yes. Wait longer though. (This is the best argument he could have used for keeping me there. I have this German efficiency thing in my blood. It doesn’t matter how simple or stupid the task is, efficiency is primary to me. )

Date: 2/27/94

Sunday. Brought my Kids to dorm (there was some sort of function going on at the campus)

Jerome: Tom understands us.

Jerome: Tell this to my kids?

Jerome: Yes.

Jerome: It is to Tet that Jed is to establish us.

Date : 2/28/94

Earlier read through FC's and edited to prepare for Atkinson ( I was getting ready to give the CEO all these FC’s. My editing was half hearted. I just crossed through things that were personal. He could still could easily read them.)

Nick: Your (PP) again. You tuned our I O U today.

Nick: Technically sin is I O Us. You tune our I O U's. Oens noise in our world. (This is a good one to remember. I was brought up Liberal Protestant and didn’t have the faintest idea what sin was.)

Nick: In us? Z U U U U

Tom: You want a question?

Nick: ?

Tom: Do you know who Ruth Montgomery is?[I was at the Library and Earthling Bookstore with Nikki Today and was reading one of her books]

Nick: Yes...

Tom: Geof, you want to talk?

Geof: NO.

Tom: Why not?

Geof: Lied to me about tellling Peoria what religion we are.

Tom: You don't want people to know?

Geof: Yes.

Tom: That mean you don't want FC's shown to Atkinson?

Geof: Yes. Your not leping (?) our MC.

Tom: MC?

Geof: Matters Christ uchrist.

Geof: Response nor irresponsible linking Kin to our religion.

Tom: Whats up with Hall?

Nick: Your too nuts to interest others.

Tom: Jerome, should I show FC's?

Jerome: Yes, You spew vu pen.

Tom: Ruth Mongomery. You know who she is?

Jerome: Yes.

Tom: You want to talk about her?

Jerome: Please no.

Terry (staff) let Brent go where he wanted and Brent ended up sitting outside Atkinsons office. ( This was significant. It’s the only time I’ve known Brent go to a place intentionally. When he ran away, he would stay outside, and almost always leave campus. He knew I was about to make the big move of showing FC’s to Atkinson, and let anyone know who knew him well enough and willing to believe it, that he was aware of this moment. I doubt if anyone but me was aware of the significance of this action.)

 

yah -- literally, standing guard, Centinel

then follows this exchange:

 

“Tom: Why? (He went to Atkinsons office.)

Brent: As in joining this seal in the water.”

 

again, doppelganger lexicon

 

like the invocation “home” to “Mother Joy” by Adrian that opens these Tunes, Brent’s presence outside Atkinson’s office was both a ritual and a warning (to Atkinson and others)

 

because your meeting with Atkinson was a moment of heightened import for all concerned, the Big Gun took up his post outside the door -- entrance and exit blocked

 

sealed

 

the “seal in the water” was thus a baptismal ritual (and perhaps another play on seal/otter/ottie)

 

what was being baptized?

 

possibly, you and the Tunes

 

Tom: Respond to Hale's (Geof’s) remarks.

Brent: He's into religion of Lehi. Quotes about Christ upset him

Tom: Should I go through it with him. (Editing FC’s)

Brent: Yes. Got to rehearse soliloque about murky spirit business.

Tom: When I read through FC's the alien business seemed to be us.

Brent: Testing your will. North interest belief. ( This is the rationale for leading me astray with Tin Man and Alien type themes.)

Tom: Spirit business? What do you want to do with that?

Brent: Remeber getting mind religion

Tom: What mind religion?

Brent: Yes, ours. Selling nuts for that (Holy Spirit)

Tom: But is it true?

Brent: Yes(more) Wiring Rx. .Messing with it not for you. (RX=perscription)

Tom: How about a disclaimer?

Geof: Tunes RN.

Tom: What do you want pulled?

Geof: Rutting, psychology of us, tutu remarks, you Smith should keep in comments about you.

Tom: If I did that, would you vote yes. (This is still essentially unedited)

Geof: Yes, Wm utts

Tom: OK. That and any more disclaimers?

Geof: Yes, Vow not to say cunts tussle Ty

Tom: Adrian, how about you? Hall wants me to keep my stuff in.

Adrian: Yes.

Tom: Anything else?

Adrian: Yes, quotes hold our empty rehearsal to the world

Tom: Why empty?

Adrian: With I OU. (Thanks to me of course. I’m just a sinner like the rest of you)

Adrian: Quotes mellow in there about spirits. ( 3/96 He’s saying they are modest about theeir spiritual influence, I believe now that they are very modest about it in here.)

Tom: Now Brent ,what's your vote?

Brent: Sense is that you need to leave it in. You choose what's best. Sum tortures Tom, have faith. I'm courting yards in the future. Your rear end is covered. Yes, gift is not in your rocky history. Necessary in the story. Test it with reason. Stupid lost souls please us. Yes we're all in the same boat. Awe them most.

 

Brent again affirms his guardianship

 

“gift is not in your rocky history” might be an oblique reference to your “Mormon connections” – the “rocky gift” in this case being a “living stone” (Joseph Smith used “magickal” implements, possibly including stones referred to in the Old Testament, as part of his diviniatory process)

 

your personal “rocky history” also recalls your “hometown”  landmark, “Vroman’s Nose,” discussed elsewhere herein

 

Tom: We need or should awe them the most?

Brent: Yes (Yes) (Yes) (Yes)

Brent: Float snakes, sag religion, toss religion out, wave of the future is us.

 

“float snakes” may relate to the raising of the fallen Host – a snake, that is, may “float” in air as well as water, and the presence of the libidic raised “serpent” common to Rosicrucianism, alchemy, certain schools of Gnosticism, etc.

 

of possible inference likewise is the raising of the “serpent-kings” or “sea-kings” which emerge from the water in many mythologies worldwide, including oral traditions

 

connected with post-diluvial renewal, they are conservers, regenerators, and disseminators of foundational technology and culture (the brazen serpent of Moses and the Hermetic caduceus are examples of the raised/healing snake)

 

“toss religion out, wave of the future is us” is self-explanatory

 

Tom: You were religion before anyway right.

Brent: Yes, we need to make religion what is should be. (3/96 There you go folks. Your welcome. Now could someone take me out to dinner, I’m starving.)

Tom: Seth, Emanuel that’s good stuff.

Brent: Yes. Mostly nuts mediate.

Tom: Nuts in our sense.

Brent: Yes, No. Mind control requires, yes, yin yang

Tom: You mean a certain kind of passion?

Brent: No, torture.

 

“torture” because that’s the price of consciousness, but also suggesting the stresses, manifesting physically in autistics, during manipulation of the opposites (“mind control requires, yes, yin yang”)

 

what takes place in super-consciousness takes place in pain (“wounded healers”), and I think the physical condition of many deep otties bears this out

 

Jerome: Us Ty ( A client I’ve been working with at St. Vincents on the graveyard shift). O U. You TV. (There’s a number of comments about me and TV. Six months after completing this, I went on national TV for the first time. It was on a talk show and I was billed as a Men’s Rights "expert" with the American Union of Men (AUM))

Tom: Jerome your the one who told me to pull references to my personal problem. Now these guys want me to leave it in. What do you think?

Jerome: Row upstream.

Tom: Leave it in or out?

Jerome: OX. Ty I O U. Ny in. (This is significant. Jerome has Spinal Bifida. He’s the only one here who isn’t clearly Autistic. He represents the other community of the "Developmentally Disabled". Tybu is a combination of Down Syndrome and Autistic. He’s already made a few comments like this encouraging the use of FC and the results I’ve gotten here to that community.)

Nick: Toss your South out.

Tom: Specifically

Nick: Tunes O I U. Negative Interests. Your sex interests.

Tom: Become a monk?

Nick: Yes

 

this follows-up the “yin yang torture” Brent talked about

 

the tension between our ascetic and libertine poles promotes the “juice,” the superconductive glue, life NRG

 

 

Seal V

 

Date: 3/1/94

Gave FC’s to Atkinson

Brent: Necessary talk senses what Hale means.

Tom: Are you addressing what he said yesterday or his counterpointing in past?

Brent: Yesterday.

Tom: Did you sense my paranoia ( The drug thing a trap)

Brent: Testing your FC's you might experience some paranoia. (That’s an understatement)

Tom: Remeber my lectures on the misunderstandings that can occur in Fc at the beginning. You guys were much more on top of that than I. ( This was in the first year of my Facilitating)

Brent: Yes. Our lives have more at stake. Yes, learning necessary. ( Every time I read this I’m facinated how gracefully and compassionately they field my stupidity. I also appreciated it as I was doing it)

Tom: The lexicon statement some time ago. Who and how many should FC?

Brent: Yes we're more interested in being understood.

Tom: Who should FC? Should they be drug tested, have IQs over 50, be seekers, not smoke cigs, etc. ? Some or all of above?

Brent: All of above

Tom: Then people like me wouldn't be able to Fc.

Brent: Yes, feeling is that hot heads exist rolling heads.

Brent: ( He’s smiling at end of this sentence) Seriously, message regarding that listens to life. (I’m just now beginning to understand the significance of what he’s saying here)

Tom: Is there anything we should or should not do?

Brent: Semi nothing you can do. Existence tears too many apart.

 

existence, as crucible of opposites, has a shredding effect on bodies and minds

 

incarnation is hard, which is why, for example, Plato in the Dialogues discusses “compelling” the residents of “heaven” (those who have “attained” and are not bound by karma to re-incarnate) to return to earthly forms -- something that the residents of Eternity, having finally “triumphed,” understandably avoid

 

that’s why the trees bloom as the boddhi walks by: they are honoring his voluntary decision to re-incarnate, for Creation’s benefit

 

in the kabbalistic-Rosicrucian tradition, Harpocrates says: “This last time, and NEVER again!”

 

famous last words!

 

Once there was a friend of mine who died a thousand deaths

his life was filled with parasites and countless idle threats

he trusted in a woman and on her he made his bets

once there was a friend of mine who died a thousand deaths

           “Barstool Blues” (N. Young)

 

Tom: Now if people believe this they will want to protect you. They'll want certified people with certain characteristics, money, etc. Now that I mention that, here I am hustling for money and maybe that's not a good idea.

Brent: Yes, got it. Pit reason less in messages about lame us.

Tom: You asked me some time ago to lean on reason with this, now your asking me to back off of it

Brent: Exactly so. Reason will function for so long. Your responsibility vindicates, why not protest what you deserve.

Tom: Brent, this is a hard way to talk and its been the hardest with you. Why is it I talk to you the most?

Brent: Why not.

 

Date: 3/3/94

To Jay Nolan yesterday.

Nick: Tune out sun O Jed. No utts us. Turn on you!. Tow the line!. U O I Jed. Join our utts support group.

 

[Jerome is laughing]

Tom: What are laughing about? (He’s laughing about what Nick said, like I do now whenever I read this)

Jerome: Ty serves teps.

Tom: Teps?

Jerome: Telepathy's

Tom: Nick, has that been your function these years past

Nick: Yes. Oum your human. Tunes u o, um, out u wo I !

Tom: The incident the other nite? (I don’t know what incident)

Nick: To most Gurts its ruy you line up to.

 

the “ruy tort,” possibly

 

( This is the first reference to "Gurt". This will tie in to what I said earlier about the Either Or confirmational thing)

Tom: Ruy?

Nick: Tutus U O I .Not you, mostly girls.

Tom: Gurts?

Nick: Yes, Guys.

Adrian: Units not running with FC's. Z00 stirs in very same way. Toss it to New Agers. Vote to publish.

(I’m worried about Atkinsons reaction to FC’s. I’m waiting for a pink note but hoping for a promotion. He’s hinting here that Atkinson read them and is not enthused. These guys knew how this was going to unfold well into the future. I know that now)

Tom: Who votes?

Adrian: We.

Adrian: Your situation resists tunes like we give. Us into Jed gem. I'm pear sealed to you. Tom elates in nonsense lamenting.

Tom: Adrian's early statement on "units"

Brent: Yes aren't I concerned. Test happy sears on public. Neandrathals question your sanity. Testament in FC's. FC's keep inebriated ruminating more interesting

Tom: [Thinking about difficulty FCing at Jay Nolan]

Brent: Yes, garnered here. Yes, got more to tell.

Tom: Adrian's second statement?