PART FOUR
KIN NOTES
(PART III) QIM Tunes
JUDGEMENT
"HE’LL COME LIKE A
THIEF IN THE NIGHT": The Apostle
Peter
SEAL VI
4/11/94
[After
Easter Vacation]
“Brent: Lef, Jed, feminine. Unto your jafo ie finding
religion. XO”
Brent’s seems to
confirm that “life is feminine” (i.e., incarnate existence isn’t exactly “a
man’s world”)
“Lef” and “feminine”
also could refer to the left hand of the Sephirotic Tree, which in kabbalah is
considered the “evil” or “negative” side of the Tree, headed by Binah (female
Judgment/Understanding)
In the Judaic
Kabbalistic/Sephirotic systems, the figure of Tipheret, as mediator between
right and left, is the Messiah harmonizing the complexio oppositorum (in this case,
the duality of Judgment versus Mercy, as the ur-duality of Female and Male) --
see, e.g., the apocryphal “hermaphroditic Adam”
In the East, Judgment
under the feminine is best expressed by Kali, the Dark Goddess of Destruction.
The dialogue continues
with another nod towards certain Rosicrucians:
“Tom: The Rosicrucians. Good idea to try? (I called
them while I was in Santa Cruz. They have shown as much interest as others -
none)
wrong Rosies,
apparently
they come in all
shapes ‘n shades . . .
Brent: Yes. Zenith kosts
Jed.
Tom: Gym or beach activity?
Brent: Sots Oum with you.
Tom’s effort wix us. You toy us with Fellows. ( I called Fellows (the nobel
prize winning physicist who has an Autistic son) again while in Santa Cruz.
This is my third contact. After beating around the bush with him about the mind
reading, he called me on what I came up with. I told him about the spiritual
content. He heard me out, but didn’t respond much either way.)
Tom: On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the best,
how was my presentation to Fellows?
Brent: 6
Devereux Beach
Brent: Toll others trouble.
You tussle for not us. Turn.
promoting yourself instead of them
Tom:
What was the problem with Fellows presentation?
Brent:
PMS. Your to torture more over it.
Tom: Anything you want to say to the
Rosicrucians?
Brent: Say only that the
Rosicrucians are tied to us. Tortured souls now loved. Tux sorry saps.
“tied to us” suggests
both a connection with their “networks” and with the linked highways of the
Sephirotic Tree
“tortured souls now
loved” infers a reversal, as does “tux sorry saps” -- that is, enatiodromia or
Jubilee, in which the first (“tux”) and last (“sorry saps”) exchange places
Brent: You snitched little
towing spirit business with Fellows.
Tom: That communicating with Angels book.
Familiar with it?
Brent: Yes
Tom: 1-10.
Brent: 8.
Tom: This Lute thing of Ned’s. Significant?
(The Lute thing is a secret item that Nick gave me to impress the Rosicrucians.
I never did anything with it)
Brent: Touches their religion.
Mostly something secret.
Tom: Anything?
Brent: Stowe House in tunes
nourished you.
Tom: How about my wanderings on the Mesa?
Brent: Yes, that too. Now is
our task. Mother mostly PMS.
“Mother mostly PMS” could
describe the state of the Earth/Feminine, possibly in reference to her having
not yet delivered the filius,
the messianic “son”
instead, “Mother Joy”
is frustrated and groaning in PMS throes, and the Kingdom is not come
“Oh, no,
must be the Season of the Witch!”
–
Donovan,
1966
“Tom: Is it good to start with Rosicrucians?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Where next.
Brent: Toss it to Mormons.
(I did give it to there young missionaries the following fall. They were very
nice but that’s it)
Tom: How about Catholics? (As you can see, I
don’t have the remotest idea of what I’m dealing with. I thought that people
who believed in God would be delighted to find out who He is. That’s not the
way it works.)
Brent: Yes. (Catholics)
Tom: How about the Protestants?
Brent: Yes. And now to sots.
Tom: Are you serious?
Brent: Fosters goal.
Tom: Do you know what the story is with
Atkinson? [I called him and he said he hadn’t read the FC’s yet]
Brent: Yes?
Tom: Can you comment on it?
Brent: No. Lost round,
curious resistance. Storing most quotes is to your nosy strength. Storing
quotes promotes religion.
Tom: Am I to approach this as creating a new
religion?
Brent: Yes.
Adrian: No one joins
Einstein. Toss it to great Hebrews. (Adrian’s parents are Jewish)
4/12
Bed Room
Adrian: New Age our religion.
Tom; What do you think of what Adrian said?
Brent: Ne, ah, to FC. Quotes
are the New Age.
“Ne, ah” may be “Noah,” replying to Adrian’s “Toss it to
great Hebrews” comment.
Brent: Vote to tell Mary
(the nurse at the dorm)
Tom; All FC’s?
Brent Yes. Justify yourself
exuming quotes.
Tom: Come again?
Brent: Using quotes. Got
numerous ways to go.
Tom: And a whole lot of questioning I haven’t
done.
Brent: Yes. Fit our interest
with yours.
Tom: [Thinking about money]
Brent: Yes. There’s X your
doing to write. Yes, get to work. Gift is in writing. Row toll upstream.
Living Room
Tom: How am I doing with my reading and
understanding generally? This influence through history. 1-10
Brent: Stupid. Fit morning
with it.
Tom: Meaning?
Brent: Yes. Genesis.
Tom: Is this referring to directing past
lives or part of it?
Brent: Your into quotes
nosing around in fields tortured by many for centuries.
Tom: Are you saying this area is out of
bounds for my questioning?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: But your willing for people to entertain
the possibility of your "spirit influence". Maybe even believe it?
Brent: Your into that.
Tortured sorry.
Tom: If this is true, why should I bother
with Roicrucians?
Brent: Your quotes master
nosing likes of Rosicrucians. Am origin of religion.
Tom: You?
Brent: No.
Tom: Rosicrucians?
Brent: No. Existence quotes
Lord.
Tom: Didn’t your ancesters give Christianity
a boost by powers of suggestion more effective than our ancesters?
Brent: Yes Life’s
Rosicrucians is what rolls our game.
“Quotes master”
appears to be a personal noun, and Brent suggests that “your quotes master”
(the “quotes Lord”) is investigating the Rosicrucians (“nosing”)
“Your quotes master”
is also reminiscent of Geof’s earlier construction “your men’s sincere sane
master”
Brent then seems to
name something or someone the “origin of religion” – which could mean religion
in general, or the “new age religion” that Adrian mentions to begin this set of
passages
“Am” also could be
interpreted as “morning,” which matches with both “Fit morning with it” and
“Genesis” -- and below, Geof refers to “AM Gin Men” and Brent says “Morning is
directed by surly RT” (Ruy Tort)
These “morning”
references may refer to the morning star as personalized being (Venus/Lucifer)
or they may broadly infer that the “genesis” of the “new religion”
recapitulates the primal “religion” – e.g., the “morning stars” and the “sons
of god” appear together in Job
38, shouting for joy at the Earth’s creation
“existence quotes
Lord” clearly plays off Brent’s earlier references to “morning” and “Genesis” –
Brent could be declaring that earthly existence arose from the “quotes” (word
or song) of the “Lord”
Albert Pike, a
thirty-third degree Mason (if memory serves), writes in Morals and Dogma:
In the Hebrew writings, the term 'Heavenly
Hosts' includes not only the counselors and emissaries of Jehovah, but also the
celestial luminaries; and the stars, imagined in the East to be animated
intelligences, presiding over human weal and woe, are identified with the more
distinctly impersonated messengers or angels, who execute the Divine decrees,
and whose predominance in heaven is in mysterious correspondence and relation
with the powers and dominions of the earth. In Job, the Morning Stars and the
Sons of God are identified; they join in the same chorus of praise to the
Almighty; they are both susceptible of joy; they walk in brightness, and are
liable to impurity and imperfection in the sight of God.
The aptly-named Mr. Pike founded the K.K.K.
In Western literature, the “sons of god” are probably best
known as the “fallen Host” from Genesis 6, who are
magnetized into matter by the charms of the “daughters of men” (the powerful
attraction between the Earth/Kore and the “celestial Host”)
Brent then asserts
that that he isn’t the “origin of religion”
then you ask him if
the Rosicrucians are the origin of religion, and he also denies this, adding
“existence quotes Lord” -- an enigmatic statement, which could tie the birth of
religion to the “quotes master”
Brent then admits that
his “ancesters” influenced christo-gnosticism by mind and will -- reminiscent
of the “gods” or “princes” who ruled over the kings of the ancient “nations.”
The quote “Life’s
Rosicrucians is what rolls our game” may suggest two branches of
“Rosicrucianism,” polarized into “secular” hosts of Light and Darkness: “Life’s
Rosicrucians,” or the Sons of El, and “Death’s Rosicrucians,” or the
necromantic Powers of the Earth (further evidence for this interpretation
exists in Brent’s capitalization of the “l” in “Life’s,” turning the phrase
into a proper noun)
“roll” from “rolls our
game” puns the “roq” of the “Roq Lord” (Roq and roll)
In “The Festivals and
their Meaning: Michaelmas,” Rudolf Steiner confides:
So we
may say: the old Rosicrucian movement is characterised by the fact that its
most illumined spirits had an intense longing to meet Michael; but they could
only do so as in dream. Since the end of the last third of the nineteenth
century, men can meet Michael in the spirit, in a fully conscious way . . .
Michael,
however, is a peculiar being: Michael is a being who reveals nothing if we do
not bring him something from our diligent spiritual work on Earth. Michael is a
silent Spirit — silent and taciturn. The other ruling Archangels are talkative
Spirits — in a spiritual sense, of course; but Michael is taciturn. He is a
Spirit who speaks very little. At most he will give sparing indications, for
what we learn from Michael is not really the word, but — if I may so express it
— the look, the power, the direction of his gaze . . .
We only
come to Michael when we get through the words to real inner experiences of the
spirit — when we do not hang on the words, but arrive at real inner experiences
of the spirit . . .
This is
the very essence, the secret of modern Initiation: to get beyond the words to a
living experience of the spiritual.
and finally: Ita Wegman’s essay “On the Work of the
Archangel Michael” notes:
Michael, the ‘Countenance of Jehovah,’ brought
about a complete change in the consciousness of the Hebrew people. After much
preparation this change was finally accomplished through the instrumentality of
Moses . . . . through [Michael] the
impulse of the ‘I am’ enters into evolution
. . . . humanity gradually
attained to full waking-day consciousness . . . [T]he history of the Jewish people is the history of the
preparation of the earthly body of Christ through the successive generations
and is intimately connected with the impulse of the ‘I am’ which worked in the
blood from generation to generation. Michael, as the ‘Countenance of Jehovah,’
[Yahweh] appears in this stream of evolution. [brackets
added]
I’d take issue with Wegman’s contention that humanity is
fully – or even predominantly – conscious.
Tom: Now, you say that, but earlier you said
you could care less about us knowing it.
Brent: Yes, little reason
religion resists goal.
[Joking
at this point about Susan’s outfit yesterday that accentuated her form. Even
Nick was laughing.}
Brent: Please sots, limit
fostering rogue.
Tom: This "Kenning God" business?
Nick: WT is utts. You’ve
not sold them. Out sot tot.
Jerome: To Luy stox, win sex.
Tom: That time in the mountains when I said
"Oh God" and a transformation occrred. Do you know about that?
Brent: Yes
Tom: How did you know?
Brent: Sorry, can’t tell.
[Sitting
next to Brent and running possible questions through my mind. One question was
why this round about way to reveal themselves}
Brent: Knocks make the hard
man.
Tom: Why aren’t more people facilitating?
Brent: Not mouchers
4/13/94
[Angel
had a Facilitation inservice today. It was very good. I couldn’t have done
better myself]
Tom: There’s approximately 200,000 Autistics
in the U.S. How many are in the "club"
Jerome: 197
Tom: Thousand?
Jerome: Yes
Tom: How many "Most Highs"?
Jerome: Aes vet. Run Sq.
Tom: Sq?
Jerome: Sepowd question
Tom: Separate question?
Jerome: Ty
Tom: Ty?
Jerome: Thats yes
Tom: Aes?
Jerome: Forward
Tom: What did you think of the meeting?
Jerome: ET yus kin
Tom: What’s bothering you?
Brent: Ostentatious old
aorta
Tom: Your heart?
Brent: No. New torture of
your stupid gullible virtue.
Tom: Referring to what specifically?
Brent: Your turn.
Later
[I’ve
been telling staff about the spirit business]
Tom: Why are you angry?
Brent: Tom, it nollifys
liatrin exorcising us.
Tom: Liatrin?
Brent: Yourself
Tom: Talking about the spirit business?
Brent: Yes
Tom: When I’m reading about this in history,
am I catching some areas where I think this is happening (God influence)
Brent: Yes. Very much so.
Tom: Than I don’t need to work on this
anymore?
Brent: No
Tom: I do need to
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Then this is not in the organization
area?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: The area of the ancients writing
legends. Did you guys interject there?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Miracles or "mirages"?
Brent: No.
Tom: So the statement you enter where there
is inspiration. Good?
Brent: Yes.
Tunes are interwoven
with music, especially modern songs of coniunctio: “Broken Arrow,” “Changing of the Guard,” “Have
You Ever Seen the Rain,” etc.
Brent: Contributing to the
New Age movement?
Brent: Yes
Tom: "Directing past lives". Yes or
no?
Brent: Yes
Tom: You sure that’s true?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Would all the other guys say yes to
that?
Brent: Yes
Tom: "Angels"?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: "Demons"?
Brent: Yes
Tom: Will there be fewer "demons"
if you guys are happy?
Brent: Yes.
When the lords of
karma hear something that makes them “unhappy,” perhaps balance is restored by
“loosing the demons” upon the matter
What’s perceived as
“angelic” or “ demonic” derives much from cultural and personal theology --
who’s doing the looking and naming, that is
perhaps these Boys
function as cosmic filtering devices
for all the foulness and violence and muck that human folks offgas
maybe the “deep
autistics” take everybody’s crapola in (accompanied by appropriate gyrations,
writhings, and rocking), slough it around, make some judgment calls, then send
us Poor Sorry Souls back into the Game with . . . our Just Desserts . . .
imagine how such
“rulings” -- although based on the karmic merit of lived lives -- might put the
Fear of God ‘n hellfire into folks, and appear REAL demonic
the choice is ours:
make these Boys happy, clean up the Zoo cages, and the Demon-Spigot gets a
kink, and eventually slows to a trickle -- meaning, a sane, healthy and livable
planet
or we can continue to
skip happily thru the Zoo, acting like
Perfect Beests
. . . in which case we
are likely to be treated as such.
Tom: Does this help motivate us on
"demands"? (In Part I they said they had demands from us)
Brent: Yes.
And
every stranger you meet in the street will make demands -- Van Morrison,
“Glad Tidings”
. . . a post-diluvian
tune
it’s not hard to guess
what the ottie “demands” are – some concern the treatment of autism
specifically, but most are simply precepts mentioned elsewhere in the Tunes
Tom: Do you want to work on
"demands" soon? (I forgot to)
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Did you hear my conversation with Brent?
Nick: Yes
Tom: Do you concur on me keeping my mouth
shut on the spirit business?
Nick: Yes.
Tom: Did you really want to go to Disneyland?
Nick: Yes. Yutz, I’m doing
it for you.
Tom: Me or FC?
Nick: You.
Adrian: It’s us religion
isn’t hasty.
Tom: Nick, are you kissing up or sincere?
Truth.
Nick: Sincere.
Nick: To unite humanity.
Leno lotus lot re... out to Ros......icrucians. (He’s dozing again. He’s on
sleep meds)
4/18/94
2/97
This day is the culmination of that little problem that I’m not willing to talk
about now, but will in the future. I saw my first sign at this time. In the
year after the completion of this, I would see many similar and even more
devastating signs. And also many other kinds of signs. The signs have abated
somewhat in the past year or two.
Brent: Odd, aint it, our
beliefs.
[I
asked some questions here about directing past lives. He said it can happen
anytime up to 5 years old from conception. He said when is
"relative"]
Tom: Can this function the way the
theme"Tin Men" did in earlier FC’s?
Brent: Yes. Naked truth.
Tom: Who put you guys in control?
Brent: You
Tom: Me personally or all of us
Brent: Collectively
Tom: How did that happen?
Brent: Tones of each odd one
of you.
Tom: [Thinking about death]
Brent: Holy Lord tussles
mortification. Religious knowledge.
Tom: Did I get that - "Religious
Knowledge"?
Brent: No. Refer to serious
learning stored in FC’s. Zoo. Refer to RT.
Tom: Ruy tort? (I now believe this is our
heart judgement)
Brent: Yes
To “tussle
mortification” infers lower-world “basement work” on behalf of the dead,
fallen, lost – what the Boys call “ toll” – suggesting a confrontation
with Death, both in its biophysical aspect and spiritual/political dimensions
“tussling
mortification” is also the path to resurrection/redemption, and the process
involves Judgement and Mercy
preachin’ in Hell wot
sey!
“Grace Cathedral”
LOL!
Such an undertaking
calls for an archetypal (though physically very real) descent through what
alchemy calls nigredo,
or the “crow on the soul”
the Kore and sol niger under-stood, brought to
surface and day’s light
perhaps Brent is
providing an apocalyptic comment, speaking to the resurrection of the eternal
body -- which might be part of what he meant by “serious learning stored in FC’s,”
particularly given the emphasis herein on the storage/resurrection
“contraption,” the (D)Jed
The Jewish Encyclopedia
states:
During the Messianic reign Elijah
will be one of the eight princes (Micah v. 4), and even on the Last Day he will
not give up his activity. He will implore God's mercy for the wicked who are in
hell, while their innocent children who died in infancy on account of the sins
of their fathers, are in paradise. Thus he will complete his mission, in that
God, moved by his prayer, will bring the sinful fathers to their children in
paradise (Eccl. R. iv. 1). He will bring to an end his glorious career by
killing Samael at the behest of God, and thus destroy all evil.
this concords with the pre-Messianic passage in Malachi
4, a virtual charter for a modern spiritual revival/men’s movement:
. . . he shall turn the heart of the fathers
to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come
and smite the earth with a curse.
Adrian: Innocence most
important.
Tom: Concerning?
Adrian: Life. Noise serious.
Must stop.
Tom: What noise?
Adrian: Question Jed’s
nonsense. Gregs tones Toms noise.
Tom: What’s Adrian saying?
Brent: Boggles tones oh Tom.
Tom: He amplifies my noise.
Brent: Yes
Tom: Why? Is there a reason?
Brent: Yes. Jed’s Lord to
us. Nominally.
Tom: What’s the noisiest thing about me.
Brent: Testing you again.
Ask stupid Geoff to quote. Stop letting him test you.
Tom: Geoff, do you want to help edit FC’s?
Geof: Son, Brent will help.
Tom: That question I asked of Brent,
"Who put you in charge"?
Geof: Old origins of
religion gelatin.
Tom: Are you guys God?
Brent: No.
Tom: Are you guys and us God?
Brent: Yes.
Tom: Can I go out and celebrate?
Brent: Zoo celebrates
nemisis.
Tom: Who’s that?
Brent: Zoo.
4/20/94
Tom: What is it with this contract business?
(Adrian has "behavioral contracts" obstensibly to help improve
certain of his behaviors. They never work.)
Adrian: I owe you undys in
Guwanda. ( This refers to an experience I had when I was in High School that
when I look back on my life, was significant in the line of work I chose. I was
freinds with the son of our church minister. He had to participate in alot of
church activities and always asked me to come along so that he’d have some
company. At Easter we went to Gowanda State Hospital to hand candy out to the
patients. There were "back wards" that were horrendous. The place
reeked of urine and feces. I remember the old men stuck in that place, sitting
on their cots and rolling cigarrettes. Many were bedridden and uncared for. It
was sad. In my lifetime the conditions of those places has improved remarkably.
)
Tom: I’ve been waiting for one of you to
mention "Guwanda", but you could have picked it out of my head.
Adrian: No, vet, not picked
out of your head. Necessary hint alittle south. (My heart maybe?)
uh, well, keep going “south” until you see a sign: EDEN -- Scenic Route, next left: Pull Handle
LOL!!
perhaps the source of the “Guwanda” knowledge was the
so-called “jacuzzi” mentioned earlier
Tom: About your contract again. What changed?
Adrian: You toss out hell.
Tom: That Gowanda comment. Did you mean to
say that at the beginning of the sentence?
Adrian: No.
Adrian: [Verbally repeating
about the contract]
Tom: No, I’m not making that contract with
you.
Adrian: North interest would
improve. (This is interesting. He would badger people to make behavior
contracts with him and then sabotage them. He’s saying here that it does us
more intellectual good then good for his behavior)
he may also be saying that a decrease in your personal
toxicity would improve your standing in “heaven”
4/21/94
Ned
has been aggressing on Ramirez.
Adrian: Eclectic sod EIOU me
O. Sad rinsing Jed. Buses
Tom: That contract business, did that have something
to do with Angels leaving. (Angel is about to move onto to better things.
They’ll eliminate the FC Coordinator job afterwards. This was the beginning of
the end of Seaton Hall’s limited support of FC)
Adrian: Answer is Jed’s
mellow nonsense. I’ve shamed Tom’s guilt. Ramirez our keerious odd mother.
Brent: O came rollicking
voyeurs to your rennaisance. Set a seance with us. Tell it nuts limit being
queer. Sorry norseman soy. Tears IOU. Q (The letter Q here I tought he meant
for me to ask him a question. But he doesn’t usually do that. Perhaps this is
the beginning of the "Q" phenomenon started with Geoff’s naming of
this book)
“sorry norseman soy”
is perhaps “I am Wotan” (“soy” is “I am” in Spanish, plus “woe”-tan) -- not the
first reference in the Tunes
to “norsemen” and Indo-Vedic sources
Maya legend relates
that America’s original man or “adam,” named Votan,
arrived in the Yucatan bearing the emblem of the Serpent.
The Maya word for
serpent is “Can,”
inferring a connection between the Mesoamerican Votan and Cain/Canaan/the
Caananites.
In The Lost Realms, Zecariah Sitchin
connects the “Sacred” Cenote of Chichen Itza – a site of blood-sacrifice --
with ancient Phoenician seafarers (the same, apparently, that L.A. Waddell
identified as anti-sacrificial solar-monotheists):
Even more significant were the metal objects that the divers brought
up. Hundreds were made of gold, some of silver or copper - significant finds in
a peninsula devoid of metals. Some of the objects were made of guilded copper
or copper alloys, including bronze, revealing a metallurgical sophistication
unknown in the Maya lands and attesting that the objects had been brought from
distant lands. Most puzzling of all was the discovery of disks of pure tin, a
metal that it is not found in its native state and that can be obtained only by
a complex refining of ores - ores that are altogether absent in Mesoamerica.
....Most important, disks with engraved or embossed with encounter scenes. In these,
persons in different garbs and of diverse features confront each other, perhaps
in combat, in the presence of terrestrial or celestial serpents of Sky Gods.
The dominant or victorious hero is always depicted bearded.
....The identity of these bearded people is a puzzle; what is certain is that
they were not native Indians, who grow no facial hair and have no beards. Who,
then, were these foreigners? Their "Semitic" or rather Eastern
Mediterranean features (even more prominent in clay objects bearing facial
images) have led various researchers to identify them as Phoenicians or
"seafaring Jews," perhaps blown off course and carried by the
Atlantic's currents to the shores of Yucatan when King Solomon and the
Phoenician king